Hey my lovelies. As some of you know I was planning to write a fan-fiction on Luv/Sabya, so here I am with my fan-fiction: "If Only He Knew"
It's Luv/Sabya centric story. It's starts as canon verse, but of course, more accurately a 'fix-it' fan fiction.
The plot line of this story is driven from the Padosi 'M.P. Siddiqui' task and this story will explore how well and for how long they can keep up the charade and also exploring the relationship roller-coaster between Luv and Sabya. This story is basically my take on 'what if padosis took this task seriously and tried their 100% and how that would change their dynamics with each other'. Also, this story is majorly told from Luv's point of view.
Summary:
When Bigg Boss gives 'Padosis' the task to be a dysfunctional family of 'M.P. Siddiqui', none of them are prepared for it. A charade they have to keep up for as long as possible. In process to make others believe in their white lies some don't realise when they start to believe in it themselves, a little too much.
In a locked house playing dysfunctional family starts to make Luv question everything and that starts a constant battle within him; a battle between mind and heart. In order to keep up the charade how many masks can one wear and how far is one willing to go? A series of events help Luv come to realisation about thing or two.
Chapter One {If Only He Knew::Luv/Sabya}
They failed, yet again. Another test of Bigg Boss to see whether they are ready to join the main house or not. First week came to an end and originally Bigg Boss had planned to send them to main house today but they have failed the test again which means they are still staying in the Padosi house. Bigg Boss have given them a warning to get their act together soon otherwise things could turn on them.
The board keeps getting filled with dates and facts about their fake-real connections, with the memories they never lived and they have to act as a family; dysfunctional and strained but a family nevertheless. Family of four: Lucinda, Mehjabi, Luv and Sabyasachi. Mehjabi is getting better with her act but her weakness is in remembering facts, Lucinda is doing well for herself considering the language barrier, Sabya got his act together quite well though he needs to remember facts and dates too.
They are not the problem, but the problem is Luv; he is good at facts and dates and remembering the memories he never had but to play Sabya's boyfriend really threw him off his game. It's not that Luv is not trying he is, but he just cannot.
"Mind if I sit?" Luv chain of thoughts is broken by Lucinda's voice.
"Sure."
"I know it's difficult for you, Luv."
"Aisa nahi hai." He mutters not wanting to discuss it any further.
"Toh? Kya baat hai?" He doesn't reply so Lucinda continues.
"I get it, yeh tumhari nature ke opposite hai. But imagine it like you are giving your best performance."
"Yeh koi film nahi hai."
"Haan film nahi hai jahan cut bolte hain. It's a TV show, a real, live TV show. We have to perform live on stage. Imagine this house as your stage and everyone as audience, now you need to perform and make them believe in it."
"Sirf meri wajah se toh fail nahi ho rahe hum."
"Maine aisa nahi bola. Failure hum sab ka hai, hum sabke weak points hai. We all need to work really hard on our weak points. Remember Luv, You are a performer. So perform." Luv looks at her in a surprise she is indeed wise and quite right. Luv needs to step up his game and his goal is to win Bigg Boss and he cannot give up on step one.
"Thank you." That's all he says and she nods and leaves.
Luv needs time to think, plan and to fight his inner demons; that is the door he will not even open, not here in a BB house. Luv remembers the moment BB gave them the task and Luv's reactions to the task, it registered him the moment he looked at Sabya and Lucinda. Even though they covered it with playful smile but their eyes couldn't hide it. Later when he heard Sabya talking about his ex's he realised his reaction most likely to have came across as homophobic. He wanted to clarify it and apologise for it but he instead kept quiet and maintained his distance.
Sabya is playful, nice and funny, he can imagine why would M.P. Siddiqui's grandson would have noticed Sabya in the restaurant in Odessa. But Luv Tyagi is unable to step into that guy's shoes. He is still trying to be Mehjabi's son and Sabya's boyfriend from a distance, as a third person's point of view which is why it isn't working. Luv understands that he needs to let himself go but there is something holding him back. For him, opening up and letting go are the hardest things and he needs to do these things here. He needs to work a lot if he needs to win the task and move towards his goal.
'How far I am willing to go? Is it even worth it?' Thoughts like these roam around in his mind as he ponders over Lucinda's words and his behavior. He knows why Lucinda talked to him today. Even if not intentionally but his distance and reluctance with Sabya could be seen as something else which is of course not true but Luv could cause his team fail if he doesn't take his role seriously. On the other hand he also should clarify that he is not homophobic but no one brought it up so he doesn't either even if he silently feels guilty for it. 'Still you should apologise.' His mind whispers back to him.
When Luv finally joins his team the other 3 are busy working through the fact board. The board keeps getting filled with more details but they are not in sync.
"...rehna hoga. Kyun, Luv?"
"Hmm?" Sabya's voice registers his mind few seconds later.
"Main keh raha hon ke aise nahi hoga. Best option hai ke hum logon ko test karna chahiye. Pura aik din hum log agar character mein rahein toh aur ache se ho sakta hai. Jab tak hum log es ghar mein apne characters nahi ban jate toh us ghar mein bohut mushkil hojayegi. Rehearsals enough nahi hain, hume har waqt character mein rehna chahiye."
"Chachi sahi ja rahe ho, yeh sahi hai. Jitni practice utna character pakadh mein ayega." Sabya smiles at Mehjabeen but looks at Luv for his input. Luv does not hesitate when he responds to Sabya.
"Sahi hai... perfect hai. Chalo sab character mein ajao phir." All laugh and Sabya sighs in relief. He knew Luv needed sometime alone to figure things out and he is glad to see it worked. Luv seems slightly more relaxed and on board with the task.
"Waise character ke saath saath hum sab ke answers bhi same hone chahiyein. Dates, properties, sab ka answer same hona bohut zaroori hai. Question answer round bhi karna hoga."
"Bohut tayari baaki hai abhi. Bohut mehnat karni hai." Mehjabi sighs who is clearly tired but still determined. Lucinda looks at Luv and nods in his direction and he gives her a thankful smile.
All of them spend little more time on the board going through each and every detail and soon it's dinner time. They discuss their plan over dinner and decide that tomorrow they will spend entire day as their characters and see how long they can go without breaking from their characters.
Luv spends most of night with his thoughts going over facts, plan, game and his new family. Siddiqui task or not Mehjabi, Lucinda and Sabya are slowly becoming part of his life and dare he think somewhat of friends even.
A mother, a step grand mother who is almost his age and a boyf, no, Sabya... Luv is still cannot say boyfriend. He really needs to get used to the term - boyfriend. Somehow this word keeps playing in his mind back and he ends up thinking about Sabya's conversation with Lucinda about his past relationships.
Words like 'use', 'loyalty', 'hurt', 'pain' and 'love' were used in the conversation which pretty much sums up most of relationships today. Luv looks over to where Subya is sleeping, completely dead to the world. He looks towards Mehjabi and Luci who are in deep sleep too. Sighing Luv turns around once more thinking when will he be able to sleep like this.
"Kya howa?" Little mutter reaches his ear. 'Not dead to the world then.' Luv can either answer or pretend he didn't hear it.
"Kuch nahi." Sabya opens his eyes and tries to adjust them to see Luv. It is too dark but still Sabya can see his face. Luv does nothing and stays still, Sabya waits for few moments but when he realises Luv has no intention to saying anything else he sighs deeply and turns around muttering "baaqi ka sochna subah kar lena, ab soh jao" under his breath.
Luv closes his eyes and tries to shut out anymore thoughts from entering his brain. Sleeps comes to his sooner than he had imagined.
I hope you all enjoyed it. Back soon with next chapter.