Alternate Ending (Jacob/Bella)

(BPOV)- pick up on bottom of page 358- New Moon

I rolled up onto the balls of my feet and looked down. I was really high up.

Wow, this is scary. I wish Jacob were here with me.

What was I thinking? I was supposed to want Edward. I needed Edward, I was hearing him but he wasn't really there. He never would be, not anymore.

I looked at the water again. The unkind waves crashed against the rocks below.

Maybe I shouldn't be doing this. At least not now.

I swallowed realizing that I was right. The storm was coming in too quickly and it was too dangerous to jump… even for me.

I sighed and laid back putting my legs over the edge. I watched the clouds go by and they seemed to be an odd color. A color I had never seen before. The wind was picking up and I decided to head back.

I hope Jacob's okay. What if he's not ?!? Oh God, what if something happened. NO!!! Jacob is fine, he's fine. Oh, what if he isn't. This is all my fault!!!

The thoughts poured in and there was no way for me to stop them. I paced up and down the beach even though the storm was getting closer. Thankfully, I saw Sam walking toward me.

" Is Jake okay?" I asked frantically.

" Yup, he sent me too check on you. Are you okay?" he said it so calmly

" No, I'm not okay! I've been worried all afternoon!!! Why in the world would you think I would be okay?!?" I snapped at him bitterly.

" Sorry I guess I didn't think about that"

I calmed down a bit. " When do you think he will be back?"

"Well that depends"

" On what?"

He smiled " How badly he wants to get back to see you"

I blushed and looked at the ground.

"I should probably be getting back now," Sam said.

" Okay, uh… can you tell Jake that I'll be fine?"

"I will" he said with a smile and walked off

I went back to Billy's and when I walked in nobody was there.

"That's odd," I muttered to myself.

I sat there and let my mind wander. But no matter what I thought about I ended up thinking about Jacob.

He was so sweet. Out there protecting me. Hell, I wouldn't even protect myself. I wondered why the pack would want to help me. After all, Victoria was after me and I wouldn't want any of the guys to get hurt. Jacob was my best friend though. He was helping me get through my darkest time and sunshine was now starting to get through the darkened spaces of me. Because of him I was regaining hope.

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the door open. I got up and saw Jacob standing there.

" Jake" I yelled.

I ran to him and through my arms around him. He was so warm and I loved that about him.

"I thought you might be happy to see me" Jacob said as he put his hands around my back

"Oh Jake, I was so worried"

"You don't need to worry about me Bells"

I smiled. Being in Jacob's arms made me feel so secure and that was the way it was always going to be. Then I pulled away.

"Storms moving in quickly so Sam sent us all home" he began.

" I'm really tired of this weather. How long do you think the storm will last?" I asked in an annoyed tone.

"Probably until early morning" he paused " you should probably stay here since we can't be out there watching over you" he searched my face for any signs of discomfort.

" That would be fine, I just have to call Charlie and…"

He interrupted me "I already did"

I raised my eyebrows and smiled "So you knew I was going to say yes then?"

"I had a feeling" he smiled.

"So you told Charlie that I can't come home because there is a crazy vampire out there wanting to kill me and my protecting werewolves can't be out there to watch me because of the storm?" I said jokingly.

"No, I said that some trees are down and they're blocking the road"

"Well at least that explanation won't give him a heart attack" I stated.

We both laughed. I imagined Charlie's face if he was actually told the first explanation.

We went over to the couch and it wasn't long until Jacob fell asleep. He practically fell over, taking me with him but I didn't mind. He needed his rest.

I was tired myself and Jacob was fast asleep. His arms were around me and his hands fell onto my waist. I was starting to get a little cold so I pressed my body against his. I was so jealous that Jacob was warm all the time. It didn't seem very fair. His skin felt nice against mind and I realized I had never been this close to a guy before. Not even Edward. Soon I felt sleep coming over me.

* * *

I woke up in a new position. My hand and head were against Jacob's bare chest and my legs were entwined with his. His arms were around me but had found there way to the skin of my back. Oddly enough, I was comfortable.

I examined Jacob. His hair was still short but I looked nice and I liked it. I remembered the first time I saw it short, when I went to Jacob's house to get an explanation why he hadn't talked to me. I shuddered. I wished I could erase that memory from my brain. It was the first time Jacob had ever hurt me. That day he had punched a new hole into my chest. The thought was almost unbearable to think about. I knew he felt bad about it and I wondered if he had forgave himself for doing that after he promised he would never hurt me or leave me. But that hole had been sown up and the other one was beginning to heal as well.

I was loving this right now. Jacob would always be here for me. I remembered the day at the movies when Jacob had confessed his feelings for me.

I stared at Jacob. I watched his chest rise and fall as he breathed. I ran my fingers across his chest. He had a lot of muscle and it was pretty impressive.

Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I do have feeling for Jacob.