What are the words that I'm supposed to say? I never gonna stop saying I'm sorry. And you are never going to believe me again. It's going to be dark and sad, as it has already started to be. I know you hate me. But hatred is a fire in itself. I wouldn't want you to forget the moments we spent together. Because I wouldn't want you to become cold. I wouldn't want you to broken. I want, I always wanted and will always want what makes you happy. I miss you.
Your white skin, swirling fireflies. Darkness has surrounded me, my cell, the base. Darkness has surrounded my life. Has it once been sane? I don't know. Maybe I was doomed to fail, to fail you. I didn't know I was going to fall in love with you. But these feelings were the most truthful of my whole life. In my entire existence, I had never felt so well than in you presence. I love you. More than anything else.
Please, open your eyes and tell me you see what I want you to see. Tell me you are not hating me. Tell me I'm not alone. The darkness is there, is going to swallow me. I know you can't forget me like that. I know you can't love me. I know this isn't something that can be washed away that easily. I betrayed you. I did something I shouldn't have done. That's lame to say that now.
How can your absence leave no trace? I'm alone. Alone. And I miss you. I drown myself deep in disgrace. In darkness.
What is the price, am I supposed to pay? HE has to pay. I just followed. I was young, young and I didn't know anything about what was going to happen. Please, believe me. I tried to hide everything. I tried to hide my feelings. I succeeded for years, until you came in the game.
What is my fate, am I supposed to pray? I don't know what is going to happen, but I know that I don't have a happy future in front of me. I think it's going to be hard and dark. Maybe I'm just gonna spend my whole life in the darkness and loneliness of my disgrace. This is a nice sentence. I guess I deserved more.
I'll never come back. I'll try to forget everything from your smile, to the way you looked at me when I did it. I didn't want that. What are the words that I'm supposed to say? Everybody know about this lie. Everyone. I don't want to go. Just I didn't want to aim. Just like I didn't want to pull the trigger. But I did. And you are gone. I think I went with you.