This is my first Gilmore Girls story. Ever. Its a little Christmas present for Amanda. Its short and kind of drabble-ish but I hope you all enjoy it none-the-less. Happy Holidays guys and reviews are love!
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There was once a chance I didn't take, and now, looking back on it I probably should have.
I still remember the day that Jess came to me and asked me to come with him. It felt like my world had frozen over. And I'd wanted to say yes. So badly. It had been what I had been waiting for ever since he left. But I froze. Then I panicked. Then I told him no. Then he'd left leaving me standing there alone in an empty dorm room.
Sometimes I think that maybe if I'd of gone with him I wouldn't of made half of the mistakes that I did after that. I wouldn't of slept with Dean breaking up an entire marriage. And I probably wouldn't of ended up taking that time off of school either causing my mom and I to have the biggest fight we'd ever had. But hindsight is 20/20 and there's nothing I can really do about it now.
Sometimes I wonder where we'd be now if I'd gone with him. Would we be happy? Or would we be miserable? Would we be married? Engaged? Living together? Really who knows. I don't even know where he is in this country anymore. I know Luke does but I can never bring myself to ask. Partially because I know I won't do anything about it and partially because the last time I saw him at Mom's and Luke's wedding he brought a girl. And I wanted to hate her I did, but she was amazing and he actually looked happy. And I didn't want to mess that up for him again.
I sigh and turn my attention back to my desk. There had been a huge fire earlier in the day and we were trying to get everything ready to be printed that evening. Living in the past does nothing to help your present or future. So I sit up straighter and smile at the guy from Entertainment that has been trying to flirt with me all week. Maybe this is one chance I will take.
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