She woke up feeling as if someone had hit her with a truck that is how she had woken up the past week since she had quite the Chicago PD intelligence task force. She looked next to right and saw her latest mistake, this one was a man in him late thirty with the good lucks but from what little memory she had of the night before he had the personality of a player. She slowly got up and searched around the ground for her clothes which were scattered about the room from there fling. She grabbed her pants and pulled them on uncoordinatedly trying not to make a sound so that she did not wake the man sleeping whose name she could not remember. She pulled open the door to the bedroom finding her phone and clutch purse on the kitchen counter. She snuck out of the bedroom, closed the door behind her, and rushed over grabbing her phone and her purse before making a dash for the exit. As she did, she looked at her phone and in annoyance, she sighed at the four calls and three texts. She deleted the texts and erased the voicemails; she was sick of Voight and the team checking up on her, especially Jay. All he had to say was that she was throwing and that Nadia would not want this, well Nadia was dead and he did not know anything about how she felt, though he had tried to make connection with his time in Afghanistan. She wasn't listening though she was sick of it she had quit and now she was police force and she hadn't seen the team since she quite, she say Voight when he had tried to push her back into the job the rest of them had only called and texted.

The bright morning sun hit her in the face blinding her and intensifying her headache, she felt like someone had hit her over the head with a baseball bat. She had been force to move to a smaller apartment and though it was pretty run down, it was close to all the good bars. She opened her clutch and pulled out a chapstick knocking out a baggie with a note attached. She scrambled to snatch it up before a bystander saw her, she jammed it back into her purse but held on the note, "Thanks for the great night, hope this will give you a boost for tonight." She looked into the baggie and saw what she knew to be ecstasy, she immediately shut her clutch, the feeling of shame hit her. On her drunken nights out, she would black out and not be able to recall what she had down but based off of the past three guys she had woken up next too she knew that she may have taken some sort of drugs. She was ashamed of herself but then she thought, this is what you get for getting a girl who trusted you killed.

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"Damn it!" Jay yelled throwing his phone on the counter the break room, his fist clenched in anger, his knuckles turning white. This was stupid, what she was doing was stupid she was a damn good cop and she was throwing it all away by listening to her deadbeat mother and having a self-pity party over Nadia's death.

"What's going on in here?" Atwater asked as him and Ruzek walked into the room.

"She blocked me," Jay growled, Adam and Kevin grew silent, they were just as frustrated at Lindsay's sudden departure to become a full time drunk and merge in with the dark side of Bunny.

"Voight hasn't heard anything from her?" Atwater asked, they all knew about Erin and Hank and where shocked at Erin's refusal to come back. Voight had been angry which was understandable, she was his CI for a long time and then he raised her with his wife making sure she was going to turn it around only to have her slap him in the face with this.

"No, she is ignoring us all, Kim has even tried to reach out but she is having none of it."

"She is being so idiotic, she knows we all lost Nadia that day and the pain of that will stay with us forever but she is going to ruin herself and I can't let her!"

"Well what do you propose?"

"I'm going to see her after work; she needs someone to talk to her." He stormed out of the break room leaving Ruzek and Atwater to look at each other hoping that Jay could help their friend.

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"ERIN," Jay burst into the small bar causing the room to go silent and all eyes look at him but he could only see Erin, her eyes were a mix of shock and anger with a touch of confusion.

"Get out of here Jay, I'm working and I don't want to talk to you," She set a drink down in front of a portly man who kept switching his gaze between Erin and Jay.

"No we need to talk."

"She doesn't want to talk to you or are you hard of hearing?" Bunny came out from behind the bar.

"This is between Erin and me Bunny, Stay out of it," He shouted at her.

"I will call the cops," Bunny retorted. Jay ripped his badge from his belt and shoved it into her face.

"I am the police, so stay out of this," He growled back, both of them came face to face and neither was backing down, that was when Erin jumped in between them and yanked Jay by the arm to the kitchen and out the back door to the alleyway.

"What, What do you want from me, I told Hank I am not coming back I am done with the Unit, with the CPD why can't you understand that?" She threw her hands in the air in anger as she paced the dumpster area.

"Erin what the hell are you doing here, this isn't the Erin Lindsay I know, you are smarter than this!"

"Well then maybe you don't know me at all, and I am sick of spelling it out to you, Hank and even Kim, I am done, I don't want to be back there."

"I get it but why, you are the best cop I know!"

"You know why, I am not a good cop look what I have done!"

"What help catch scum and save lives?"

"hmm, yeah save lives," She scoffed, mumbling under her breath."

"Nadia wasn't your fault!"

"Don't say her name!"

"Nadia, Nadia, Nadia, why are you so afraid of her name, why are you so afraid to admit that she wasn't your fault."

"But it was Jay, it was me who tried to save her and all I did was get her killed," She shouted back.

"Erin…"

"No stop telling me I'm not to blame, stop!" She looked at him and that is when Jay saw it.

"Erin, are you high?" Her pupils were dilated to the size of saucers; she looked and backed away from him. "She wouldn't want this, she would be so ashamed of you, you saved her from this life and here you are doing the thing you told her to stop doing," He said in disgust.

"Shut up, just shut up okay, I don't want to see you or anyone else here or near me again."

"I am only trying to stop you from making a mistake Erin, I care about you!"

"Well then stop because you are wasting your time, us, you and I were a mistake and I don't need you 'Save Me' you mean nothing and I don't want to see you anymore so leave me alone, don't come back here!" She yanked the door open to the building leaving Jay alone in the dim light alley, he threw a punch into the dumpster and stormed off more frustrated than angry, she was stubborn and Bunny was brain washing her, what did he have to do to make her see that?

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Jay sat quietly next to Kim whom he had been partnered with since Erin's departure. The rookie to the team had told everyone that she wished that she hadn't gotten the spot like this but then again she felt like that was how she always got the job by a horrible change of events. They were on their way to catch a perp and as they followed closely behind Antonio and Voight she began to become uncomfortable with the silence.

"Halstead, are you okay?" She knew the answer, she was driving for crying aloud and that was something her would always fight Erin over, the past three weeks since his confrontation with Erin he had been bitter and filled with frustration.

"I'm sorry Burgess, I am just thinking."

"About Erin, I know we all are, she had blocked me too, but not before telling me to stop harassing her."

"That's all Bunny talk though god that woman infuriates me, and Erin is mind washed and following her forgetting everything that woman has done to her, I know she told me everything. She is just so stuck on the pity party that she can't see that she is wrecking her life."

"I know, she is a great cop and I wish she was here instead of me she is a hell of a detective."

"Don't say that, you belong here too, you have been one hell of a partner and I wish they would just promote you I mean what is one more but I'm just worried for her, I know she didn't mean any of what she said."

"You're right she doesn't, she is just confused and hurting and reality doesn't seem real to her, she has to find her way back on her own hopefully not to late."

"That's the thing I don't want her to be too late, but I don't know what else I can to, I don't know what else to do or what will get through to her."

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Good Hello Friends, I hope you like this story after the way they left the season this guy popped into my head so please review and let me know if I should continue! ~Love Always Layna