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Description: A minor event which fills Susan with thoughts about past decisions. Mostly introspection for now.
Early That Hogswatch
A few days ago, while in the market, I met an old woman who insisted to tell me my fortune. I refused politely, and walked away, heading towards a book stand that I noticed. She shouted at me: ''You'll achieve what you thought you wanted!'' I didn't think about it then, all I thought was the book I would buy for Gawain and Twyla. If I only knew what was about to happen.
This Hogswatch
I can't stop thinking those words. There's a saying in Lancre Nanny Ogg once told me. It's about not giving people what they want, or think they want, but what they need. The fact is that what you want and what you need are two totally different things. Getting what you need might not be what you currently want, but it might turn out to be in the long term. Whilst getting what you want might turn out not to be helpfull at all. Instead, it might be catastrophicall for you and your surroundings. Getting what you need will make you a better person in the long run, and help you survive. Even if you hate it in the process. It's something secure. Tells you that the world is somehow right, though it's not. Reminds you that the world needs cold, calculating bastards, and sometimes you are the one to fill their shoes. And you know what they say, if something doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger.
False hope. Sometimes you need a hug, or a slap, and there is no one to give it to you.
What happens if you don't know what you want? If you're not capable to do what you want, to contain, to control it? What about me?
Author's note: So…good?...bad?...an undefined shade of grey? Shall I continue, or what…? Please review.