Disclaimer for "if only he knew": I do not own the Teen titans, Hot topic, the creators of the peavy raptor, FMA, the high healed 6 inch boots, the owners of marshals, any of the music put into this fic, most of the poetry (I will point out the stuff I own), the titans tower, the pizza parlor (the book store is different, because its not in the series any where.), happy bunny, invader zim, The saying "victory is mine", or my mind to begin with. Any of the things I use in this fic, I give full credit to the owners, and makers of the things I use.
Preview from chapter to come: Standing in the rain, letting the rain fall onto my face, I thought to myself, 'if yesterday didn't come, what would today be? If I hadn't done what i had done, would i be the same person i am now?' as I thought, i heard a voice, calling me out of my own little world. It began faint, then it grew louder. I knew who it was, and why he was calling me. I wanted to come out of my deep thought, but it just sucked me in. As he got closer, my thoughts sucked me in deeper and deeper. As I felt his hand on my shoulder, i snapped out of the trance, and fell to my knees, as the rain poured down on the two of us...
Chapter one
It was normal Sunday morning. Beast boy and Cyborg playing video games, Starfire cooking something, Robin tracing down Slade, and me, Raven, Reading my books and meditating. It was about noon, when i noticed, by this time, Starfire usually knocks on my door at least 4 times to ask me to go to the mall, and beast boy asks me to be on his team for "stank ball". Something's not right.
As i walked into the living room, nothing was different. Everything was normal. So, i poured myself some tea, but when i sipped it, the room got quiet all of a sudden. I looked around to see that Cyborg, Starfire, and Robin had taken off. I asked beast Boy, "where'd everyone go? Did Robin find slade?" He just sat on the couch and smiled at me with the same look he used to give terra, "i guess they all had plans, well, seeing what day it is." With one look into his eyes, I knew what was going on. It was valentines day! The were trying to sent me up with him! Damn those three. Well, i tried to act cool, "well, I guess i should go and see if star wants to go to the mall, or something." "Star and robin when to the movies." "I'll see if-" "Cyborg went to visit Bumble bee."
Damn, i ran out of ideas, and he knew it. Right before he had the time to say anything, I yelled out, "will you look at the time, i was supposed it pick up a book an hour ago. Well, gotta go!" I teleported out as soon as i could. I went to the book store, to look for something new. 'why not, i said i was going to the book store.' i thought to myself. When i got to the counter to pay for my books, i spotted an entry box labeled, THE RAPTOR COULD BE YOURS. I asked the man behind the counter what it was for. "its a drawing for a peavy raptor." I had no idea what he was talking about. he noticed the look on my face. "its an electric guitar. the store is having a costumer appreciation day next weekend and were raffling off some things. The guitar, along with a marshals hip amp, and a $500 shopping spree at hot topic, are the top prizes awarded." so i said to myself, 'what the hell. why not enter. i know damn well i won't win, but it doesn't hurt anything to enter.' He gave me a ticket. I filled it out and slipped it into the box.
I played for my book, and walked around town, because i knew what would happen if i went home. I stopped at hot topic to see what was new (all my friends and me love hot topic. its an awesome place. and they now have anime stuff, even teen titans stuff. even though its not an anime. this next part reflects me, sort of.). I drooled over the FMA stuff with Ed's picture on it(the me part :) ), and i checked out a nice pair of 6 inch healed boots. they were nice, but i didn't have the money for them.
I walked down the street, and stopped at the pizza place to get something to eat, but on my way in, i heard a familiar voice yell out, "how could i be so stupid!" It was beast boy. I didn't know he would be there, but i got a little worried about him. I flew onto the roof to try and ease drop on him. he started to yell at him self, "how could you think she liked you! she would never like someone like you!" he buried his head into his hands. "she'd never like me. I'm not her type. if i died myself pale white, died my hair black, learned witchcraft, painted my nails black, and wore eye-liner, she might think about likening me." I was almost positive, he was talking about me. I thought to myself, 'if only he knew...' before i left, i flew over him, making sure he didn't notice me, and dropped a note from above him, reading: There's still hope... i teleported back to the tower as the note hit his table. I didn't want him to see me.