Hitomi's Decision

Hitomi's Decision

July 25, 2001- I posted this up a long time ago but on my other computer, when I typed it out and posted it up on the net, there were lots of weird marks…so I'm retyping it…okay? This is my first story so…I appreciate you guys reviewing…anyways…^^~

Hihi…I m maniac bubblicous…this is ma 1st fan fiction so please be gentle…please read and review…I need comments from other great authors…thanx!! ^^~

Disclaimers: I don't own Vision of Escaflowne! Its peeps that made them…lucky ppl

Anywise…on with the story!

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Chapter 1

Difficult Decision

            The leaves swayed, I noticed. The wind, so fierce has it the power to destroy everything into nothingness is blowing ever so gently, stroking my face. The dew in the grass and in the delicate webs of the long-legged spider added shining crystals to the morning sky. The sunshine of the entrancing sunrise filled the air with brightness and hope, hope for a better day in the Gaean war. I could not help but capture, or at least try to, this image that would soon be treasured in my mind. And that is when I noticed a certain another staring, not at the sunrise, but at me.

Van.

            He looked questionably at me with a slight curiosity in his eyes. I slightly blushed and remembered that I had invited him to enjoy the sunrise and think about the future. For him, the poisons of war, and for me, well, everything. My home on Earth, how to get home, my endangered life, and Allen's kiss and marriage proposal. Perhaps it was Van's failed attempt at telling me that he needed me that made me feel a sense of guilt, or maybe it was the saddened look he had on his face when he raced into the rain to search for me. Whatever the reason, I need to explain to Van that I do not love him as I would in a relationship, but as a friend and protector…or do I?

"Van, I…" I managed to stutter out.

"Hitomi…I'm very sorry that I spoke to you that way…it's just that…"

"Van, say no more," I replied, fidgeting and gazing down onto the soft and moist ground.

"But…" Van blurted.

"Van, I know what you're trying to say, and…" my voice faded away.

            We sat under the lush green tree for what I thought was an eternity and watched nature sprang to life. The sun rose gloriously and shone its elegance among all creation. The sunray warmed my cheeks, making them into a colour of lightish pink. I sat under this comforting sunlight with the shade of the tree slightly blanketing me and thought, though I have no idea what Van was pondering.

            Marry Allen may be a source of happiness, but god, I'm only fifteen! To abandon my future, my hopes, my dreams, my home…and everything on Earth would indeed be a great sacrifice. He is wishing for me to stay with him and just forget about my past? I hate him for that. Yet, he is gentleman-like and courageous and well, practically what every girl wants…right? But…am I 'practically every girl'? Or just me, I, and myself? Van is sweet and courageous also. Well, maybe not exactly gentleman-like, but what do I know? Oh great, how did Van, of all people, wander into my thoughts again? …Chid is the result of Allen and Marlene and I cannot ever forgive him for that. A player…not exactly who I'd admire…I mean I would not exactly wanted to be treasured like a pearl for a moment and dumped like unwanted junk later on. Maybe he just saw his little sister in me and misunderstood it for love or something…but…

            Thinking made me drowsy and what with the beautiful morning sunshine and melodies of the birds, it felt like I swallowed a bottle of sleeping pills. I forced my eyelids to open, but they drooped. I softly leaned on Van's shoulder and felt him tense up, then slowly relax. The sweet smells of the field…wonder where it's coming from. Oh, this is just so peaceful…I wish everyday was like this; no Gaean war to fight, no blood, and no decisions. I think I heard Van gently saying my name, urging me to wake up, but at the same time, a distant never-wanting-this-moment-to-end voice. I was probably half-asleep and I remembered I heard myself say," Mom, give me five more minutes…"

Then, a sudden sharp voice piped up, "Hitomi!"

I raised my head and looked in the direction the voice came from.

It was not Van, but Allen.

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maniac bubblicous: ooooooooooooooooo…what will happen? Well…I ain't telling…you will have to find out for yourselves…thanx for reading my story…I'll update it soon, but since I'm a beginner, I'll have to work it out alone…till then…cya!

Maniac bubblicous ^@^ and ^^~

June 15, 2001