AN: This is my 2nd Legend of Korra fanfic. Please read and review.
It had been two weeks since I'd lied and I couldn't stop the gnawing feeling that it was going to come back to haunt me.
It seemed like an innocent enough lie to cover up the fact that my feelings for her were genuine and that I was unsure. I had said as much and then she kissed me. I was sure then. I was as sure then as I am now but so much seemed to happen at once.
I enjoyed it. The kiss was unlike any I'd ever had before or would have again. In the moment, I couldn't stop myself from leaning in, from wanting it, from wanting her. Then in a flash it was over and so many things happened at once.
He'd seen us and the guilt started to build inside me then I thought of Asami and the guilt rose like bile in my throat. I was so out of sorts and all I could think about was that kiss. Instead of how wrong it had been, everything in me was saying how right it was, how that second felt like a lifetime. Kissing Asami never felt that way. It made me angry. How could I betray them both and betray my own feelings. Bo was right, I was a brother betrayer. I was really just a betrayer of them and myself.
I still haven't told Asami and other than a cursory word about it, Bo and I hadn't talked about what happened either. I avoided her whenever possible but I know that in that moment she'd made herself vulnerable and I betrayed her trust, I didn't deserve any more of her time and I wouldn't dare ask for it.
It's been two weeks since that damn kiss and my mind keeps playing it back for me when I'm alone or not so deep in thought. I can't stop thinking about her and yet I try so hard not to. This is bad, it is so coming back to haunt me, I just know it.