Title: Lost Grip

Author: Rin Hiwatari

Disclaimer: I don't know Inu-Yasha. All I own a pink blinking earring. (I don't think I own the plot line because I might have seen it before, but I LOVE my version)

" …Blah…"- talking

'… Blah…'- thinking

's P.O.V.- person's point of view

Rin's P.O.V:

I've never been good enough for Lord Sesshoumaru. I don't know why I ever thought I was. I'm positive that the only reason he resurrected me was because I helped him live. He doesn't care; I was foolish to believe he did. He doesn't love me, not like I love him. My heart rips apart around him knowing he doesn't know how I feel, but if I tell him he'll kill me or worse never talk to me. After being consumed by my love for him, I've decided that this is my end.

It's been many years since I met Sesshoumaru and I'm now seventeen. A lot has happened between Sesshoumaru, Jaken, and me, like teaching me to fight and to use spells. Two days ago, we fought against Inu-Yasha's team with their newest addition… uhh… Ka… Ko… Sango's brother. He's a great fighter and even though I'm scared of him when we fight, I'm terrified of when he talks to me. He talks like he knows me, like he wants to help me. But that can't be true.

Who would care about a dirt girl like me? A girl torn and worn down. A girl unworthy of love, kindness and friendship. Humans like me should be dead. Lord Sesshoumaru must have been at some rare moment of weakness when he revived me or maybe my fake smile that kept my deep trauma hidden was really that convincing. It doesn't matter, though.

I have to end it for Sesshoumaru because I'm unfit to love and care for him and to receive his kindness. He's been so good to me and all I do is cause him more trouble. Sesshoumaru will never admit it, but I know he wish he didn't revive me that day. So this is it. I'm going to die with the very dagger Sesshoumaru gave me. I admit I'm scared but I won't let that stop me. I'm trebling as I drag the dagger deep into my left wrist. Damn, it hurts but I have to do it. I feel more incisions decorating my wrists as my vision blurs. I hear someone coming but I can't tell who. Darkened figures are coming toward me, but who is it. I don't care. I'm crying and I'll never see Sesshoumaru again. Everything is going black and the world starts to spin as I feel my body crash to the ground. It's over.

Rin: Well, I hope you all like it… The chapters are going to be about this length, maybe longer, maybe shorter. Each chapter is a new point of view. Well read and review.