I think this is really sucky, but I'm going to upload it for the heck of it, enjoy :)
I'm an idiot. Why am I unzipping myself before Jake? Am I really in love or just desperate to get over Eli? My whole life I believed that sex before marriage was a sin and here I am about to flash my boobs to someone who used to throw dead frogs at me! "I'm sorry Jake." I zipped up my shirt and climbed off of him. Jake's eyebrows knotted together in confusion. "What's wrong?" he propped himself up with his elbows and stared at me wondering what he did wrong. I shook my head, my eyes glued to the wooden floor. Now he thinks I'm a tease. I'm the one to propose the idea and I'm the first one to stop it from happening. "Do you want to do this some other time?" Jake sheepishly retorted bring his hand to the back of his head. No! Of course not. I don't want to share this experience with you at all! This whole time I've convinced myself that I was over Eli and in love with Jake. When I was ready to give him the most precious thing to me to him, I felt like I was being a little whore. It's my first tome. I should be underneath trembling at his touch. Instead I was on top of him stripping as if I've done this a million times before. I detached my eyes from the floor and looked at him as he smirked. That smirk that was once portrayed by him. It was then that I realized I was never in love with Jake, I was just infatuated with his good looks and charm. "I have to go." I rushed to my porch and grabbed my bike.
I don't know what I'm doing at all. Too late, I'm already here. Knock Knock. Within a few seconds the door flung open and was greeted with forest green eyes. "Eli." I muttered. "Clare? What are you doing here?" he closed the door behind him. "I just...I don't know. I shouldn't have come." I wailed my arms around in humiliation. "I just. I wanted to look at you." Eli's eyebrows stretched to the top of his head. "Are you okay?" He chuckled softly. Oh, how much I missed his hair, his yes, his rings, his guyliner, everything. I just miss him. I giggled lightly, "Yes, I'm fine Eli." Shoot what do I do now? "This might come off as a big surprise, but I miss you Eli. Just an hour ago I was about to give up my abstinence. Then I thought about Hotel Eli and how I never accepted or declined the offer. I just want to say-" "Eli? Are you ready for our date?" A very familiar voice huffed behind me. Imogen. I spun around to meet her icy stare. Looks, like I'm too late. He probably doesn't even want me here! "What is s he doing here?" Imogen growled and clenched her jaw, abusing the pavement beneath her with her foot. Eli opened his mouth to speak, but I interrupted him, "I came here because I wanted to," I once again positioned myself in front of him, "I wanted to say that I love you, but it's very evident that I'm, I'm too late. I'll go now. Enjoy your date." I gave them a forced smile and walked away, feeling my face nearly drowning in tears. "Clare." his voice came out angelic and soft. "Don't go after her! What about us?" Imogen seemed hurt and betrayed. I kept walking, he once made me happy and now he needs to make her happy too.
Ugh, whatever. I don't like it, but you know what they say, You are your worst critic. So how about clicking that sexy review button ;)
~blackbowtielily