So as much as I love Sam and Addison together, we all know that they're going to break up eventually (because they just are, that and I'm a pessimist). This is a one-shot based on Trey Songz song Can't Be Friends from Sam's point of view.
Oh and I own nothing. Just a poor broke college student playing with her favorite characters from one of her favorite shows
Sam stood in his living room looking at the mess he had created.
Look what this girl done did to me
He was not usually a violent person, but with the right trigger Sam could go off. There was glass on the floor from a broken vase, and a dining chair rested on its side. Papers from files were strewn all over the floor. He was geared up to go to the kitchen and do to it what he had done to the living room.
But he stopped instead.
The last light from the day shone through the window and landed on a picture frame covered in more broken glass. Sam followed the light's path and closed his eyes. It was a picture of him and Addison taken months ago when things were good.
She done cut me off from a good good love
She told me that those days where gone
About two hours earlier Addison came over to talk...
The patio door slid open.
"Hey Addison." Sam smiled as she walked into the house. He was genuinely glad to see her; he always was.
"Sam." There was something about the way she said his name that made him stop in his tracks.
"Addison what's going on?" Sam asked. He invaded her space and held her arms in his hands.
She looked down before lifting her head up, "I want a baby, Sam..."
"Addie, we had this conversation and we can't..."
"I know," Addison interrupted. "But, I don't think I can wait any longer."
"Addison."
She pulled herself out of Sam's grip and walked across the room. Not knowing what to do with her arms, she wrapped them around her abdomen and hugged herself. "Sam I've wanted this for three years and god knows I'm not getting any younger. So I'm doing this Sam," Addison sniffed and wiped away a tear that had begun to fall. "And I know that you don't want another kid, so I'm going to do it on my own. And I can't..."
"What are you saying Addison?" Sam asked even though he already knew.
"We can't be together anymore. I can't be with you and have what I want. I can't bake my cake and eat it too."
"Addison!"
"I'm really sorry Sam." She turned around and walked out of the door and back to her own house.
Now I'm sitting here goin' half crazy
'Cause I know she still thinks about me too
It had been two weeks since he and Addison ended their relationship.
He sat by himself staring out his window at the ocean. It felt a little bit like deja vu. He watched the waves crash on the shore as he sipped Bourbon from the did not usually drink Bourbon,well at least he did not usually drink it alone. Sam looked at the bottle in his hand and swirled it around watching the liquid move around.
Sam was pissed on the one hand and about to loose his mind on the other. It took them so long to get to where they were, and she was willing to just throw it all away.
Looking up he caught Addison's figure moving away from the window in her house. He could tell she had been looking out her window and into his.
Sam had no doubt that Addison still thought about him, that she missed him as much as he missed her.
And it ain't no way in hell
That I can be just friends with you
Work had been awkward since Addison ended their relationship. Everyone in the practice could feel it. Naomi had come to Sam's office a couple of times to talk about it, and make sure everything was okay.
He put on a charade, and told her that he and Addison would be okay. In time they would be friends again, just not any time soon.
That was a lie.
And I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
Sam wished he had never approached Addison about his feelings. He wished they never slept wished that they never loved the relationship they had together; that they never believed enough in their feelings to take it to the next level.
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now it ain't no way we can be friends
Most of all Sam wished he never fell in love with Addison because now he would never look at her the same way. She was no longer a friend, but she was more than an acquaintance. And Addison was definitely more than just another ex-girlfriend.
The way it felt no fakin' it
For Sam, there was never any doubt that what he and Addison shared was real, nothing fake about it. From the beginning he made it clear to Addison he had feelings for her that were not going away. He pursued her even though she tried to ignore her own feelings for the sake of Naomi.
Maybe we were movin' just a little too fast
Sam shook his head. He told Addison that moving according to her biological clock was too fast. Maybe moving forward at all was just too fast. They kind of jumped into everything.
Addison may have pushed him away for so long. But when she did come around, she did not hold anything back.
But what we've done we can't take it back
He should have known that once they crossed that line, they would not be able to take it back. For Sam and Addison both, there was a lot at stake besides their own friendship. Now that everything was over between them, nothing would be like it was before.
And it ain't no way in hell
That I can be just friends with you
And I wish we never did it
Sam threw the bottle of Bourbon at the wall and watched it shatter. He got up out of his chair and violently pushed it back. He wanted to punch the wall but he restrained himself.
Ain't no tellin' what we could have been
He had asked Addison what if she had said yes in med school. Now he was wondering what if he had said yes to having a baby with her. He loved her; he wanted to make her happy.
Sam smiled. Addison would make a great mother even after all of the things she had been through. And he could have been apart of that.
And if I knew it ends like this
I never would have kissed you cause I fell in love with you
We never would have kicked it
Girl now every things different
I've lost my only lover and my friend
If Sam knew that their relationship would end, he never would have pushed her to make a decision. He would not have kissed her that night on her patio. He would have turned her away the evening she walked into his house stood in front of him and dropped her robe. Because as much as he wanted to be with her, he wanted to be her friend more.
But since he did kiss her, since he did pursue her, since he did not turn her away, he fell in love. And along the way, one of his closest friends became his lover and the two roles could not be separated.
That's why I wish we never did it
And I wish we never loved it
And I wish I never fell so deep in love with you and now it ain't no way we can be friends
Sam sat against the wall and stared out the window again at Addison's house. He rested his head in his hands. If he could go back and change the past, he would. Because what he missed most about his relationship with Addison was the fact that she was his friend.