She Didn't Have Time

Ch. 1

Kagome looked at him, confused at the stoic façade that he hardly ever used around her. They had been dating for years now and had sex after he said he was going to marry her. After a few weeks, she found out that she was pregnant and was ecstatic. She told him, and he agreed to stay with her at all times and help her raise their child. Soon after they found it was a girl. She was happy that he wasn't mad, knowing that he had wanted a boy. Soon after the birthing, they decided to name their little girl Rin. Now, it's been about six months and he comes in, stoic mask in place.

He said goodbye from the edge of the porch
like she'd been some casual friend
he said "your better off with out me
I'm not what you need"
like her momma had said about him
he started the car
pulled out of the drive
didn't waste any time lookin' back
she watched him go
thinkin' even a stranger
would show more compassion than that

"Sesshoumaru?" She asked quietly, the baby was asleep. He looked at her coolly. "Kagome, we need to talk." Just as soon as he said that, Rin started to cry. He grabbed her arm as she was about to go and check on her. "Now. We need to talk now." She looked at him questioningly and sat down across from him on the couch, him standing. "Kagome, I can't take this anymore." Before she could process this, he was out the door on the porch. She stepped out with him, the moon shining on their little house. He turned to her. Stepping back a little at the scorching gaze, she bit her lip. "Sesshou?" He turned to the steps and stepped down. Then at the bottom, he turned to her yet again. "You're better off without me. You both are. I can't take care of you, I have too many responsibilities."

"But…But, I don't understand, Sesshou, what are you talking about?" Kagome asked quietly. He scoffed, "I'm leaving Kagome. Take care of her, and yourself. Promise me."

She bit back tears and starred at him blankly, looking almost exactly like him. "I promise." He nodded and left, her watching after him. As he pulled out, not even looking back with a little regret, she felt a single tear streak down her cheek. 'You'd think after you'd know me this long, that you'd be with me. You aren't the man I fell in love with. You're a stranger. Wait, not even that, a stranger would have more compassion. Good bye, Sesshou.' Was her thoughts as she turned back and went to tuck in Rin. She finally knew her mother was right.

she could've cried but she didn't have time
she had a baby to feed
a pink blanket to find
to rock their little one to sleep
she could've laid in bed for hours
giving misery the power
but she didn't have time

She took care of their baby, loving her and making sure that she had everything that she needed. He had left a little money, so she used that. At night, she slept as much as possible, rocking the baby to sleep when she woke up at night. She knew she could have laid in her misery, but she didn't even think of him. The pain was incredible, but she was needed to be strong for her baby girl. She had put all his things in a closet in the extra room. She fell asleep again, still able to smell him on her pillows.

she got a sitter, she got a job
'cause she had a promise to keep
her day was a factory and evening survival
at night was exhaustion and sleep
sometimes she felt life was passing her by
and watching was all she could do
her friends said "you got to get outtalk the house
and maybe you'll meet someone new"

She had run out of the money he had left and knew she needed to feed them both, so she got her friend, Keade to watch Rin as she went to her new job. She would work all day at the factory, then go home and let Keade go home as she spent the rest of the evening with Rin. This went on for years, every few weeks, her friends, Sango and Miroku would visit and insist that she needs to get out of the house, but she refused gently every time.

she could've tried
but she didn't have time
she had a five year old to feed
she had ballet class, piano lessons
and t-ball little league
she could've laid awake for hours
giving lonely nights the power
but she didn't have the time

Her little girl was now in Kindergarten and she couldn't believe it. Now she had to find time to watch her little girl in her little hobbies, while still working. She was grateful for Keade all these years. She was surprised that she, herself, had lasted the lonely years with everything. But she knew that she wasn't alone, she had Rin. Nothing could get in her way as long as she had Rin to take care of. Saying good bye to Rin and Keade, she smiled as she walked out of the room and got in her car. A little way down the interstate, on the way to her job, her tire blew out. She sighed as she pulled out her cell phone and called her work, explaining what had happened. Afterwards, she called the tower. (A/N a person who tows cars.)

not time where would she find the time
to trust a man again
not time for that flat tire
a crowded parking lot and then
not time to just have coffee with the man
who got her tired fixed
she was thinking gosh he's handsome
when he asked do you have kids

She didn't look at the man who fixed her car as she dug through her purse, trying to find money to pay him. She was almost in tears, not finding anything, when he gently put a hand on her arm. All she could see was a blurry person as her eyes welled up with tears. "Don't worry about it." He seemed to think a moment, before asking, "Do you want to get some coffee with me? I know this really good place." She didn't have strength to say 'no', so she just nodded and he pulled her away. She knew she didn't have very much time, but she still couldn't say no.

They were at the coffee shop and she finally saw what he looked like. He was a young man with white hair, looking about twenty-five or six, where she was about twenty-four. He had a nice build and a handsome boyish face. Just as the last thought went through her head, he broke through her thoughts with his deep, but not too deep voice. "Do you have kids?" She couldn't help but think that he looked alot like the man who broke her heart. Sesshoumaru. Her mind thought unwillingly. She then remembered what the man had asked.

she could've lied
but she didn't have time
all she said was "she's five"
he said "I saw the car seat I love kids
does she have your eyes?"
and they sat and talked for hours
giving destiny it's power
she could've been afraid
to fall in love that night
but she didn't have time

She smiled softly at the thought of her daughter. She didn't want to lie, it was beneath her, so she answered. "Yes, she's five now." He smiled back at her. "I couldn't help, but notice the carseat as I changed your tire. I love kids. She must be beautiful like her mother, isn't she? Does she have you're beautiful blue eyes?" She nodded again, her little Rin did look a lot like she did when she was little.

They talked a little while longer as though they had known each other for forever, sharing their life stories and embarrassing stories, along with the sad stories. She found out, that the one who had hurt her was his older half-brother. They didn't get along, and never talk, so that's why she didn't know about him. She smiled at him when he scowled at what his older brother did to this young, beautiful woman. Soon her curiosity got the best of her, "If he is rich now and all, why do you work at this place? Shouldn't you be rich too?"

He shook his head, "No, my family disowned me. I wouldn't agree to marry someone who would make them richer. Her name was Kikyo. She was very beautiful, but not very smart, and was a known whore. I refused because I didn't want to marry a whore, nor did I want to marry without love. Soon after, I was disowned and moved here. They saw my natural talent with cars, so they hired me and I've worked my butt off to be pretty well off, now." She nodded her understanding as they got up. She smiled as he took her back to her car and opened the door for her. Rolling down her junky car's window, she motioned him closer. Leaning in, he soon was taken by surprise as she kissed his cheek.

"Thank you, very much, for everything. Shall I see you again?" He nodded and they exchanged phone numbers.

Now they've been dating a year and are planning on getting married. They were arguing about inviting his family or not. "No, Inuyasha, I can't take the pain again, please don't."

"It's okay, Kagome, you don't have to worry about him, he won't come." She finally nodded and they went to check on Rin. As they climbed into their bed, they held each other close, giving a kiss goodnight, she drifted off into a peaceful sleep, smiling softly. On the radio, a final verse of the song that depicts her life so well, played its last verse.

she could've been afraid
to fall in love that night
but she didn't have time

Disclaimer: I don't own any Inuyasha characters.

Hello, I'm back! I couldn't help, but write this new story. I'll probably have a few more side stories, and I'll try to keep them updating. I hope you like it, and I'm going to continue on with this one along with Kagome the Shrink, so, yeah...anywho, Read and review, and I'll keep updating. Lotsa love, TheBlackKnight87