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7th Wheel
It's been a year since the defeat of Ultimecia and things have returned to normal, well for the most part anyway. After everything was settled Squall continued as headmaster of Balamb and Rinoa joined the staff as an instructor. Granted she's not a SeeD but she was the best candidate to teach the Sorceress and Magic class, well besides Matron I suppose. Matron and Cid are living peaceful out on the waterfront though. Sometimes I envy them.
I envy a lot of people. Everyone else seems so happy. Rinoa and Squall are getting along great, Selphie and Irvine are still as cute as ever, Fujin and Raijin came back to Balamb and have been doing great, Sis Ellone is happily living with Laguna in Esther... And Zell...
Zell and Seifer are now together. Most people were shocked. Me? Not so much. I guess I can just read people better, I am a "prodigy" after all. They still bicker and get into fights but I can see the love they share for each other. Probably because I wish I had something similar...
It was surprising how they got together though, I will admit that. Seifer didn't wish to return to Garden but Fujin and Raijin convinced him. Zell didn't seem to happy about that. The fighting was endless and loud. I yelled at them plenty of times. Someone has to control them, right? What happened after only a few weeks of Seifer being here was a shocker to everyone. They were found in a closet making out. They were disciplined of course, and we of the "Ultimecia Party" were quite reluctant of Zell's new interest in Seifer, but then we thought about it. Seifer is our brother, just like Zell, and Squall, and Irvine. Just like Selphie is our sister. All of us at the orphanage have always been a family, even when we were separated and forgot about each other.
So it became the orphanage gang again, plus Rinoa. We couldn't exclude Rinoa, she was Squall's girlfriend and a good friend to all of us. That makes seven. Raijin and Fujin are more Seifer's, and Zell's, friends and I don't really see them all that much. So it's the seven of us. Three couples and me.
I sigh. They probably know something has been bothering me, I can see it in their eyes. But their big sister is suppose to take care of them, not the other way around. Sometimes I really miss Ellone... At least she knew how to be a real big sis. Not like me. I'm too moody, too brooding. I'm boring and strict too. They tell me all the time. I know, I'm just an add on. I'm just...
I think too much. I'm always thinking... and bottling up the emotions that ensue. They are all so lucky to have each other the way they do. And me, as their big sister, am happy for them. But.. I'm jealous. I would never admit that, even under torture, but I am jealous of my friends. I wish I knew the happiness they knew, the touch of another human being, the unconditional love and affection... How I wish...
Sometimes my mind wanders back to when Squall was taking his exam. What would have happened if I did more? After I got stripped of my Instructor title and was talking to him in private... What would have happened if I kissed him? Sometimes my mind wanders... and it makes me sad.
Selphie calls to me, snapping me out of my mental haze. There they are... My brothers and sisters. Squall has his arm around Rinoa, Irvine is giving Selphie a piggy back ride, and Seifer is messing with Zell's hair, who is red with anger. They are my family. And my emotions... they don't belong.
I am the seventh wheel. And I am happy.