Chapter One
Summer, the most boring season of the year. Sitting at home doing nothing but, chat online all day is what I do only in the summer. I wake up around one in the afternoon everyday and start my day by signing onto my chatting online account. I don t know how to pronounce it but whatever. The school year starts tomorrow, which means today is the last day of summer vacation, and boy; does it stink.
Hi, I m Clarisse Kent. I m not a average girl, I say. I have short dark brown shoulder length hair, dark brown eyes, and am slightly overweight. I don t take judgments seriously, and I don t dare to care about my life so much, because it s already stupid enough. My mom calls me a low life because I just sit around and stare on the computer screen 24/7. I never had a boyfriend, and I don t care about having one, but sometimes, I wonder how it feels like having one in person. The only relationships that I had was the ones I met online, and it doesn t really help me on anything. Boyfriends or not, I ll never have one because guys my age these days like girls that are athletic skinny, pretty, and with brains, unlike me. It s around eleven-thirty p.m now, and I m still online chatting with people around the world, which I call my friends . Late nights, are the ones that kills me the most. I get dark circles and bad headaches when I wake up in the morning but, I m quite use to it now. As I was about to sign off, a small private chat box pops up with the name mutantboy13 :
mutantboy13 : Hey
sweetdollface7 : Hi(:
mutantboy13 : ASL?
sweetdollface7 : huh?
mutantboy13 : ASL? as in Age, sex, location
sweetdollface7 : Uhmm? huh?
mutantboy13 : Yea? a.s.l, for example- 15 m ca
sweetdollface7 : Oh? LOL, never heard of that before.
mutantboy13 : so, ASL?
sweetdollface7 : Why?
mutantboy13 : No?
sweetdollface7 : LOL, Uhmm 15 f Ca?
mutantboy13 : NO WAY! ME TOO! I live in cali too.
sweetdollface7 : Uhmm okay?
mutantboy13 : What city do you live in?
sweetdollface7 : Merced & you?
mutantboy13 : WTF? me too! Do I know you? have I seen you before?
sweetdollface7 : WTHeck? That s weird and kinda scary.
mutantboy13 : how?
sweetdollface7 : Idk, what do you think? DUH!
mutantboy13 : Oh? LOL, so.
sweetdollface7 : Are you lying?
mutantboy13 : No, why would I lie?
sweetdollface7 : Because this is a chat room full of weirdo s around the world.
mutantboy13 : Weirdo s like you? HAH! Jk
sweetdollface7 : Uhm yea? Sure LOL
mutantboy13 :what school do you go to?
sweetdollface7 : why do you want to know?
mutantboy13 : Just wondering(:
sweetdollface7 : And why would I tell?
mutantboy13 : Because I want to know.
sweetdollface7 : What school do you go to then?
mutantboy13 : GVHS (Golden valley)
sweetdollface7 : WHAT THE ?
mutantboy13 : What?
sweetdollface7 : I go there too!
mutantboy13 : LOL, really?
sweetdollface7 : Are you stalking me?
mutantboy13 : Uhh? no, you want me to? Give me your number & address, lol, JK sweetdollface7 : Your scary
mutantboy13 : Well, your weird
mutantboy13 : LOL, so?
sweetdollface7 : Are you gonna be a sophomore?
mutantboy13 : yea? hbu?
sweetdollface7 : yea
mutantboy13 : that s cool, so what s your name?
sweetdollface7 : why?
mutantboy13 : so we can meet tomorrow? since we go to the same school.
sweetdollface7: uhmm? no
mutantboy13 : why?
sweetdollface7 : Because I don t know you well enough
mutantboy13 : fine, I ll tell you mines,
if you tell me yours. deal?
sweetdollface7: sure
mutantboy13 : my name is Dylan(:
sweetdollface7 : Dylan, what?
mutantboy13 : Dylan Oh. you?
sweetdollface7: never heard of you before
mutantboy13 : that s rude!
sweetdollface7: what?
mutantboy13 : never heard of you before maybe I heard of you! what s your name?
sweetdollface7: you don t need to know
mutantboy13 : yes I do, we made a deal
sweetdollface7 : but we didn t shake on it
mutantboy13 : you re mean :P
sweetdollface7: no I m not
mutantboy13 : are you shy?
sweetdollface7 : no
mutantboy13 : then tell me your name
sweetdollface7: Fine
mutantboy13 : what s your name? :D
sweetdollface7: bye, I got to go now
mutantboy13 : that s mean, that s such a bitch move right there.
sweetdollface7: bitch move? how?
mutantboy13 : I told you my name when you asked, and you won t tell me yours when I asked you.
sweetdollface7 : so?
mutantboy13 : that s such a bitch move.
sweetdollface7: don t call me a bitch
mutantboy13 : I didn t call you one
sweetdollface7: yea you did
mutantboy13 : no I didn t
sweetdollface7: whatever, desperate jerk
mutantboy13 : now that s offensive, bitch move
sweetdollface7: omg, fine! my name is clarisse kent, happy?
mutantboy13 : yes
sweetdollface7: .
mutantboy13 : now that s better
sweetdollface7: okay, byye
mutantboy13 : wait! what s your email?
sweetdollface7: you don t need to know stalker
mutantboy13 : yep, that s me
sweetdollface7: I know you should be ashamed of yourself
mutantboy13 : says the girl with the name sweetdollface7
sweetdollface7 : you have a problem with my name?
mutantboy13 : yea I do
sweetdollface7 : what then?
mutantboy13 : it says sweet but,I bet your as bitter as bitter cucumber, it has doll face but I bet its as ugly as a cucumber. LMFAO
sweetdollface7 : and I bet your deformed looking,
just like how your name describes you(:
mutantboy13 : Oh, so you got jokes now
sweetdollface7 : says [mutant]-?boy 13
mutantboy13 : haha
sweetdollface7 : whatever, go away
mutantboy13 : your such a bitch! now I called you a bitch
sweetdollface7 : a bitch like your mom
mutantboy13 : yea, exactly
sweetdollface7 : good
mutantboy13 :GOOD!
sweetdollface7 : GOOD !
mutantboy13 : GOOD!
!
sweetdollface7 : your so annoying!
mutantboy13 : like your mouth!
sweetdollface7 : PSSH!
mutantboy13 : you know its true
sweetdollface7 : shut the fuck up
mutantboy13 : make me
sweetdollface7 : shut up!
mutantboy13 : :DDDDDDDDD
sweetdollface7 : whatever
mutantboy13 : your too weird to be a normal girl
sweetdollface7 : and your too annoying to be a boy
mutantboy13 : that s what she said
sweetdollface7: shut up
mutantboy13 : go to sleep ugly bitter cucumber
sweetdollface7 : shut up deform bitch
mutantboy13 : that s it! you re gonna get it If I meet you in person,
sweetdollface7 : get what?
mutantboy13 : you ll know soon
sweetdollface7 : pssh! like you can do shit
mutantboy13 : just watch your back
sweetdollface7 : I will, and I won t be seeing you
mutantboy13 : just watch your back, ugly cucumber
sweetdollface7 : yea sure. whatever bye
- sweetdollface7 has sign off
I couldn t believe it, some dude name Dylan Oh threatened me! I m scared. I slowly grasped for air, taking big breaths one at a time to cool myself down. He s just messing around right? I said quietly to myself. I stood up and walked to the bathroom to wash my face before bed, like I do every night. I turned on the lights, then the water faucet and quickly splashed water on my face and then turned off the faucet. I looked into the mirror and I can see my goose bumps and hair sticking out of my skin; I am that scared of what he said, which I have no idea if he s lying or not. I turned off my bathroom and bedroom lights and walked to my bed, and laid down on my back stiffly, looking at the bedroom ceiling wall. he s just lying, I said to myself again, quickly falling asleep silently.
*BEEP BEEP BEEP six-thirty three, and it s the first day of school. I woke up feeling like a dying beast in a forest and went straight to the bathroom to wash up and got ready. Walking to the bus stop is no big deal, its just the fact that I m so tired. CLARISSE! HEY!, screamed Nata excitedly. Nata is one of my best friend. Nata has brown longish shoulder length hair, dark brown eyes and very slim. She is very unique with clothes taste and bi-sexual as well. Nata was wearing a White DC v-neck, with a colorful plaid scarf, white Dc buckle belt, with Dark blue ripped jeans, and black vans while strapping on her shoulder was a tan tote bag with the word peace on it. hi Nata, I said killing the mood, why so glum? she said are you feeling okay? Yea, I hope so, I did something stupid, and now I m scared to death, I said. Nata gave me a weird look, and continued to smile excitedly. what did you do? Nata said. I ll tell you later, I said.
We finally got to the bus stop and it is now seven- eighteen; the bus usually get here like around seven-twenty three. As Nata and I cross the street, we see Mecca already there at the stop texting. MECCA! HEY! Nata said excitedly again, when our way here was total silence and dead. Hi NATA! Mecca said excitedly also. Mecca is also my other best friend. She s like those skinny girls that every guy drool over because of their beauty . Mecca was wearing a plain white v-neck, dark gray skinny jeans, and gold sandals with a white Gucci hand bag. hi Mecca, I said hi Clarisse! she said smiling at her phone. She glanced at me with a curious look, what s wrong with you? she said. she did something bad supposedly again, said Nata. Mecca stares at me for a moment and smiles, what you do this time? she said. I stared at Mecca closely and I noticed that she has two purple bruises on her neck. hello? Mecca said; what are those two purple bruises? I said out of the blue, changing the whole topic. what? she said. eww! what is that! said Nata. what is what? Mecca said smiling again. Those brusies! I snapped. Oh these? said Mecca, they re just bruises from Mark. what did he do to you? Nata said, Are those marks? Mecca smiled even bigger, and then she laughed. haha, yea, he told me that he loves me and these marks are to say that I m his. Nata and I stared at her without saying a word and just stared at her without blanking an eye. ew, we both said.
The bus pulls over and we got on the bus and sat three in a seat. So, why are you so sad? said Nata, Oh yea huh! what were you gonna tell us? said Mecca curiously again. It s so weird, I said, what s weird? tell us! we want to know, said Nata. When I was on Chat room, this dude name mutantboy13 sent me a private message, I said. so? what s so bad about that? Mecca said carelessly. no, like I was talking to him and he said he s from Merced, and that he goes to GV, I said. They both stared at me with confusion, and just looked at me. I don t get it, what s so bad about that? said Nata, is that bad? He could be a pedifile! and rape you, said Mecca. Shut up! don t fuckn say that stupid! I said seriously, that s scary! and disgusting! shut up, don t say shit like that to me. sorry, gosh, I was just playing, Mecca said giving me an offended look. so, what s wrong about that? why are you so bummed out about it? Nata said, what you say to him? or what d he say to you? We talked, He goes to our school, he lives in Merced, and he wanted to know my name, and I said no, you don t need to know my name, and he said let s make a deal, blah blah blah, and he said his name was Dylan oh? I think and after that I didn t tell him my name and he got mad or whatever and said something about me making a bitch move and then we argued and blah blah blah, and he told me to watch my back since we go to the same school, I said exaggerating. oh wow, he s just messing with you, said Nata, your just thinking too much. Or maybe he s not, said Mecca in a scary tone. besides, I m pretty sure there s no such thing as Dylan oh or whatever his name is, said Nata.
The bus pulls over in the school horseshoe and we got off the bus. Dylan! what s up! said this boy in a red and black flannel, gray jeans, and black vans, sitting on the school steps. We, turned our heads and saw this handsome light skin boy, with dark brown hair, pretty hazel eyes, with the cutest dimples and smile that just melted us away. He was probably about five feet five, with a Abercrombie model body, wearing a dark plain gray tee, with a black vest, black skinny jeans that s a bit sagging around his waist with a gray belt holding it up, and black high-top vans. do you think he s.. said Nata quietly, I don t think so, said Mecca drooling. I hope he s not, I said.
Hi! someone said from behind. We turned back around and we see Ben smiling with excitement. Ben, he s one of our close friends and he s pretty bi-sexual as well. He has short dark brown hair, brown eyes, and is slightly over weight as well. He s wearing a brown aeropostale shirt with light blue jeans, and black and white converse. hi ben! how was your summer? said Mecca back into reality. Am I dreaming? said Nata, Uhm? I don t think you are? Ben said. I think we are, I said agreeing with Nata. Nata and I just stood there looking at the Dylan guy as he shaked hands with the boy that called his name and walked away. snap out of it! Mecca said while laughing. What s with them? he said with a weird look. they re being lame, said Mecca. No we re not! said Nata.
The bell rings and it s off to first period. My first period class is World history, and it s on the 300 wing. As I walk to room 319, I see the Abercrombie guy walk in to the class as well. My heart started to beat faster, and my hands starts to sweat as I enter the room. What I hate about entering a classroom is that, everybody looks at you when you enter, it s like entering a freak show with everyone looking at you, and when they whisper, it sounds like as though they are talking about you. I sat down in an empty seat next to an exchange student from Japan and her name was Sakura Yamada. Hi, she said bowing her head smiling at me with her Japanese accent in English. Hi, I said smiling back. what s your name? she said shyly. Clarisse, Clarisse Kent, I said, how about you? what s your name? she then smiled even bigger and looked even more confident than me, Sakura, Sakura Yamada she said. I looked at her and I notice that she s a little plump unlike most Japanese girls, she has super short hair to her neck, light brown eyes, and a cute smile with small dimples that barely shows. She was wearing a light pink shirt that said love life, live your life printed on it, with light gray skinny jeans and white vans. The second bell rings and I see the boy sitting across the room smiling his sweet smile, while flirting with a few girls. Settle down students! said Ms. Freggs, the history teacher, Welcome to the 10th grade, or should I say welcome back to school. I stared at her and man, she s pretty short for a white girl. when I call your name please say hear, excuse me if I pronounce your name wrong, but first off, I m Ms. Freggs, and I ll be your world history teacher from the year. As she was calling our names, alphabetical order, I start to have chills running up my back. Clarisse Kent? Clarisse Kent? she called out. I soon felt Sakura s arm nudging my arm to wake up. huh? I said. huh? said Ms. Freggs Are you Clarisse Kent? I looked at her to get my mind straight, without saying a word. Hello? she said in a pissed of tone, what d you say? I said suddenly feeling embarrassed. Are you Clarisse Kent? she said again, huh?, I said stupidly again. The whole class giggled, and I felt stupid. Are you or are you not, Clarisse Kent? She snapped with rage in her voice, uhmm, yes I am, I said quietly again. Then say here! she said sounding annoyed. here I said feeling even more embarrassed, and it s only been 5 minutes into class. I looked around and I see the Abercrombie boy staring at me with a strange look. I turned back around, knowing that I m going to die soon. Sakura Yamada? Ms. Freggs called out, here! Sakura said while staring at me weirdly with her eyes opened up big. Tyler Yamada? Ms. Freggs called out, right here! said someone across the room. I turned around to see who it was, and it was the Abercrombie boy. I then suddenly felt relieved.
The bell finally rings 50 minutes later, for us to go to our next class. As I walked out of the door to algebra, I felt someone poking my shoulder. hey, someone said from behind. I turned around and it was the Abercrombie boy, Tyler. hi? I said shyly, Your pretty funny, it brings out the cuteness in you, he said smiling his sweet, sweet smile. I stood there just looking at him with a blank face as though I saw a ghost. uhmm? haha, see you later, he said while touching my shoulder see you later okay? later. uh huh, I said quietly. I turned back around and watched him walk to his friends that were waiting for him to go to their next class. The second bell rings and I finally snapped out of it. Oh my gosh, oh my gosh! I m late! I m late! I said panicking.
I got to English, 25 seconds late out of breath and again every stared at me. thank you for joining us, said Mr. Sanders looking very disappointed. I looked around for a seat and I see Nata, Mecca, and Ben waving at me at a group table with one empty seat. Over here! Claire! over here! Nata yelled out to me. I walked over to the table and sat down next to Ben. Why are you late? Mecca said curiously, he..he..he he.. I said out of breath. They stared at me curiously even more, he? he what? said Mecca. I then smiled and gave my eyes became blurry. are you crying? said Ben, water is coming our of your eyes. No! I ran here! they re allergies, I said. so why are you late? Nata said. Nothing, I lied smiling even more. uhmm? okay then? said Mecca. I looked at Ben and he gave me a weird look, stop smiling like that! it s scaring me, geez, he said.
Second period finally ended, and so did p.e, and algebra. It s now lunch and I went to go meet Nata, Mecca, Ben, and the rest of the friends at the bench area like last year. I m so tired! said Nata while stretching her arms. me too! said Mecca yawning, me three, said Ben yawning and stretching at the same time. lazy asses, I said smiling still, while eating my burger. why are you still smiling? said Nata biting into her burger. Yea why? said Ben with his mouth full. Something did happen huh? said Mecca playing with her fruit, that s why you won t tell us. I smiled even bigger and looked at them three, staring back at me. haha, I don t know, I said giggling. what happened? tell us! said Nata anxiously. okay! I said, giving up. Remember the boy from this morning? I said. The guy with the pretty guy? said Nata excitedly into my story. YEA! I said. We both then screamed with joy. okay? said Mecca smiling. uhmmm.? said Ben. His name isn t Dylan, it s Tyler, and I think he s Japanese, I said. Nata then looked at me with a confused face. Japanese? He doesn t look asian! she said. I know! That s what I thought! I said. So, what about him? said Mecca smiling even more. He s in my class, and I made a fool out of myself in first period and after class, he poked my shoulder and said that I m funny which brings out the cuteness in me, I said smiling even more. I looked at their faces and it was just a blank expression. The atmosphere then became awkward between us. I looked at Ben and food was coming out of his mouth, dropping down to us tray. What? I said.
The atmosphere was still dead and awkward, until I saw Sakura sitting alone on a table eating lunch by herself. Hey, Sakura! Come sit over here! I yelled out nicely. The three then turned their heads and looked at her coming to our table. You know her? said Mecca. yea? if I didn t know her I wouldn t invite her or know her name, I said. Sakura came and sat down next to me shyly and bowed her head saying hi to them. hi, I m Ben, he said shaking her hand with his eyes opened wide. hi Ben, she said shaking his hand with her eyes opened wide also. Nata, Mecca and I stared at them for a moment back and forth and then looked at eachother and smiled. hi! I m Nata and this is Mecca! nice to meet you Sakura! Nata said with a smile. Hi, Sakura, Mecca said. hi, she said bowing her head again. she s cute, said Ben leaning across the table whispering into my ear. LOL, I said.
Soon, fifth and sixth passed by slowly and it was time to go home. As I walk out of Chemistry, zipping my backpack up, I accidently dropped the papers that Mr. Blake handed out to us. I bent down quickly to pick up the papers, shoving the papers in to my backpack. I got up while zipping my backpack I accidently bumped heads with someone without looking. Sorry!...Ow! I said in pain with my hand on my head. I looked up to see who it was and it was Tyler covering his nose with his hands looking at me. Oh my gosh! I m so sorry! I m so freakn sorry! I said freaking out. I quickly ran down the hall to the gates and got on the bus. I quickly went and sat next to Nata in the front seat. what happened to you? Nata said. I..I..I Hit..I..paper..I, I said out of breath. what you do? Nata said, Breathe first! breathe! I don t want you to die yet! okay, I said taking big breaths, one at a time. okay, so now tell me what happened, she said. I was walking out of sixth period, and I dropped my papers accidently and so I bent down to pick it up, and when I got up I accidently head bump someone in the nose, I said embarrassly. Laugh my fuckn ass off! she said laughing, who d you head bump? Tyler, I said. who s Tyler again? she said. the pretty guy, I said. oh, she said with her smile fading away. what? I said, what s wrong with you? nothing, why? she said. never mind, I said.
When I finally got home around three-thirty three, I went to my room and took off my shoes and socks and threw my backpack on the floor. I turned on my computer and signed on to the chat room. An hour later, I got another private message from mutantboy13.
mutantboy13 : hey
sweetdollface7 : what?
mutantboy13 : we didn t finish our conversation last night (:
sweetdollface7 : well, I did -.-
mutantboy13 : I went to school today but, I just went there to register
sweetdollface7 : Like I care?
mutantboy13 : you should(: because what if we have the same classes?
sweetdollface7 : no, we re not
mutantboy13 :I said if, why would I want a class with you for, you d probably make it bitter. LMFAO! (:
sweetdollface7 : yep
mutantboy13 : yea
sweetdollface7 : why do you even talk to me!
mutantboy13 : because I have nothing else to do.
sweetdollface7 : shut the fuck up and go do something!
I hate you! FUCK! shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone! You re so annoying!
mutantboy13 : and you re a ugly bitter cucumber
sweetdollface7 : fine! whatever! shut the fuck up
mutantboy13 : calm down, take a joke!
sweetdollface7 : You calm down!
mutantboy13 : I am calm xP
sweetdollface7 : shut the fuck up
mutantboy13 : you know, I can t stand people who disrespect me for no reason.
sweetdollface7 : well, I have a reason
mutantboy13 : what is it then?
sweetdollface7 : your annoying!
mutantboy13 : annoying like yourself!
sweetdollface7 : shut the fuck up!
mutantboy13 : then you know its true then since you keep overreacting
sweetdollface7 : no its not!
mutantboy13 :damn your weird,
sweetdollface7 : shut the fuck up!
-sweetdollface7 has sign off
I quickly signed off and turned off the computer. I was so mad and annoyed at him. What kind of freak does that, I thought to myself. I went to the kitchen to grab something to eat for a snack. Since I m the only child, it s pretty lonely in the house when mom and dad are off to work, but I m use to it.
Later that evening my mom and dad got home from work around five-thirty, they said that they have special news to tell me. They told me to sit down on the couch and listen to what they have to say. My dad is white, Korean, and Portuguese. As, my mom is hmong. Since my dad s dad is full white, he carries the family last name Kent. I m one fourth everything in my family I think, I don t know. A lot of people say I look more Asian, with a white last name. Clarisse, your mother and I have notice that you ve been lonely for a very long time, and since your growing up we decided on something a while back, said dad. what is it? I said curiously. well, your father and I took a long time to do this and since, like your father said, you re growing up we decided that we re going to-, Your getting me a car! I cut in excitedly screaming while my mom was talking. My parents both looked at each other and then back at me. uhm no honey, said mom. I then felt embarrassed in front of my parents for the first time in a long time for my silly assumptions. then what? I said. well, uhmm dear you tell her, said mom. why do I have to tell her? you tell her, said dad. well, you did it! my mom said while shoving my dad on the stomach. we both did, he said. fine, let s both tell her, said mom. tell me what? spit it out! I said anxiously. we re going to have a baby! they both said at the same time. The room became quiet and the atmosphere became awkward again. I just stood there looking at them with a confused look. I knew she was going to act like this, Dad said. shut up, said mom. I suddenly cracked a smile and started to scream for joy. Oh my gosh! are you serious! I said excitedly. Ha! you were wrong, said mom. how many months are you? I said curiously again. well, I am 4 months pregnant, she said. I see no difference in your tummy, I said looking closely at her stomach. well, I am, she said.
Later that night before bed, I was thinking about what Tyler said to me this morning even though we met for the first time. I grabbed my phone and texted Nata and Mecca, my mom is gonna have a baby! I ma have a baby brother or sister! it s either I m dreaming or not, my school year started to sound like a Korean drama somehow. Korean dramas sometimes start off with a boy and girl hating each other, and then ends up with each other, but I m pretty sure that s not going to happen, because who would like a girl like me. I turned off my lamp and crawled under my blanket. I wonder what tomorrow would be like, I said to myself quietly falling asleep.