"what's the crimson squad" at the time I didn't understand. I thought it was some machine club or something. So I didn't understand why he had insisted on coming to the oasis where we went 3 years before. I hadn't prepared myself for the shock that was to hit me with his next words.

"I am one of the candidates in several teams that are being formed and trained to become an elite mercenary squad called the Crimson Squad under the command of Bevelle. The training will be done here in the desert… but far away. Then we leave for mushroom rock to fight sin. I don't know how long we will be gone, and I don't want you to sit around and ache for me because I may never return… I'm sorry it has come to this Cids girl"

I sighed, I was oblivious to where this was going, and instead of figuring out the heart breaking news he was trying to tell me I merely took my time to correct him once more with a laugh

"I have a name, its Rikku. You should know that by now"

But he didn't laugh back, he was being so quiet… where was the fun, enthusiastic gippal I knew and loved. I tried to look at him to figure out what was wrong but He looked away, purposely avoiding my gaze "this isn't time for joking, I don't think u understand what I'm trying to tell you, I'm leaving, most likely for good. I don't want to see you hurt…"

He didn't finish his sentence. He didn't have to I finally understood. He was breaking my heart without saying anything more. And I wasn't going to stick around to hear it. I stood up and looked out at the water of the oasis. 3 years ago it had looked so pretty, almost singing out the joy of my heart. But now it was laughing at me…mocking me.

"I see…well then go! Just go… I don't want to look at you right now! Go off to Bevelle or where ever"

A tear had slipped down my cheek and I wiped it away fiercely so he wouldn't see it. He rose and put one hand on my shoulder, but I shrugged it off and took a few steps away. He sighed and tried to make me understand, try to make me realize he still cared and was doing this to protect me. But I was foolish, and I didn't listen. I began to walk away towards the water hoping it would wash me away so I could forget all this happened and we could go back to being us again. As the water reached my knees He tried to call after me…stop me from leaving our love, our friendship forever in anger.

"Rikku wait…I was just"

I raised one hand to silence him. I didn't want to hear it. He Broke my heart so he didn't deserve my attention.. in fact he didn't even deserve my name

"its Cids girl"