Disclaimer: I don't own CSI: Miami and I don't make any money from it.

Authors Note : A coworksnip with LoveliLadiiZ. We are both working with the idea, but sadly only one could post it up.

Authors Note 2: This is both Hipphugger and DuCaine, but too long to put in the summary.

Warning: Sex Read at own risk

Love regrets

Chapter 1.

Calleigh sighed as she looked at the caller ID, it was Eric and she knew she had to take it. All things considered he was on a five days seminar for work and he didn't have that much time to talk, neither of them did. She put the case folder aside and stepped into Horatio's office as that was the nearest place with privacy.

"Hi babe," she said, in her cheerful tone.

"Hi hot stuff, how's life treating you, missing me yet?" he asked, he sounded happy as well.

"Too busy to miss you at work, but kind of lonely in bed last night," she admitted, she did after all like being held during the night, even if… 'No Calleigh don't go there," she told herself.

"Awwwe, aren't you the sweetest, missed you too, can't seem to sleep well without you," he said.

"You say the sweetest things, so learning anything over there?" she wanted to know.

"You should know, you took this thing a while back," he said with a sigh.

"Oh come on Eric, it's not that bad and you know you need it if you want to get higher up some day," she said.

"Don't you think I know that, but in the end it doesn't matter you'll always have the higher rank, do you have any idea how it feels to have a girl with better pay and that have a higher position," he said.

"Here we go again, I worked my ass off for it," she snapped back.

"So you are saying I don't is that is?" he snapped back at her.

"Of course you do," she said.

"You know I'm starting to get feed up with this argument over and over, doesn't the fact that I'm here say something," he said.

"It does, and I think it's great, but really I have to go," she said, seeing Horatio come towards his office.

"So you can't even take five minutes off from work to talk to me, shows who you care more about," he said.

"Now you are being unfair, you know I love you more than…" she started when he cut her off saying, "Save it Calleigh, we both know that's not a fact, you work even when we are home, you just can't stop. And frankly I'm fed up with it. Call me if you ever have the time to talk."

With that he hung up before she had time to protest. The petite blonde looked at the phone, before she sank down in Horatio's chair, head in her hands. This was all so fucked up. Everything was just so fucking feed up. She looked at the phone before she slammed it so hard against the wall that it broke into a million pieces. She huffed thinking, "Damn him."

"Calleigh, are you okay," she heard Horatio asked as he looked at the remains of her broken phone.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine," she said with another huff.

"And the phone deserved it?" he said, picking up the simcard that lay by his feet. He pulled his phone of out of his pocket and removed his, then inserted hers, handing it over.

"In case he calls again," he said, with a half-smile.

"How did you…?" she asked, looking at him with confused eyes.

"Just guess, is he giving you a hard time?" he asked concerned.

"We're fine," she said, adding, "Sure you don't need it."

"No, got an old one somewhere in here," he said, nodding towards his desk.

"Well, thanks," she said with a heavy sigh, going towards the door, when he asked, "Are you doing anything tonight?"

"No, why?" she said, turning to face him.

"Thought maybe you were lonely without Eric, maybe we could have dinner," he offered.

"I…I don't know if that would be right to do," she said, she was after all still with Eric.

"Well if you change your mind, my house at seven," he said, giving her the option of coming if she wished. He knew she most likely would.

She nodded and left him while he started to look for an ancient phone in his desk drawers.

Calleigh parked her car in Horatio's driveway moments before seven. Having been there on several occasions before, she had no problems finding the place. She sighed wondering if this was the right thing to do.

Horatio was of course right about her being lonely while Eric was gone, and he was a good friend of her in addition to her co-supervisor. Still there was something inside her that made her doubt the whole thing.

'Calleigh, get a grip, it's only dinner,' she told herself as she slowly got out of the car and walked up to the house. As she rang the doorbell she sighed, looking towards the car then shook her head thinking she was just being silly.

Horatio opened moments later and let her inside saying, "You're right on time."

"Aren't I always?" she said with a slight giggle.

"No sometimes you are ahead of the rest of the world. Hungry?" he asked, nodding towards the dining room.

"Very yes, to be honest I haven't gotten the chance to eat much today," she said.

"Do you ever?" he asked.

"Guilty as charged," she said with another giggle.

"Wine or are you driving?" he wanted to know, holding up a bottle.

"I suppose I can take a cab," she said with shrug, while thinking, 'Or sleep on the couch.' After all he had a comfy couch.

"Very well then," he said, pouring her a glass, before doing the same to himself. She tasted it figuring it was a good one, before helping herself with some food.

One glass turned into well more and soon they were on his couch talking like no time has floated by, when he suddenly dared to ask, "So you and Eric, how is that going?"

"I want so say well, but…In the beginning it was as we are so good friends…" her voice trailed off as she turned her face away.

"What went wrong?" he asked in a soft tone.

"I…I really don't know, all I know is…I shouldn't be telling you this," she whispered.

"I promise I won't tell him we talked, please," he said, looking at her with his kind blue eyes.

"He's upset because I have higher rank than him and I always will. I can't help it that I like my job and that I'm good at it, but I shouldn't have to deal with the fact that he can handle it. I mean fuck if it was the other way around I wouldn't have reacted this way and…" again her words trailed of looking into his eyes. Were they always this blue, and his lips, had they always been so temptations? She swallowed hard as she backed away a little, wondering had he always been this handsome, before she could help it, it slipped from her lips, "If I'd been dating you, we wouldn't have this problem."

"No but then it would look like I hired you and upgraded you due to the fact that we were dating and not your skills," he said with a sigh.

"Did you?" she asked, it never occurred to him before now, but maybe he did have feelings for her.

"Of course not, besides we never did date or anything of the kind," he pointed out.

"Would you have liked to?" she asked, her eyes again meeting his.

"I…don't know, I never thought about it," he said honestly, knowing that was a lie.

"You never once wondered what it would be like to I don't know kiss me?" she asked, moving closer, her face an inch form his.

"Calleigh, please, this isn't the time or the place for this conversation, besides you is with Eric," he reminded her while swallowing hard.

'To be able to kiss her if only just once, Eric wouldn't have to know, after all he wasn't there, Horatio stop it,' he told himself, turning his head away.

Just like she had read his mind she whispered, "He isn't here." Before she had even fully thought it through or maybe she had her lips had locked onto his. Shocked he backed away whispering, "Calleigh, please don't…"

She backed away whispering she was sorry, not meaning it for a second, she that very moment wanted him more than she had wanted anyone before, even Jake. Her heart was racing like crazy; she didn't need to feel to know she was starting to get wet. Their eyes again meet, neither spoke, maybe because they didn't need to or maybe because they didn't know what to say.

He looked at her, wanting her as much as she wanted him, his limb was rising in his pants. Again she moved in for a kiss, this time he did nothing to back away. Did he know it was wrong, most likely, as he knew at this point he couldn't stop himself. Neither could she as she kept on kissing him while sliding herself on to his lap. She felt him clearly, backing away panting, she whispered the obvious, "You are hard."

"I'm being kissed by an attractive woman, what do you expect?" he asked, smiling slightly.

"No more words," she said, kissing him again moving slightly back and forth on his lap, getting him even more aroused if possible. He removed her red blouse and bra in the process, feeding on her perfect breasts. Shea arched backwards giving him better access after making sure his shirt was removed as well. Pants and underwear quickly followed in another series of kisses and touches before she got back in position in his lap, this time with his hardness inside her wet slit. She went back and forth faster and faster, moaning out, while he was kissing her neck area driving her more insane.

He stopped, tensing up, filling her up as she tensed up and tightened around him, crashing down on him, screaming out. He captured her, somehow stroking her as she lay still shivering in his arms.

When she was fully calmed down, he got up, still holding her and carried her upstairs to his bedroom.

It was early morning, in fact closer to 5. AM when the sun came sieving through Horatio's curtains. Maybe it had come in a bit earlier, but that was when the blonde came to with a groan, her hand going through her head. As it had been a while since she had been drinking, it had taken her shorter to get under the influence. And now as she was slowly opening her eyes it all came back to her. The night before, the images of her and Horatio doing it one time downstairs then three upstairs.

Her mind was spinning like crazy as she slowly got out of bed, carefully not to wake him. She hurried back downstairs where she got dressed, grabbed her things and ran to her car. A few blocks away she stopped, her head in her hands, going through it. It had been what seemed like forever since she had been taken like that as Eric was mostly very gentle.

Eric, oh Christ, Eric. A feeling of guilt was starting to run through her as this was the first time in her life she had actually cheated, even if things weren't that great he deserved better. And with his ex-brother-in-law and boss.

What had she been thinking? It was then it dawned upon her that she hadn't, not at all. Or maybe she had, it was all a blur and she was feeling horrible. All she knew was she need to go home and shower and change before work.

Work, Horatio he would of course be there and…

'You got to calm down now,' she told herself, starting the car, slowly driving home as tears was falling from her eyes and a million thoughts were going through her head.

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