Love fades mine has.
Those cruel, shocking words were slapped in my face. I stared at him. He had his Guardian mask on but I could see in his eyes showed me the entrance to his soul. Those words were the end of my soul, the end of the meaning of life. I could feel them clipping the stings of life I had. Tears watered my eyes.
" Rose." Dimitri said. "I cant love you." That voice, the voice that told me he had loved me. That mentored me. I ran out of the chapel. Tears streaming down my face I ran to my room. I packed, I knew I couldn't stay, Lissa had Christian and Eddie and him to take care of her. I scribbled notes to my friends, my mother and Adrian. I called Abe and he booked me a ticket to Russia. The only place I could call home. I went to Hans and was granted leave. I was done here at court, Abe was waiting and we drove in silence to the airport. I stared out the window, not seeing anything. The music was on playing Skinny love by Birdy.
Pour a little salt, we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer
This was like me and Dimitri, the skinny love we had.
I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right at the moment this order's tall
Ironic. He told me to go away, he cut my ropes and let me fall.
And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
Wow. Really scary, it was to much like him. No just focus on the scenery Rose, not him.
And in the morning, I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines
Tears were pouring down my face now. I told him to forgive me and about how he owed it to me after turning him to a dhampir but no. He held Lissa with such high respect and couldn't even look at me. And he held the fines of not loving me.
Come on skinny love, what happened here?
Suckle on the hope in light brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split
What happened to me and Dimitri? We had love true as can be. Now it was gone.
And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
To be patient and that he is no longer stigroi and that I still loved him and to be balance and to be kind and forgive himself.
And now all your love is wasted
Then who the hell was I?
'Cause now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines
I'm breaking off from him to go to Baia, my only home left. His love was wasted as he didn't love me. Who the hell was I to think he would be the same?
Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?
Would he let anyone love him? Would or could anyone fight for him after I did?
Come on skinny love
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
As the song finished, we were there. " Baba, thank you." I kissed my father, Abe, on the cheek, his eyes were looking at me with love.
"come back soon Kiz," he said. I gave him a hug. Leaving my old life away from the Moroi court, Lissa, my friends, Mom and Dimitri. Thinking that last name was a knife through my heart. I took a deep breath and boarded the plane to see the Belikovs.
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I popped into Lissa's head while on my plane. She was with Christian at the cafe. "where is Rose?" she asked him.
"I don't know?" he looked confused.
"I can feel sadness through the bond. Usually I can't read her, do you think it's starting to develop both ways?"
" i don't know." Christian replied, standing up he walked Lissa to my room. She knocked and when there was no answer.
" Rose?" she called tentatively. She opened the door and gasped when she saw my unusually tidy room and the letters on my desk.
" Princess?" Dimitri came up with Eddie, back from their shifts. He saw her face looking ghostly pale.
" she left us." Lissa whispered.
"who?" Dimitri looked at her with dread.
" Rose" she said choking back sobs. She read her letter.
Lissa,
I'm so so sorry. You are my sister, my bondmate. I love you so much. I had to leave. Away from court and Dimitri. It breaks my heart to be around him. I can't do it Liss. I love you forever. Don't look for me, I'm not coming back. I will take the darkness from you. I will miss you Liss.
Yours Rose.
Christian and Eddie looked at her in shock as she broke into hysterical crying. I hated hurting her like this. Dimitri just stood there as still as stone. Looking into nothing. Janine came in to hear Lissa's letter. She was soon joining Lissa in crying and with shaking hands she read her letter.
Mom.
I love you so much. You are the best guardian and a great mother. You may not have been there for me but I understand. Take care of Liss for me. I love you.
Rose
Christian was next,
Christian (sparky),
Take care of Liss. Thanks for being there for me and understanding about Dimitri. You ,are the brother I never had. Will miss your snarky comments and out bickering. No matter what I love you as a brother. Look after her with your heart.
Rose
Eddie was next. First Mase now me, poor Eddie.
Eddie.
You, like Christian, are my brother I never had. I will miss you so much. Protect them. I love you and you have been understanding and kind. Mason would have agreed with me for saying this, you are the bomb. You are my brother.
Miss you brother. Take care.
Rose
Abe walked in looking shocked. "where have you been?" Janine asked.
"I just dropped Rose at the airport." he stated. "no wait-" he held his hand at Janine, who was about to interrupt "no I do not know where she is going. Just that she needed to get out of here, she didn't tell me why or who exactly. But she Is probably hours away."
" me." Dimitri whispered. His face contorted with pain.
"what?!" Abe whipped his head around as they all looked at him.
" yeah, Belikov, what?" Adrian waltzed in. Looking around him at Lissa's tear filled face and Janine's sobbing.
" Rose is gone." Lissa spoke sounding small.
"WHAT?" Adrian tore open his letter
Adrian,
I love you so much. I hate to do this but I won't come back. I will see you in my dreams. I can't look at Dimitri knowing he won't even look at me. I love you but only as a friend. You are my rock. I hope you don't hate me.
Rose
"where's your letter?" Christan asked Dimitri coldly.
Dimitris head snapped up.
Dimitri,
So this is how it ends. Dimitri. Have a nice life adoring Lissa. Have fun getting over your trauma. No one will fight, no one will love you, no one will kiss you as I did. Remember Dimitri. I fought. I would have fought untill it killed me to have you again. Guess my work screwed up huh? Don't look for me. I'm doing something you never bothered to.
Rose.
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" Attention ladies and gentlemen. The plane has landed." the plane attendants voice brought me out of Lissa's head. I got my small belongings and left the airport. I got a cab to The Belikovs.
I returned to Lissa's head.
The song Without a word by Birdy was playing. While Lissa sobbed and everyone was showing some kind on emotion. Janine desperation, Abe anger at Dimitri, Dimitri despair, Eddie crying, Christian angry and well as sad, Adrian pissed at Dimitri and desperate.
Hey you can tell the world
That you're leaving
And you can pack your bags
And spread your wings
And you can tell them all
That it's over
But while you wave goodbye
I'll be getting closer
God. It was ironic. Bloody Birdy ( A.N I have nothing against Birdy) it was so similar to me. I left without a word other than a note.
Stand there and look into my eyes
And tell me that all we had were lies
Show me that to you it don't count
And I'll stand here if you prefer
Yes I'll leave you without a word
Without a word
I left Dimitri because he told me all we have was lies. I ground my head in frustration. How come these songs always come to haunt me?
And you can tell the world
That you're tired
But your excuses, they won't work
'Cause I'll know that you're lying
Every time that I see your face
I notice all the suffering
Just turn to my embrace
I won't let you come to nothing
I can see Dimitri's suffering, he may not love me but that does not mean I can read him as easily as I did before.
Stand there and look into my eyes
And tell me that all we had were lies
Show me that to you it don't count
And I'll stand here if you prefer
Yes I'll leave you without a word
Without a word
I left my family and friends with out a word. But I have to do this. I reached the Belikovs and knocked.
" Roza?"