Closer

"It's Coming Closer"

A/N: I own nothing. You know it. I know it. Let's not rub it in ok?

Premise: For the sake of setup, we're in Breaking Dawn. Except Jacob never went to the wedding, he was home long enough to grab his crap and go. Everything else went on as planned.

I hated bars. There was too much smoke, the music wasn't loud enough and it smelled like piss, booze, sex and despair. But it was home tonight.

"Hey cutie," some woman old enough to be my mother is stroking my arm. Her hands were wet with God knows what. I wanted to tell her off, but that required talking. I didn't want to talk.

But she took the hint soon enough when I blew a whole mouth full of smoke in her face. She coughed, spluttered and stumbled away calling me everything but a child of God.

Good. Let her hate me.

But guilt made me put the cigarette out anyway, not that I liked smoking. It was something to do. Something new. Part of the new Jacob Black that didn't get his world torn apart by twig thin angsty girls.

A world that shouldn't include pale ass vampires who reeked and dropped the room temperature 10 degrees.

But its as if my life can't be simple, one was now sitting beside me and I didn't have to guess which one it was.

"What could you possibly want?" I didn't have the strength to be angry or look his way.

"To talk." His voice sounded like nails on a chalk board, or the screech of a multi car collision.

"Next time just pick up a phone," I laughed in my drink. It burned going down, burned satisfyingly. I didn't like to drink either, it just seemed like what the new Jacob Black would do. The new Jacob who didn't have a treaty to protect.

"Before you bite my head off," his voice was calm, "Hear me out." I groaned and rolled off the bar stool swiftly.

"I don't have to, and I don't want to." I easily moved through the thin crowd. I ignored the leering eyes. I ignored the gasps. I ducked my head at the exit and sucked in a fresh breath.

I growled because the bloodsucker had followed me out.

"Bella is dying," I registered the pain in his voice before my own took the wind out of me. But I straightened, because the new Jacob Black was stronger than love.

"People die," I manage but it sounds false. My heart runs away on its own accord, screaming at me to turn around and ask what was wrong. But I squelched the desire to know. Bella be damned. Bella made her bed, now she had to lie in it. He probably broke her on their honeymoon, my lip curled.

"It's more complicated than that," and I remembered the leech could read minds. Right.

He looked like he was dying himself. His appearance wasn't nearly as put together as I was used to seeing. He looked haggard, haunted. And I felt satisfied, good. Hopefully he died with Bella.

"You don't mean that," he whispered.

"Sure I do," I answer good naturedly lighting another cigarette and mounting my bike.

"I know you still love her," I smile at him. A blonde is passing, switching her eyes between the two of us so fast it's comical. There isn't fear, only lust.

Stupid, stupid, stupid humans.

And stupid, stupid Bella.

I don't block my mind, I let him in. Let him see what he did to me, what his wife did to me. I let him see my pain, I let him feel it. Every wall, I shattered with a battering ram, opening up all my lost hope, every nightmare. I let wave after crushing wave of agony roll through me like a thunderstorm and didn't stop until he had hit his knees.

And then I shut the door on my emotions. I had become an expert on door shutting.

I revved my engine and disappeared into the night with one last thought repeating in my mind like a broken record. Love doesn't mean shit.

Jake's a little pissed off don't you think? It gets worse. You may hate our favorite werewolf by the time this story ends.

Also, this story came purely out of numerous listens to Closer by Kings of Leon. The song is freaking amazing. There's a lot of raw emotion in there and it definitely influenced how, broken, Jake is in this story. Just, listen to the song. If you love it, and even if you hate it, let me know. Tell me what you think, because I'm sure you'll find this song perfect for Jake too.