la Verdad Estraña de la Cuarta
( "The strange truth of the Fourth" )
A Female!Ulquiorra x Aizen fanfic
Uno
Discovery
"Please… I want you to condemn me,
Aizen-sama."
She sat there with an expressionless look on her face as she remembered what happened that day.
It was after encountering Ichigo.
It was after her fight with Grimmjow, that ended up in hurting her dear friend and making him hurt.
That she cried into his shoulder.
She could remember his arms around her, holding her close like a child getting hugged by their father. She could remember his sympathetic smile as deadly as a blade made her feel warm as she tried to hide any thoughts of doing whatever she wanted in his lap. Black hair indeed covered her flushes as she felt the brunette male whisper incoherent thoughts of her being strong and able to live through her current mistakes and heart break.
"No one will hurt you, my dearest arrancar, no one will hurt you. I won't let them," his words were like venom, readying to hear the truth of what is to come out of his favorite arrancar's mouth.
She shook her head trying to keep the truth from her eyes. She desperately hid her blush to the boundary lines of her white collared shirt. Her messy black hair covered over her face as she felt her helmet tightened unconsciously. She had beautiful long hair that was hiding up inside her helmet that she mustn't show to her leader.
When she felt that she might lose control in Aizen's arms, Ulquiorra dropped back as she looked at him. Only she could smile in front of him. It took her months for Grimmjow to understand that and to move on to the orange-haired prisoner that stared up at the moon. The orange-haired prisoner that did things out of love for her "Kurosaki-kun" and Ulquiorra learnt everything from love to rejection with just one look at her.
And even loyalty.
"Aizen…" she whispered, blushing madly. She looked at the mirror for a minute before her expressionless face took on that of a sobbing one. Black hair fell long down her back as she ripped off her helmet in fury, the blood splattering onto the green sheets of her bed.
Her leader's appearance filled her mind as she lay there, without any clothes on. Thoughts even "Male Ulquiorra" should never think of.
And she could not run to her fellow Espada Grimmjow to take the pain away from her. To take the pain, because Aizen made her smile--not Grimmjow, and Grimmjow was determined to get closer to her so he can take the pain from falling for Orihime. Grimmjow was not going to bail her out of depression this time. Grimmjow was not going to fuck her senseless so that the smell of spices from Grimmjow would keep her depressing thoughts away.
And she wished for him to comfort her this time.
But she did not see any sign of the sneaky, sly and hot-tempered man.
All she saw was only the transformation of the darkness, as her eyes closed—Aizen.
Her hands moved from her head to her breasts, imagining Aizen there fondling her. She could imagine him standing there with a grin as he agreed to give her a friendly fuck or two. She gasped as she reached to the more pleasurable spots on her body, her hand moving as if she imagined her hand as Aizen's hand. She whispered what Aizen would say to her as she cried; she knew it would be impossible.
Even if she were always by his side, their relationship ever involving would be impossible. Every touch that she imagined that would be Aizen's hand landed her in a reality, where she knew it was nearly impossible. It was certainly possible to get her rival, Grimmjow to fuck her, since he knew, but it was hard for Aizen.
What if he was in love with someone else? It had to be that. He was surrounded by other beautiful creatures, especially Halibel and before that, Nell.
Her touches began to quicken as she neared climax. She was still sobbing from the pain and pleasure she was causing herself. The hatred in her green eyes was aimed only for herself and her own little pity party.
Maybe he loved men like Gin better? Of course, who would not?
Maybe he loved women like Halibel and Nell? Of course, who would not?
The pain she was causing herself landed her in a painful climax as she bit her tongue from screaming "Aizen-sama". Her inner cry landed her into a deeper depression as she lay there looking at the shadows that crept against her white walls.
Ulquiorra had two truths that she hid from her master.
And if her master found out either of those, she did not think she would be welcomed into his eyes again.
"Aizen-sama…" she whispered.
Meanwhile, a brunette man was walking down the corridor thinking to himself about how wonderful it would be if a specific arrancar were a girl, not a boy. His brown eyes focused to those around him as he watched Halibel look at him with an expressionless glance.
There was nothing that was missed when her eyes wondered through to each and every character of the group. Not even her leader. Nothing escaped her quiet glance as she walked past each and every one of her fellow members of the Espada.
It reminded him of a certain black haired male Espada.
"Good afternoon, Aizen-sama," she said as she left him to stop there, his eyes widened in realization every time and everyone made him think of the black haired male. The look of sadness as Aizen caught whenever a minor plan backfired on him. The hands that went to cool him down when he was frustrated and left to his own devices, because Gin and Tousen disagreed. The cold embrace that Ulquiorra gave him whenever Ulquiorra had his fits of breaking down.
It was true; Ulquiorra did have his moments, but only around Aizen.
Halibel had informed him of that.
Sure, Ulquiorra broke down in front of the others before, which Grimmjow never let Ulquiorra live it down and Syzael seemed to enjoy testing if Ulquiorra's tears were real. However, Halibel noticed that Ulquiorra mostly let himself off guard, because Aizen was there, standing there in the conference room. It was always when Aizen was present, did Ulquiorra show a little bit of emotion.
And Ulquiorra had some kind of pleasant calm on his face as his green eyes stared back at Aizen.
Before Aizen could regret his decision to talk to Ulquiorra if Halibel's inference was true, Aizen stopped and turned to Halibel.
"He's nothing like Hinamori, but in some ways he is like her," Halibel said.
Aizen blinked.
It really scared him how Halibel seemed to know what everyone was going to say to start a conversation.
Fair colored eyes looked over at him.
"Go to him, if you feel stronger for him than you did Hinamori. He's been there for you, and I really feel he would understand what you would want to say to him," Halibel said. "After all, for all the times he was there for you, you could do the same for him." With that, the tall blonde walked away as Aizen looked up at her.
"I guess, I'm just being harsh again," Aizen said.
Halibel nodded.
Aizen turned to walk towards Ulquiorra's room.
Syzael blinked as he took a sniff out of the many tests he did on the tear drop of Ulquiorra. He blinked as he looked at it.
"This is odd?" he blinked again as he looked at the chart he did. His eyes widened. "What the? We have another girl in the Espada?"
He ran through the corridors concentrating on Aizen's reiatsu to locate him when he suddenly saw Aizen stare. "AIZEN-SAMA!"
((I'm sorry for ruining Syzael's character with this… Please do not kill me…))
Aizen looked at the girl in Ulquiorra's room. His brown eyes were widened as the girl whispered his name. Blankets did not cover over her.
She was bare and the same built as Ulquiorra. Her hair was long and the same shade as Ulquiorra. Her lips were moist with salty tears as if she was crying. She looked exactly like Ulquiorra.
Blood was coming from her head. Aizen saw the blood marks on the wall from all the times she threw something at it. Was it food?
No it was not. His brown eyes drifted over to the helmet that lay on the floor. He examined it and looked over at the girl.
Did Ulquiorra have a twin sister that he was keeping from the other Espada? Did he have some sort of incestuous crush on her? Well, it was impossible. Hollows did not have siblings. Their siblings were usually in the Soul Society long before they ever will be. The siblings that Ulquiorra had were those around him save for Gin, Tousen and himself.
That just left something that would not be possible.
Was Ulquiorra really a girl?
Aizen turned to see the number four on her left breast.
"Aizen-sama…" Syzael whispered as he looked at the black haired girl in bed. Aizen was holding her helmet. "That's Ulquiorra… he's really a girl…"
Aizen's eyes drifted to Ulquiorra. He never saw how much the girl was humiliated before. She was completely red, and the tears started building up again.
She did not say anything, she was afraid of rejection. He could see it in her eyes. She was pleading him to say something to her. Something that would calm her down and not hate herself so much.
Aizen looked over at Syzael. "Get me bandages, water, soap and a sponge. Ulquiorra needs medical treatment. And I will treat her," he said as he looked at Syzael.
Ulquiorra could not believe her ears.
To be continued…
Disclaimer: I do not own BLEACH. If I did, I would so make yaoi and crack pairings possible. And I would make Ichigo even more flawed…
Yes, please hate me. I made Ulquiorra a girl in this fanfic. So sue me. I dare you. Yes, I love this yaoi pairing. Yes, I love the canon Ulquiorra, but I just wanted to do an AU fanfic. Because I felt like it…
Beta? Be my guest.
Flame? Sure you can.
OOC? I tend to think I made Ulquiorra and Aizen a little to out of character. Aizen hides his true emotions with smiles, but at the same time Ulquiorra is pretty much his favorite arrancar. Sure Tousen and Gin know his true intentions, but at the same time, Ulquiorra has some sort of clue, so I guess Aizen has more respect towards him than the other arrancar. And plus, I'm just as messed up as Aizen is. Thus is why, I made Aizen rather considerate and compassionate towards Ulquiorra. If you want, and I welcome you if you did with open arms decipher in your own words what you imagine Aizen to be. Sure he is the bastard of the series as well as Tousen and Gin, but we all know, Aizen is rather loveable for his position in the series. Ulquiorra is not as emotional as he is in this fanfic. Blame me, because I made him a girl, but that is not the reason why he is so emotional. I had to make him so in order to get Aizen and him to be together.
Farewell? Til next time.