First, this has profanity and is very graphic. It should only be read by mature audiences only. This is my personal book that ive been writing. This is not the first one ive wrote, but its the better one. Lol. No pun was intented when writing this. And plz no hatterz. My dream is to be a writer and my first book to get published might just be this one.
"I know you were with her! Why the hell do you have to lie about it?"
"Sam!Just let me explain!"
"No were done! Ive given you way to many chances and all you've ever done is fuck me over!" I turned around walking away.
Brad grabbed my wrist pulling me back to him. "Don't fucking touch me!" I screamed aloud.
Without even knowing what i was doing i pulled my fist back. Punching Brad... right in the face.
"What the fuck?" He yelled staggering back. Blood dripping from his nose. Yuck.
"That's what you get dick face!"
I walked the rest of the distance to my care. Leaving Brad in a heaping pool of blood, as the rest of the school mocked him for being such a pussy. Serves the bitch right. Seriously if someone really means so much to you...Then why the hell would you cheat on them? It makes no since right?
"Mom?" I yelled as i set my car keys down on the kitchen counter.
That's weird, mom usually gets home before me. She doesn't work so the only other place she could be is at the grocery store. Her rehab classes end before i even get out of school.
I looked in the fridge finding some old pizza i popped in the microwave. A note fell to the floor from the fridge. I picked it up reading it:
"Samantha, i wont be home for a little while. Had some things to take care of. Pick Aleaya up from day care, then clean out the pantry.
Love Mom"
What the hell? She's never made me clean out the pantry. Partly because ever since i was able to walk its been locked, other because i kind of figured she put her drug money in there. (Tell you more about that later.)
I walked over to the pantry noticing (out of the sixteen years of my life) for the first time ever that the pantry had no lock on it. I remember my mom used to say that something was wrong if that lock was ever missing.
Instead of looking in the pantry, i left to go get my three year old little sister Aleaya from day care. That left me with time to think about what was even inside the pantry. She wouldn't keep it locked for nothing. So what was in there? Dead bodies... stolen credit cards... e-legal papers... drugs? Honestly, i had no idea.
"Hello Samantha. Alberta couldn't make it today?" One of the day care ladies asked. I swear i could never remember her name even if my life depended on it. Good thing it don't though, right?
"Yeah she's doing some last minute grocery shopping, i think."
"Well that's okay, it's always nice to see you."
"Mhmmmm, how was Aleaya today?"
"Just as wonderful as always. But i think she learned a new song today. She kept walking around singing 'I will never say never, i will fight till forever.' It was really cute actually."
"Really? I know that song, its by Justin Bieber, gosh i haven't heard it in ages!"
The day care lady shrugged her shoulders before she walked away to where Aleaya was playing with some lego's. "Come on Aleaya, Samantha is here to take you home."
Her eyes lit up like like darts. "Sammi!" She giggled in her little three year old voice.
She wobbled her way over to me, her light brown Shirley temple curls bouncing on her head.
Aleaya was my mom's 'get off drugs baby.' And yes im being serious. My mom used to do crack, coke, herione, you name it. Getting pregnant with Aleaya was her way of quiting drugs.
Did she quit? Yeah she did. (Even though now and then i think she's back on it). But that still didn't mean that she was back to being her old self. She stayed in her room, locked away taking care of Aleaya. Basically forgetting about me. Okay so no she didn't really forget abut me. But its like she... disowned me.
"Ready to go home Leah?" I asked as i picked her up. She nodded her head smiling. "Bye," I called behind me to the day care lady.
Did i really want to do this? There could be anything hidden inside that pantry. I paced back and forth before giving up.
"Open." Aleaya said pointing to the pantry.
My mother still hasn't came back. Better get this over with before she does. Slowly but steadily i held my hand out, opening the pantry door.
I held my hand to my mouth, shocked at what i was seeing. Not dead bodies, or drugs. Nothing like that. But... cash and lots of it.
"Mommy?" Aleaya cried out. I dropped to the floor, hugging her tight in my arms as i realized what was going on. "I dont think mommy's coming back." I whispered.
Aleaya didn't understand. She's only three. Im sixteen and even i don't fully understand. Yet we both sat there, crying as if we both knew what was going to happen.
"Im sorry Samantha, there's nothing we can do. Your mother has papers stating that if anything were to happen to her, Aleaya was to go into your care, and you were to go live with your grandmother in Atlanta." Sheriff downing said.
"Im sixteen! How can i support myself let alone Aleaya too! Besides i never knew i had a grandma, ive never even met my family!"
"Im sorry, i truly am. But there is a law against us going against your mother's wishes."
"This can't be happening." I muttered to myself.
"Take care," he said backing off the porch.
Its been two whole days and still my mom hasn't come back... How could she just abandon us like that? Were supposed to be her pride and joys. Especially Aleaya? She's just an infant.
"Want to go on vacation?"
Aleaya looked at me confused. "But mommy, she come home."
"No Leah, She's not. Mommy is taking a vacation herself. So were going to go visit grandma for a little while."
"Mommy don't wuuuve me?" She cried. I picked her up setting her on my lap.
"Mommy will always love you. No matter what. Right now she just needs grown up time."
Aleaya cried herself to sleep. For being only three she sure did act older. She was smart, knew alot of big words and everything... i don't understand why anyone would want to leave her.
I packed up Aleaya's clothes, sippy cups, anything that she absolutely needed. Which was kind of everything because she's still just a baby.
For me on the other hand, everything was an option. Did i absolutely need my makeup? Or my laptop? Still i packed up everything that would fit in my car. Which wasn't much because i needed to make room for Aleaya's playpen, booster seat, stroller, and room for the grocery's i still have yet to buy.
My phone started vibrating in my pocket. "Hello?" I said answering it as i shut the door off my Chevy Honda.
"Im coming with you."
"Carter?"
"Yes, i heard about what happened to your mom and everything. You cant do this without me." She said.
"Im not coming back, im really leaving. What about your family and school?"
"You know how it is here? All my mom cares about is her new daughter in law Jessica, Lance and the baby. Im already emancipated. So i can just go and i can go to school with you in Georgia."
I sighed. " I don't think you should come."
"Look Bitch. Im coming."
"Um... Okay, i'll pick you up in about an hour."
Now with Carter coming that eliminates more things i could have brought. And i know what your thinking, that im a push over. I can be, but She really was right. I do need her more than ever right now.
Aleaya was still asleep on the couch, soon she would wake up and soon we would leave. Ive lived in Bay City Michigan all my life. Now im supposed to just leave it for a really big city like Atlanta? Yeah this is going to be one hard move.
I still hadn't touched any of the money that was in the pantry. Mostly because it would really mean that my mom was really gone and that she wasn't coming back. Other because for all i knew this money was stolen. There had to be over $20,000 dollars there. But i couldn't leave without anything to support myself... So i grabbed a really big purse and chucked every last cent into it.
"I wish you hadn't left mom." I said aloud to myself. As if i was really waiting for an answer. I think i was because i stood there for about five minutes before waking Aleaya up.
"What would you take for food on a road trip?" Carter asked as we walked through lanes in the grocery store.
"I don't know. Fruit snacks, crackers, juice, things that will keep you occupied until we stop at McDonald's or something."
"Juicy! Juicy!" Aleaya screamed as she laughed and clapped her hands.
"Ill put some in your sippy cup before we leave." I told her as i laughed at the face she was making.
I don't know how im ever going to be able to take care of Aleaya. I can't even take care of myself. Fuck, ive never even been in love! I don't want to lose my sister. She's all i have left besides Carter. If anything were ever to happen to Aleaya because of me... i just don't think i could live with myself.
"Sammie? Hello are you even listening to me?"
"Sorry Carter what was that again?"
"I asked how are we going to be able to pay for everything?"
"Oh, my mom left me some money." I couldn't hold back the smile that was playing on my lips any longer. Because truthfully, even in the midst of my situation... Im still a teenager and money still means a lot to me.
Carter hunched up one of her eye brows, her mocha cafe colored skin paling in comparison to its usual black and white mixed color. "How much did she leave?"
"Um... about a little more than twenty-thousand dollars."
Carter stopped dead in her tracks all thought about anything else was lost for her. When she spoke it sound as if she was out of breath. "Twe- Twe- Twenty Th- th- thousand dollars?"
"Yepp."
"Oh my mother fucking gosh!" She just about screamed.
Passer Byers looked at us like we were crazy. They rolled their eyes at us before they turned to each other whispering about us because they knew what happened with my mom. I guess that's what happens when you live in a small town like Bay City.
"Carter! Watch your mouth. Aleaya picks up on that kind of stuff."
She lowered her voice whispering, "seriously how the hell-" I glared at her. "I mean how the heck did she get that money?"
I sighed. Now on this part i had no idea on. "I don't know."
"But you took it anyway?"
"How was i going to be able to support us without it? Aleaya is only three! I cant have her starving because we dont have any money." Now i was mad. Taking the money had been the right thing to do. I mean my mom basically gave it to me!
"Did you at least tell the cops?"
I lowered my eyes refusing to meet hers."No."
"Samantha Laker!" I hate it when people call me by my full name. "You can get in a lot of trouble for that."
"Your not my mother Carter! That money isnt just for me, its for you too. Were in this together!"
"Okay," was all she would say.
We finished shopping in silence. Even Aleaya who had been screaming her head off for attention was quite.
"How long do you think it will take us to get there?" Carter asked after we already had been driving for a couple hours.
"Probably about 2-3 days."
"Sammie?" Aleaya cried from her booster seat in the back.
"Yes?"
"Bieber swong?" I love how she talks. Its so cute. She sounds just like a two year old yet she talks like a seven year old.
"What?" I asked again, not fully understanding what she was trying to say to me.
"Wisten to Justin Bieber." Its adorible how she says Biber instead of Bieber.
Besides? How on earth does she know of Justin Biebr? I used to blare his music a long time ago. But Aleaya was just a baby then.
"Carter can you flip through my c.d case, his albums are in the way back?"
For about countless hours we listened to Justin Bieber. Even when Aleaya fell asleep i didn't want to change the c.d, i guess i had forgotten how much Justin's music used to mean to me. That's something i never really shared with anyone.
"Im getting hungry!" Carter whined. Dude she's seventeen and still whines? I think she should have learned by now not too.
"There's a steak and shake a couple miles ahead. Does that sound good?"
"Fine with me."
"Aleaya! Don't throw your food!" Carter was yelling at Aleaya by time i got out of the bathroom.
"Great what did i miss?" I said being sarcastic.
"A lot of food throwing. Im surprised the waitress hasn't kicked us out yet."
"That's pry because she's passed out in the bathroom."I laughed.
"What?Noway!" Carter was laughing so hard that a little bit off her chocolate shake was coming out of her nose. Which made me laugh even harder. Then Aleaya was trying to make her shake come out of her nose too. Which was really cute. Overall i think the three of us had a blast.
"Finally!" I coed as i parked my car into a three star hotel's parking lot in Atlanta Georgia.
"Thank god im sick of being in the car!" There Carter goes again with her whining.
I unbuckled Aleaya from her booster seat. Holding her on my hip as Carter and i walked into the hotel lobby.
"Hello, how may i help you today?" The receptionist at the front desk asked. She was a pretty blond in her mid-thirties, has about three kids, and is a divorcee who is sleeping with her boss... What? Im good at reading people. I haven't been wrong yet.
"Could i get one of your suites here?"
"No, im sorry none of our rooms are vacant at the moment."
Whoa now did this really blow. The cheapest hotel in Atlanta isnt vacant. (Well besides those roach motels but im not staying in those.)
"Do you know if any of the other hotels have rooms available?" I held my breath praying that she wasnt about to say one of the five star hotels.
"The Ritz Carrolton is open."
Damn it. Just my luck. Im going to have to pay about a thousand dollars a night until i find my grandmother, just to get some sleep.
"Do you know where that is?" The receptionist looked at me like i was crazy.
"Honey, are you even old enough to rent out a hotel room?"
"My mother abandoned me and my three year old sister. Leaving me a little bit of money behind. I have legal papers stating that i am of legal age to take care of myself. Meaning i am basically eighteen years old. Now damn it are you going to tell me where the fucking hotel is?" We got the directions to the five star hotel room and were on our way.
We got a room there with no hassle what so ever."Oh my god its beautiful!" Carter exclaimed.
I couldn't help but laugh, "Um... its just the elevator."
"Im talking about everything! I cant believe im actually back here! Oh please can i borrow your car and go visit my grandfather?"
I forgot she had family here. "I guess."I said handing her my keys. Thinking that she would actually wait until we were fully unpacked. Because all we had right now were our suit cases, Aleaya's play pen, and food. Oh and the Justin Bieber c.d's that ALeaya just refused to let go of.
Ding. The elevator door opened up at floor 32. Yeah there's a lot of floor's. I think there's actually about 46.
I paused waiting for Carter to get out of the elevator. "Don't you at least want to see the room first?"
"Nope. Catch up with you la-" The elevator door shut.
"Come on Aleaya, its just you and me. So we can order room service." She smiled like she actually knew what it was.
To make things easier for me to carry i put Aleaya's play pen in her stroller, with her clothes and diaper bag in the basket under the stroller. Aleaya was walking beside me as i pulled my own suitcase and had a bag on my back. Yeah it was hard pushing the stroller with a suit case, but i managed.
I set down the suitcase and bag in front of the door unlocking it.
"Justin Bieber." Aleaya said in her baby voice, tugging on my shirt.
"Hun we can listen to it when we get in the room." The stupid door didn't want to unlock.
I turned around, not hearing Aleaya behind me anymore. That's pry because she was wobbling like a two year old down the hall to a random stranger as he got out of his room.
"Shit," I said as i jogged after her. But it was too late, the stranger was already bending down. Probably asking where her mommy was.
"Im so sorry, Aleaya doesn't know any bett-" I stopped talking as i realized who the stranger was.
"Justin Bieber." Aleaya repeated smiling.