"I'm so tired. Just tired of all this…"
"I know and I wish there was…"
"No, don't start. Do you know what it's like to not hold my daughter in public or the love of my life? Do you know how I feel every time I see this pictures? No you don't because you get to be a part of it and I am just background."
"That's not fair…"
"Exactly my point. It's not fair okay. I want to live my life normally without having to worry about what people will say…"
"Taylor…"
"No Laura, how long will this take? Huh? Am I going to live in the shadows forever? I cant go to the park with you and Ella or just to the stupid grocery store. I just want to live a normal life okay. I mean what would Ella say when she grows up and never finds pictures of us online, just you and 'Ben' her supposedly uncle. For once just put yourself in my shoes and just imagine how I am feeling." Taylor let out a tired sigh and leaned against the door frame of their closet while Laura sat on the bed.
"Tay, babe of course I know it must be hard for you…" Laura didn't even know what to say truly.
"Hard? Hard? Laura we have a two year old daughter whom the public knows as yours and Ben's. We have been married for over three and a half years now but that seems to only exist in the confines of our home and I'm tired of that. If being famous means having to sacrifice this much then I don't want to be a celebrity anymore. I just want a normal life. Is that too much to ask?" Taylor shed silent tears and she decided to leave the room but Laura held her back by the wrist.
Taylor just looked at Laura expectedly and as always Laura didn't have anything to say. She opened and closed her mouth like a fish out of water.
Laura and Taylor have been together since the second season of OITNB. They got married and had a daughter together. In the confines of their home life was amazing and blissful. However in public they couldn't be seen together.
At first it was because of the show, OITNB, Laura had to 'date' Ben because the fans were beginning to go crazy over Laylor as the pair couldn't get enough of each other and being discreet was beginning to be hard for them.
As time went on the show didn't care anymore about them being together but their publicists, Laura's to be precise didn't think them going public was going to be good for Laura's upcoming book, the stash plan and Laura was also a bit worried because if her beliefs, although their close friends and family knew about them and Ben was a friend of theirs too.
Taylor had been always talking about the same thing over and over but she would let it go for the time being but now her patience was fading to nothing, I mean how would you feel if someone lived your life publicly?
You cant even go to doctors appointments, picnic, on public dates and bow soon Ella will be going to kindergarten and Piper would have to miss the first day. Nope, not happening, she is tired of all this. If Laura is serious about them then she will have to make a choice.
Laura laid down on the bed with tears flowing from her eyes. She herself doesn't know what's stopping her from telling everyone about her real life, maybe is is just not ready to share them with the world, is that selfish? Well if her wife is hurting in the process then it is. A message chimed through her phone, it was from Taylor.
Taylor: I am just going to stay at my mom's just for tonight, I need to clear my head.
They never spent a night apart ever since forever, Laura doesn't even remember which is why she is crying even harder now. Even when they fight they would always resolve it before bedtime.
"I need to make things right." Laura thought before sleep overtook her exhausted body. She was woken up in the middle of the night as she felt the bed shift on her side of it because she was currently occupying Taylor's side since it smelled like her.
She opened her eyes to find Taylor staring at her.
"I'm so sorry for waking you and I am sorry for leaving you alone. I know I broke a promise because we said never to go to bed angry and we have never been apart ever since forever and truly speaking I just couldn't sleep without you by my side and I couldn't leave you to deal with Ella alone at night. I just…"
Laura interrupted Taylor's rambling with a soft, loving kiss and she pulled her into a tight hug.
"Hey it's okay Tay. I get it and I promise this time I will make it right okay. I am sorry I have been leaving in denial for so long. Maybe I was just selfish because I didn't want to share you guys with the world but I was hurting you and I am sorry. I love you so much Tay and I would do anything for you." Laura said after pulling back from the hug.
She was looking at Taylor directly in the eyes as she spoke so Taylor could see the sincerity her eyes conveyed.
"I love you too Laur, now let's get some sleep before, you know who decide to wake up and want to play. We will talk tomorrow." Taylor pecked Laura's lips a couple of times and pulled her into her arms so Laura was sleeping with her head on Taylor's chest and they drifted off into a peace sleep.
As promised Laura was determined to make it right. Enough with hurting the people she loved and cared for. I mean Ben too should be able to be with his wife Bridgette with him in public too.
In the morning Laura woke up early and decided to make her wife breakfast after feeding their daughter and she decided to make her YouTube video as she makes breakfast, kill two birds with one stone.
…..Video clip…..
"Hey! guys welcome back to my channel."
"So today I will be making breakfast so it will include blueberry pancakes, bacon and eggs."
"Okay let's get to it. So every ingredient I have is organic, got to keep my family healthy." Laura winked at the camera.
"Okay so I have this special pan where I can make my bacon and eggs at the same time as you can see it has sections so yeah, it makes my life so easier." Laura placed the pan on the stove and switched it on.
"Okay so what you're going to need is a bit of olive oil on both sides of the pan, then you place your bacon this side once it's hot and the your eggs this side. Then add a little bit of salt, just the way you enjoy it. And just like that, you're done and now it's time for the pancakes." Laura switched off the stove and placed the eggs and bacon on the side while she started working on the pancakes.
"Okay now for the pancakes, guys I'm sorry but I got an already mixed flour for today but I promise I will show you how I do it next time. So I just add milk and eggs to my dry ingredients and just pour in the pan and voila." Laura finished up everything and dishes up and placed everything on a tray with a single white rose on the side.
"Okay guys so today I have a very special video. I have some apologising to do and I need you guy's help. So this is my sort of piece offering, well part of it. Okay now follow me." Laura carried the tray of food up the stairs to their room and pushed open the door with her hip and went through with the camera crew following close behind.
She placed the food down on the side of the bed and turned her attention to the hip of blankets on the bed.
"Wakey wakey sleepyhead." Laura teased with a smile.
"Mmm mmmnoo…"
"I got breakfast in bed and it's your favourite." Laura said.
"Bl..e...mmm.. rry… cakes?"
"Yes blueberry pancakes with eggs and bacon. "oh and I got your favourite coffee too." Laura said with a chuckle at her lovers adorableness.
Taylor removed the blankets off her head happily and kissed Laura with her eyes still struggling to open and when they did she was shocked to see cameras in the bedroom.
"Um Laur,…why… is there… cameras in our room? What's going on?" Taylor asked in a confused and unsure tone.
At least she didn't sound mad and for that Laura was relieved.
"Well Tay I was filming my YouTube video today and I wanted to share with the world the amazing person I was making this food for you know. I am tired of hiding too and I am so sorry for hurting you. I don't want to hide anymore. So say hi to everyone." Laura said the last part to lighten up the mood.
Taylor just pulled her into a kiss and when they pulled apart Laura faced the camera.
"Hi guys once again, so I first of all would like to apologize to you for not being honest with you all in the beginning about our relationship. Taylor and I have been together since the second season of OITNB and have been married for three and a half years. Ella is our daughter and Ben is not really my partner. I know you guys feel betrayed and it's all my fault, not only have I disappointed you guys but I have also hurt my wife and denied her a lot of memories and special moments and I'm terribly sorry." Laura turned her head to face her wife. Taylor took her hand in hers and squeezed lightly for assurance.
"I am really lucky to have you in my life and thank you for sticking with me." Laura kissed Taylor on her cheek soundly.
"Its not entirely your fault but I do accept your piece offering anytime." Taylor chuckled as she was tilting her head towards the breakfast Laura made and Laura also chuckled through her tears.
"I love you so much my heart's wife." Laura said.
"And I love you more my dearest wife." Taylor sealed it with a kiss.
"And that's it for today guys. Until next time. Bye" Laura said facing the camera and Taylor waved at the camera too.
"Bye"
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The camera crew left soon after.
"Wow babe I still cannot believe you just did that. What will your publicist say about it?" not that Taylor wasn't thrilled about this whole thing, no she was actually over the moon but she couldn't help but wonder…
"I don't care anymore. I am sorry, so sorry that I only got my head out of my ass late. I mean I wish I could reverse the time and do it all over again and I promise you I'll do everything differently. I have robbed you of so much that I cant even repay. I actually cant believe that it was just the thought of not having you in our bed even just for a night that made me realize I need to change and fast. I am so sorry babe and I know that sorry won't take it back and make it okay., I just…" Laura was crying and so was Taylor.
"Hey, hey it's okay. I forgive you and I would do it all over again if it meant having you by my side for eternity. Let's move past this and open a new leave in our lives. Okay?" Laura just nodded and they shared a chaste kiss.
"I love you Tay"
"I love you too Laur."
….THE END….