The test of love: Part one.

Poem: The final Journey 'By me'

The bullet pierced Relena's liver; and she gasped as fell to the ground with a loud thud. A sharp pain ran up and down her body causing a fit of tremors. Quatre, the first to reach her, gathered her up into his arms; tears streaming down his face. "Relena hold on." He wepted, on the edge of panic. "Heero!" Relena called out in fear, her hand reaching out at something only she could only see. Quatre grasped Relena's hand tightly, "Don't fret sweet Relena he will come." Relena smiled weakly, Quatre's voice calling out for someone to call for an ambulance echoed in her ears, and then all was black.

White. Relena tried to sit up but the pain was too much. What had happened? Where was she?
"Your awake," Relena slowly turned her head slightly towards the voice. Quatre and Duo looked down at Relena with concern. Relena turned away and looked around, everything was white; white painted roof and walls, even the sheet that covered her were blinding white.
Relena turned back to Quatre and Duo confused, "Where am I? What happened?" Quatre's eyes soften even more, "Don't you remember? You were shot." Suddenly the fateful event replayed in her mind the loud bang, the sharp pain, the blood and the screaming.
Quatre interrupted her thoughts, "Your at the hospital..To.to tell you the truth Relena it.it doesn't look good at all. But don't give up you hear, you must fight we..we still need you." Quatre cried out in grief tears streaming down his face.
Relena grabbed Quatre's hand "Heero! Is he coming?" "Yes he should be here soon." Quatre mumbled nodding. Relena relaxed, suddenly she felt weak, as if.as if her life was draining away. She began to close her eyes, she felt so tired. No! Relena forced her eyes open she mustn't sleep; she must fight.fight for her life, fight like she did for peace. They still needed her the colonies, the people on Earth, the Gundam pilots and.Heero. I must live for them all, especially for Heero.

As I lay here on my death bed

Waiting for my last breath to draw near.

I cling tight to the thin thread of life

Willing myself to live.

It was creeping up on her, she could feel it, but she could no longer feel the pain.'was this how it felt to die?' Tears began to run down her face, she didn't want to die; there was so much for her to do still. Sure she had to die one day, but why now she was still young, she still had things to live for. What had she done to deserve this? 'Please don't let me die, not until Heero arrives' Relena prayed to herself, 'Heero hurry please I don't know how much longer I can hold on'. Just then as if to answer her pray Heero stormed in followed by Trowa and Wufie. Heero quickly walked to the bed placing a bunch of flowers he had brought on the bedside table and knelt beside Relena grabbing her hand, giving her strength and hope.
"Relena are you alright?" Relena smiled weakly tears streaming down her face, "I am now, oh Heero thank-you for coming, I'd be lost if you hadn't." she wept. Heero let go of her hand and gently wiped away her tears, "If only I had been there, then this would not have happened." Heero felt a hand on his shoulder, turning slightly he looked up to find Duo looking down at him in concern, "Heero can we talk to you outside for a second?"

I do not feel pain as death creeps closer.

Only fear of what's to come

I wish not to die

But like everyone else,

I also must take this journey

Heero nodded stood up and silently headed toward the door, looking back sadly as he exited the room. Relena looked so peaceful lying there, and so afraid. He wanted to run back to her side and comfort her, to hold her close to his heart, Why her? What did she do to deserve this? Heero felt so angry, whoever did this to her would pay dearly. Heero stepped out closing the door slowly behind him leaving Relena alone in silence. Fear wrapped itself around her refusing to let go. What will happen to me when I die is there really a life after death? How did she end up here? What path did she take to lead her here? Relena began to shuffle though her memory of her life; she had had a good life, living around people who had loved her and whom she had loved back. Relena shook her head why was she talking in past tense? She was having a good life, she was living around people who love her, the Gundam pilots even though most would not admit it, if they didn't love her then why were they here now.Heero.he loved her didn't he. Yes Heero does, the look in his eyes, the he looked at her tells all. Is this how they would think of her in past tensed? Remember that Relena? She was a nice girl. Relena turned and looked at the flowers, so bright and colorful in this white room. "No I don't want it to happen like that, I don't want to be some one who once was."

And as I lie here all alone I wonder;

What will become of me when I'm gone?

I do not wish to be just a memory,

Of some one who once was.

And I do not wish to be talked about in past tense.

"What's going to happen now?" Relena continued to talk to the flowers, "What will happen to the people of the colonies and of earth? Will they continue to fight for peace that I have been striving for? Will they forget me along the way? Will I just become a flickering light in their mind? And..and the pilots what will become of them? Will they cry for me when I die or.or?" Fear wrapped itself around her tighter making it hard for her to breathe, "or will they too forget me and go on with their lives?"

Also I wonder what will happen to the people I love.

Will they cry or will they go on with life , As if it never happened

As if I never existed.

"Relena!" Heero entered the room interrupting Relena's little chat with the flowers. Relena turned from the flowers and looked at Heero, his eyes were slightly red and moist, had he been crying? Heero walked to the bed and sat on the edge looking down at her. He couldn't hold them back any longer his throat was beginning to hurt. Tears streamed down his face, Relena felt Heero's tears splatter onto her face, washing away all her doubts, her heart skipped a beat he was.he was crying for her. Using all the strength she had left Relena sat up and took Heero's face into her hands. She looked deep into his eyes, if she was going to die this was the last thing she wanted to see. Relena turned away and looked around the room looking at all the pilots in the face all looked back at her sadly. Lastly her eyes rested on the flowers so colorful making the room look cheery. Relena sighed with content, they were beautiful.but not as beautiful as..Relena turned back to the tear streaked Heero and smiled.

Finally with all the strength I have left.

I sit up and take one last look around,

Taking in as much as I can

This here; my cheery room,

Is the last memory of life I have.

Relena swayed slightly she was losing the battle very quickly soon she would be too weak to even keep her eyes open. "Heero" Relena whispered, "will you do something for me?" Heero nodded he would do anything for her, "Yes, what is it you want?" Relena closed her eyes and released Heero's face, "Hold me, please." Gently Heero wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him pushing away the fear that had engulfed her. She sighed, "Heero don't forget me." Heero tightened his grip, "How could I forget you, you gave me a reason to live."

And then at last I'm satisfied, turning my head to death.

It's time to go at last,

Death holds out its hand

Without hesitation I take it.

Willing to end this life at last.

Relena felt warm and safe in Heero's arms. Nothing bad could reach her while he held her, nothing, no sorrow or pain. She felt peaceful and happy in his arms; She wanted to stay like this forever, but forever was a long time, time that she didn't have. "Heero, I.I love you" Heero gently pulled away and looked into her eyes "And I love you, Relena." He leant forward and kissed her softly, "I give you my heart and a promise to keep with you always, I promise to find a way to bring you back." Relena smiled, "and I believe you will, Heero my love." Heero pulled her close once more, he felt Relena take her last breathe and then felt her body go limp in his arms but he didn't let go he sat there holding her close for what seemed like hours sobbing into her hair as the heart monitor rang loudly in the background. He sat there holding her tight vowing to bring her back..Somehow he would find a way.

Its hand was not icy, like people say.

And death is not ugly or scary, but it is beautiful

Almost as beautiful as life.

For no longer will I feel pain and sorrow, only peace and Happiness

A/N well what did ya think? Don't worry it's not finish there's one more part..maybe three I don't know.

To tell ya the truth I've already written part two but I'm an evil Bitch mwaa mwaa mwaa!