Angel from the Valley
Summary: What would you do if you were sent into your favorite TV show, not knowing if you would ever return? I'm terrible at summaries. My first fanfiction rated T for language and just in case. First Fanfiction please tell what you think.
Disclaimer: not mine sadly
My eyes flutters open only to shut almost immediately because of the bright light above me. I blinked slowly as I slowly sit up; everything is blurry as my eyes start to focus. Listening carefully I can hear a steady beep of a machine and I smell a kind of sanitizer smell. Oh god where am I? Where are Mom and Dad, my brothers, and sister? All the while I hear the beeping get faster and faster. I have to go find them; slowly I start to stand up. I feel a slight tug on my arm trying to pull me back. Looking down I saw tubes pumping something into my arms. Knowing I had to hurry before someone came in I reach down and pull them out wincing slightly from the pain. I stood up legs shaking at first it seemed steady but as I took another step my knees buckled and I collapsed on the ground. Trying to get up only succeeded in falling on my ass again but I didn't give up I knew I had to get to them before something happened. Tears started to escape my eyes as the realization that they needed me my family needed me and I was powerless to help. Hell I couldn't even stand up.
I distantly hear a pattering of feet as someone walked by they seemed to stop at my door before rushing in probably seeing my absence in the bed. Tears ran down my face as someone bent down lifting me into the bed. They seemed like they were trying to say something but I felt my heart start to ache as I saw people rush into the room next to me. The beeps from there getting louder and louder and faster until the beeping stopped and the shrieking started. As the sound continued, I felt empty. A hole in my chest I had only just realized to be there got larger; the feeling of loss overwhelmed me. With this came the fear the fear I was unable to protect them that they were gone and it was my fault my fault that I was too weak. Too weak to save my family, that I was a failure of a daughter of a sister. Suddenly I couldn't breathe the weight of the situation weighing on me causing me to hyperventilate. I started to hear a voice speaking softly to me telling me to relax, to breathe that it would be okay.
Finally catching my breath I turned slightly to see who was there. A lady comes into focus and I ask silently pleading for my fears to just be fears and not real, "Where is my family?" I saw pity flash through her eyes but she doesn't answer. Starting to get upset, I asked again irritation slipping into my voice "Where Is My Family?!" still no answer, "Where is my family?" I said calmly my voice showing so much anger in her not answering she flinched away slightly. Finally she shakes her head slowly confirming my fears. Even though I had already figured it out it was different having it confirmed. I felt everything crumbly my whole world gone. "No…no, no you're lying I know it. Please tell me this is some practical joke please! No, they can't be gone not my little brothers, my big sister, my mom, and dad. Your lying please tell me you're lying! No my family's okay I know it. Th…they wouldn't j…just leave me here all…all alone right! Oh God I failed I couldn't protect them it's all my f…fault." I begged while sinking to the ground with the weight of it all, tears pouring down my face "you…you're l…ly…lying." I heard the woman call for someone but I didn't hear why. "It's my entire fault I know it is, oh god!" why did I have to live through this while my family…oh god my family. Why…Why am I being punished like this what did I ever do to deserve this? I was starting to hyperventilate again. "Oh god, this is God's way of punishing me, to leave my all alone in this dark and horrid place. If this is my punishment I've learned my lesson now please don't make me be alone. Please" I looked up to see a man standing there his eyes downcast in shame and sadness. I felt like I knew him but before I could put a name to his face, I felt something stab my arm. Slowly I felt darkness start to engulf her, but instead of fighting it she welcomed it. The last thing she saw before she was completely surrounded was the man's face looking at her in sadness.
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I woke slowly, at first I started to freak out wondering where I was but with the beeping of the machine it all came crashing down. My memories of the day before; my mother, father, sister, and brothers are all gone and I am alone. Tears began pouring down my face again as the reality of the situation became clear to me again.
The door opened to show an elderly doctor. "Hello sweetie let's see if we can get you out of here?" He said as he picked up my chart.
"Why should I? I got nothing to go home to, everything's gone. Why should I go home to an empty house that used to be filled with noise and laughter when now all it will be filled with is silence and past memories of the good times?" I asked deflated now I've accepted the situation.
The doctor nodded before setting down the chart and walking towards the front of the bed. "You know I asked the same thing to myself when my wife and child died. I asked myself those same questions; why, why me, why them. That continued until I realized that if I just sit around asking why, I would be disrespecting their memories. I realized that no matter how painful I needed to go on with my life, I had to return to that empty house full of memories." He spoke sadly his eyes showing his pain. He stood up and walked back to the end of my bed, "well everything looks in order you should be able to leave around lunch. Doesn't that sound good to be able to leave this god awful place?"
I smiled at him he responded in kind, before leaving me to my thoughts. I realized he was telling the truth. That if I were to just waste away, they would be upset, but how will I live without people who I have lived with my whole life.
I stood up searching for my clothes, so I could get out of these horrid hospital clothes, and out of here. As I searched I started to wonder do I really want to go home with one of my relatives, or be sent to some orphanage. No, I don't! So I searched for the clothes a little faster before finding them lying in the bathroom.
Checking the clock I saw there was 3 hours before they should be back so I had enough time for a shower. Quickly getting out if my clothes and slipping under the water. I let the water cascade down my body. Remembering I am alone in this world, tears pouring down my face, mixing with the other water, I sink to the ground.
Thirty minutes later, I was still sitting there the water had grown cold by now. Though, I still sat there I had stopped crying due to having no more tears to cry. I got up, my legs shaking, finally getting up I finished washing. I stepped from the warmth of the shower into the cold of the bathroom. I walked to the mirror and looked in. Laughing softly at how 'beautiful' I look, face all blotchy and eyes red from crying. Stepping out of the shower, I made sure I wasn't forgetting anything. Spotting my purse by the door I quickly I brushed my hair out while I thought of what my plan would be.
Looking out into the hall I made sure no one was coming before slipping through the door. Whenever a person walked by I ducked my head and acted like I had been visiting someone. As I got through the doors I heard footsteps getting louder coming towards me. I stopped worried they realized who I was and was coming to bring me back to my room. Turning slowly I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding when I saw it was just a young man running over. "Miss you dropped this!" He said when he got over handing me my keys that I must have dropped.
"Oh, thank you! I can't believe I dropped it." I smiled and was walking away when he grabbed my hand.
"Are you okay? You look upset." He asked softly, it's nice that he is worried about me but I'm just not in the mood.
"Well where do you think you are you idiot...sorry my family died and I'm just so tired," I spoke going from loud to quiet.
He backed up a little and put his hand down but still didn't let go, "oh I'm sorry I didn't mean anything by it."
"It's fine...if you'll excuse me I must be going" I said trying to make it known he was holding my hand still.
"Huh...oh yeah sorry about your lose" he said while quickly letting go sheepishly. I smiled then turned left the hospital.
I hailed a cab to bring me home. As we were driving I was slightly worried about going home now. The cab pulled into the driveway getting out I saw my beautiful red Pontiac Montana waiting out front. Walking to the front door I got my keys out and opened the door. Walking in I felt nauseas, thinking that this once happy, loud home wouldn't be so any more. I thought I heard someone call my name but I knew I must be wrong as no one could be here. I quickly went and gathered my things, and something's of my family's. I left in a hurry not wanting to have another break down.
Getting in my car I breathed in the familiar smell. Starting my car I backed out of the driveway and started to drive not knowing where to go or how to get there just driving.
I drove for hours before I ended up getting sleepy pulling into a motel to figure out where to go now. Buying a room I decided I will go to school for the last month, then figure out where to go from there. I went to sleep not knowing that in the next few days everything would be changing.
Author's note- I'm so sorry if you don't like it. This is my first fanfic please review, but be truthful about your thoughts.