This is a Jack/Gwen pairing: what if Gwen is having second thoughts about the wedding. What is she has developed new feelings for a certain complicated man. Will she Jack? Will Jack Let he get married or will he stop her?

Chapter One – Flashbacks

Gwen sat quietly at her desk. Tomorrow was her wedding day and she couldn't decide whether she was doing the right thing marrying Rhys. She sat in the deserted room thinking about the way she felt. She knew she loved Rhys but she was unsure of whether on not the love she felt was true love or just loving care for someone. A few weeks ago she and Rhys had gotten into a heated argument which lead to him accusing her that she did not love him and that he was just a habit she found hard to break away from. She had obviously told him that that was not true. Now however thinking back on their relationship she realised that he may have been right. There was no excitement in their relation anymore, there was no passion between them and she had started to pick out little things about him that annoyed her that never used to.

That wasn't all that was playing on her mind. There was indeed someone else she had been thinking about for sometime. Someone who she had developed feelings for. Jack. He was everything she wanted in a man. Tall, handsome, passionate and strong. True he was arrogant, rude and a bit of a show of, to be truthful she liked these things about him. There was also the fact that she could talk to him about work, something she could not do with Rhys. True Rhys now knew about her job, about the aliens and the danger but she couldn't bring herself to sit down and discuss it with him. Jack on the other hand was the one person she could talk to. When she was with him she felt as though she could tell him anything and she didn't need to hold back, she couldn't however find the words to tell him that she thinks she is falling in love with him. What scared her the most was being rejected. She often wondered if Jack had feelings for her, feelings that went above the boss and employee level. She knew he cared about her; he had shown this plenty of times but was there anything else between them? This is the question she often laid awake at night thinking about. She started to think about little incidents between her and Jack. There was the time on her first day at work when she had kissed him. He had just helped her save a young girl (Caris) from an alien that survived of orgasmic energy that had taken over her body. She had kissed him. It was only a small kiss on the lips to say thank you. Jack however had sat there for about a minute after wards with a puzzled look on his face; he had also brought his fingers up to his lips. It was as if he was holding the kiss in place. Gwen had noticed this but dismissed it from her mind. Thinking about it now Gwen realised that what Jack had done was an unusual thing to do. There were other times as well that got her confused. Like the day Jack had returned from his little adventure. Whilst her and Jack were walking he turned to face her and told her that she was the reason he had come back. He said that all the time he was gone all he could think about was coming home to her. It was at this point he had run his hand down her arm and held her hand. He had then felt the ring on her finger and asked her what it was. She told him that it was an engagement ring and she and Rhys were getting married. At that statement Jacks face had changed. It was as if something had dragged the life out of him. All she could see in his eyes was pain and hurt but she didn't understand why. Gwen couldn't put it together.

'Why had he looked at me like that?' she asked herself.

There were other times like this. There was the day that Rhys had found out about Torchwood and what it was she actually did. Jack had pinned her up against the wall to stop her chasing after Rhys while they were at the warehouse. He had been so close to her that her stomach filled with butterflies and if Jack hadn't been holding her she would have fallen to the ground because her legs had gone weak. There was also the little incident with the kiss between her and Rhys during the same day. They were sat on the seats inside the hub and Rhys had moved in for a kiss. Gwen had obliged and kissed him back. Jack had noticed this and just stared at her. She had also looked over at him. All throughout the kiss she had paid no attention to Rhys as her and Jack was just staring at each other. What puzzled her most though was what had happened at the end of the day. She had left the hub with Rhys intending on drugging him so he would forget the day's events. However she had run back into the hub and shouted at Jack that she wasn't going to drug Rhys. She remembered that argument so clearly, it kept playing back in her mind.

(Flashback):

'I'm not doing it Jack, I wont drug him' She had shouted

'You've got to' Tosh and Owen had told her, 'It's the rules' Ianto had said.

At that point she had started ranting and raving about how they had no idea about what it was like to have some one.

'I wont do it Jack, and if that means that I have to leave Torchwood and you have to retconn me then so be it' she had said.

That's when Jack stepped in; he walked over to her, looked her in the eyes and said 'do you really think you could go back to your life before Torchwood?'

'I wouldn't know any different would I' she had replied

He had then looked straight at her and said 'I would'.

She could see that pain in his eyes again, and the tears that were building up.

He had then told her 'give Rhys my love and I will see you tomorrow'. That's when she had walked away, the argument relying in her mind.

She came back to reality, trying to piece everything together, but she just couldn't figure it out. 'What did he mean when he said I would?' she asked herself.

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