This was for a commission on dA. I'm...not too sure how I did, as it being a pairing I'm not too familiar with. XemSai had always seemed canon to me honestly. And I love crack pairings soo I guess that explains it. :) Enjoy though. Hope you all like it.
I Can...Feel?
The silver-haired man stands atop the castle, gazing up at the yellow heart-shaped moon, Kingdom Hearts. Saix had just left his side, and as much as he hated to admit it, he felt a feeling of anxiety grow in the pit of his stomach. Xemnas only shakes his head, well aware of his past, of the past conflicting hearts of a Keyblader from both light and dark in his own heart.
No, he thought, I'm a Nobody. No heart. No feelings. No room for affection.
Yet, that was all he wanted as he Saix appeared back up behind him. "Number 10 and Number 2 have fallen, I'll be going now Superior."
Xemnas could feel a lump forming in his throat, the words he wants to say and those he should say, muddling together. The blue haired man seems to take the silence as a good-bye, turning away from the elder member, his black boots padding across the floor and to a Corridor of Darkness.
Number I spins around, only to see the portal snapping shut behind Number VII. He'd lost his opportunity. The opportunity to say things he wished he had the heart to say and to stop the one he's grown attached to from fading.
All we wanted were hearts...is that really so wrong?...his thoughts question.
Golden eyes soften, but hardening at the realization that he feels for someone other than himself. He scoffs, returning his attention to Kingdom Hearts, high in the sky before him. Xemnas always knew of the hidden plans, that several of the members had cooked up. It was why he had kept Saix close, not knowing he would develop feelings for him.
Letting the blue haired one go off to fight Sora, one of the youngest Keyblade weilders, Xemnas knew it wouldn't end well. He had permitted Saix to use the berserker form that he always kept hidden away. but Xemnas knows that not even that could save the other Nobody.
The familiar sound of clashing weapons can be heard faintly, carried along on the stagnant wind. Xemnas sighs heavily, almost chuckling at the revelation he's discovered.
Maybe...a heart can be brought to us by others...not Kingdom Hearts...he tries to rationalize.
In the end he simply drives the thought away, knowing that, that couldn't possibly be the answer to the mystery which has eluded him. However, in a matter of mere moments, he can hear the pitter-patter of hurried footfalls coming toward him, more than one person to be exact.
Preparing for their arrival, Xemnas opens a portal. But he stalls, for a cool track is made over his cheek. Reaching gloved fingers up, he brushes it away, staying true to the belief that he has no emotions. Xemnas walks into the darkness, his mind set on getting Kingdom Hearts, and the heart he doesn't have, grieving for the loss of Saix.