My last week of summer vacation was probably the most stressful and life-changing moments of my life. I got an offer for a scholarship to one of the most prestigious private highschools in the country which meant that I was apparently smart enough not only to skip 9th grade I could also get into a highly difficult school. Even with the scholarship it took a lot of our family's saving to pay for it and well with that in mind I knew that if I failed it would be my fault that we're short on money.

Yuzu. Yuzu didn't get the oppurtunity to skip a grade which meant in this new school I no longer had a twin sister to be compared to. No more popular girls telling me, 'Yuzu is so pretty too bad you two aren't the same,' or 'God Karin you're worse than a boy! No feminine features at all.'. I mean sure they'll notice that I'm not all dresses and make in the Seireitei Academy too-that's the name of the school- but for one there aren't any popular girls on the cheerleading squad here.

In fact there isn't a cheerleading squad at all. The Seireitei Academy had a male population of nine hundred eighty four and a female population of one, excluding me of course. Therefore if anyone makes fun of me there it will most likely be a guy because if there's one thing I learned in junior high, it's that bullies travel in packs. A single girl can't and wouldn't form a pack with guys to make fun of another guy. And guys don't tend to follow a girl's lead...Unless they're my soccer team but that's different.

That's another thing I would be leaving behind. My team. The guys I grew up playing soccer with and a few others that had joined our school team in junior high. My friends that accepted that a girl could lead them. The only real friends I have other than family. Well look at the bright side. I won't have to listen to Yuzu tell me how cute my vice-captain was...

I wonder what kind of friends I would make in this new school? I wonder if the other girl is a tomboy like me? I wonder if their soccer team accepts girls? I wonder if they have a soccer team? I wonder why Ichigo is staring at me from across the room.

I look up from my book to stare at my brother the way he is staring at me. After a long silence and a staring contest I close the book I was reading. I cross my arms and raise an eyebrow, "What are you staring at Ichigo?"

He turns off the TV and turns his body to face me, "Don't you think that...it's a bit dangerous to enter a school full of boys? I mean don't you think you'll have some trouble there?" I pinch the bridge of my nose and sigh, "Don't you think that I know how to protect myself? I don't what kind of trouble you're talking about either. I'm strong and I'm smart I should be fine."

Ichigo shakes his head, "I'm talking about...I'm talking about boy trouble...um...I don't want you coming home with a boy on breaks you're too young for that." I face palm and grab my book from the kitchen table. I head towards the stairs all too aware of my brother's eyes on my back

I close my eyes and shake my head, "I'll ignore you just said that and pretend that I don't have the most overprotective stupid nosy older brother." I can just see the frown on his face without looking, "I'm just trying to protect you Karin. Being involved with someone will only get you hurt and.."

I interrupt him fury in my eyes as I turn back around, "It's none of your buisness anyway! And how would you even know that it would end hurting me? I don't see you with any girlfriend. Oh that's right it's because you'v never had one. So whatever delusion you have about heartbreaking relationships leave me out of it. I'm not listening anyway."

With I storm upstairs and into mine and Yuzu's bedroom. I really shouldn't have said the girlfriend comment because I know how hard he tries to ask Orihime. He still hasn't built up the courage... I feel worse for Orihime than I do for Ichigo though... I can't remember a time when she didn't like him. I wonder for a moment how dense my brother is and then dismiss it because I don't think there's a correct answer to it.

I flop down on my bed and stare at my book. Divergent by Veronica Roth. (AN: I love Divergent it's my favorite book. I definitely recommend it for you guys) I can't help but wonder where the main character will end up. I already see potential romances and futures for her but I can't place which one she'll end in... I'm not very much like her as far as I can see right now. I could take down anybody that I knew except my brother and his friends. I know though that as I read on I will probably find a lot of similarities and I realize that I won't always be the strongest kid around...

I wonder if I would rather live in their world or mine? Both have pros and cons. I realize that I would not leave this life behind no matter how rough it gets. I enjoy too much that fact that I am unique to be in their world I couldn't live with people all the same as me...Well not completely the same but having enough similarities that it seems that way.

I guess going to this new school would prove that huh? In it's own way choosing your highschool, your friends, your job, your future is just like the book. Like choosing a faction but at the same time being yourself. I guess that's what would be so hard about being from Divergent you can't always be yourself because you're expected to think and act certain ways not like yourself.

It occurs to me that Yuzu isn't in the room. Which means she's in the bathroom or helping Dad with the clinic because she wasn't downstairs either. I'll miss having her to confide in when something is wrong. I'll miss having her notice everytime I'm upset. I'll miss her homemade meals. I'll miss my other half. Yin and Yang. I'm the violent, protective, tomboy and she's the shy, vulnerable, girly-girl that everyone loves. The only cheerleader that wasn't in it for the attention or the boys. The on;y soccer player that is a girl. We are complete opposites but exactly the same.

She's my sister and my best friend. I love her more than I love myself. I love her more than I love soccer. I love all my family but she's the closest to me. The only one who doesn'y question my decisions if she thinks it will make me happy. The only person that knows where the line is and not to cross it.

I fell asleep that night trying to remember when I was little before my Mom died clutching Divergent to my chest.

I woke up screaming. I woke up crying. I woke up with my book thrown across the room. I woke up at 2:04 in the morning.

I woke up from my Mom's accident wondering why I wasn't the one gone.

Huh... Not at all how I expected to rewrite this but I like it...If you've read Divergent and like it too you should tell me in a review! I will from then on love you for the rest of my life. Haha I guess this should've been up sooner but I'm having surgery next week and I've been distracted sorry about that... Review please I can't make it any better without opinions.

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