A Love Lost, A love Gained

Disclaimer: Sadly I have to deny all ownership to the turtles and all other related characters the plot however thanks to God and this incredible love of writing He's given me (even though I don't deserve it at all) is one hundred percent my creation.

A/N: Please I sincerely hope that you enjoy this story and please to be telling me if I should continue on with it as this is my first posted little ol TMNT fic lit. I would appreciate no flames just rounded constructive praise or criticism since I will take both graciously.

Warnings: Some serious Angst in here and character death. Also probably some brief or heavy spirituality in here of the Christian variety (not sure just how heavy yet) anyway like or don't its up to you please read and review.

The days grew short and the nights grew longer in New York City, as they also grew bleaker. It had been days after her death her truly untimely demise at the hands of the relentless foot saying that how dear she was to the reptiles and their rat master that taking her from them would take the fight right out of them, they were right. It seemed that because of their loss all will to fight some might even say live left them. Donnettelo sighed as he sat on the old, hard, dreary and quite cold park bench in Central Park New York.

It just wouldn't be the same without her.

Maybe he was taking this harsher than the others a little to much harder than the others, but he couldn't help it, he had always felt like she liked him for him like April had always looked down and beyond the mechanic he was and saw him for what he really was. Truthfully yes he liked mechanics the tinkering of hardware the feeling of creating things and something that no one else had ever attempted to or dared to hope possible, but she saw beyond that and saw also a writer he loved writing songs and poetry (though it was truly his secret passion that no one else but April knew about not even his brothers or Master Splinter knew about it and he intended to pretty much keep it that way to even despite the fact that April had encouraged him otherwise)but if you caught him he'd be the first to admit to you with a chuckle that he nowhere near had the voice appropriate for singing or phrasing his magical notes those words he loved so much. She also saw a councilor a person so quiet yet so full of wisdom and compassion willing to help everyone with their problems mental, physical and/or spiritual.

Didn't matter he was there for all of them when he was needed most, but her the one time she had really needed him he didn't come through he couldn't help her or save her in anyway shape or form, all he could do now was silently grieve for her and occasionally leave flowers like roses or forget menots on the site of her grave marker, he could never truly mourn out in the open for her as he would be seen by other unkind eyes not understanding or caring or compassionate eyes that saw him for him and not just a giant mutated turtle freak, no one like that existed anymore only her. He missed her oh gosh how did he miss her, he convinced himself that there was no one else like her on the face of this planet not one single solitary being like her left in existence on Gods green earth. No not one like her could be found. Not like anything could've ever worked out between them after all she was a human and he was a mutant, she was like 20 and was like what 15, 16 years old; he'd had not even a chance with her, besides she'd lived Casey anyway and now they where together once again in paradise with God.

Casey had committed suicide after her death deciding that life wasn't worth living without her. And so they buried that friend to.

He sighed again half with a choked sob this time, then he turned abruptly toward a noise he heard coming from in front of a store; A lone girl leapt away from being hit with a broom by an older woman she half leapt running away with her gray backpack flung over her shoulder Don noticed at how she glanced back half with a look of pity a, sadness and angst and half with a bemused grin she ran faster not slowing down, but instead running right into central park past where Donny was sitting then sighing and leaning over hands on knees as she harshly caught her breath. She sighed once again and headed over to where Donnettello was sitting and slumped down next to him on the bench breathing hard as though not all the air in the world was enough for her at that point. Don was about to get up and leave when he felt a voice saying to him:

"You wanted someone who wouldn't judge you for your mere appearance and run away screaming you wanted someone like April who will look at your very heart and soul and tell you what they see if you want this then you must stay and talk with this girl you will find you have more in common than originally thought and that she'll eventually come to love you beyond your comprehension of love so stay and talk if you wish these things then stay and just be her friend and maybe even more."

Now it was all up too him, All Donnettello had to do was start with the simplest question any idiot coulda or woulda thought of ,

"Hi, my names Donnettello, whats yours ?"

Well ……

here goes my first chapter remember the more reviews I get the faster I will update so please click that little button over there no, no warmer, warmer now its colder, colder dude your in Antartica now your on fire someone quick call 911 and get a hose! Uh yeah (end freak out) but anyway you get the idea. Also please tell me if I got the spelling on Dons name right, I'm a pretty dang horrible speller mind you.

God Bless.