Hey loves, at the request of one of my friends Romancesand2ndchances I decided to start writing again. She assisted me with the current title of this story while brainstorming together. I also have no idea how long this story is going to be, but I do have a plan of course.
Now knowing how I feel about the characters in general, my style, this will be very angsty. If you question who I ship..well it's in my bio, but this is not going to be an easy road ahead for Auslly. Also, possibly not the ending everyone might predict. There's going to be a lot of drama and other people involved in this story. So it's all about the journey and finding themselves and ultimately if they can find their ways back to one another. As for the point of views: Ally, Austin, Dez throughout the story. This is Ally's story! :)
I hope that you guys enjoy this, without further ado Chapter 1 of Careless Heart.
WARNING: Characters may be Out of Character so don't be surprised when it happens.
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or the Disney Channel.
Careless Heart
Ally's POV - Flashback
This isn't how everything was supposed to happen. I just stormed out of the practice room, ran to my red convertible to head home. Well, at least that's where I thought I was going, but I stopped somewhere else first.
Earlier that Day
I received a call from Jimmy Starr and he asked me to come down to his office and requested for Austin and I to meet him there. I didn't really think anything of it since Austin and I on occasion have to meet with Jimmy to discuss recordings and give him the newer songs to be put on Austin's albums. I got ready and text Austin to meet me at Starr Records because Jimmy wanted to speak with both of us. The drive over was just the usual sunny and beautiful day in Miami. I was cruising with the top down on the convertible listening to Pink's latest song. After about ten minutes I reached Starr Records. I walk up to the receptionist, she pages Jimmy to let him know that I'm here.
"Hello Ally." Jimmy greets me and I turn to see Austin looking down and running in right after me into Jimmy's office.
"Both of you. Have a seat." Austin and I sit down in the two chairs in front of Jimmy's desk spaced fairly evenly apart.
"Now Ally. I'm sure you are wondering why you are here." I fidget in my blue cotton clue dress and try to get comfortable and not look nervous, but that was an epic fail.
I nod my head slowly, glance over at Austin who won't even look at me. "Austin has something to tell you Ally." He won't look at me, I actually look really cute in this dress. Go figure.
"Austin? Austin look at me. Just say whatever it is you have to say." I reach out to touch his hand, when he turns he looks at me with a look I've never seen before. His eyes are just cold, there's not an ounce of warmth in them. Absolutely zero.
Oh my God. This can't be good.
"Ally, I don't want you to be my songwriter anymore." I froze. Did he really just say what I think he said? I don't say anything for a few minutes because I'm trying to wrap my head around all of this.
"I've already found another songwriter and Jimmy and I have already hired her."
"Her?" I swear it's like that was the only word that my brain wanted to hear at the moment. Call it selective listening, that's where my heart broke. Austin's replacing me with another female songwriter, who I'm sure he'll want to get into a relationship with. Oh god, I can't believe any of this.
"Ally it's nothing personal." Jimmy says, "It's just business. You and Austin aren't writing songs the way that you used to, and he's just not happy with your 'partnership' anymore."
I hold back the tears that want to fall from my eyes and look at both Jimmy and Austin in complete disbelief. "Austin? Is this all true." He nods his head and I've decided that I've heard enough.
Nodding his head, he can't just fucking tell me a Yes confidently. Wtf! I deserve better than this. Ugh, there I go unintentionally using one of his song titles.
Jimmy speaks up, "Ally, I'm sorry but consider this your termination. Good luck to you in your future endeavors."
Wow, well that was so impersonal and cold there are just no words.
Don't blow up at Jimmy Ally, this is all on Austin. You're right.
"Thank you Jimmy for at least having enough respect to call me in and not tell me this over the phone. I appreciate it, it was nice doing business with you. Thank you. Good luck to you and Austin as well."
I didn't mean it, but I am always poised and these two men don't deserve to see my pain. I'll just use it for writing my own songs. I'll use the anger and pain I'm feeling now to write meaningful and awesome songs.
You're doing great Ally, just keep your cool for now. I know it's hard, but that's what you have me for. I have your back.
Well, at least someone does. I think to myself.
I'm faltering and starting to lose and try to keep my composure and realize that I need to get out of here. I get up from my chair, and Austin grabs my arm.
I glare at him and say, "DON'T YOU TOUCH ME. I'm going to do you a favor by not causing a scene here and embarrassing you. If I were you I'd heed my warning and let me the fuck go." It was only loud enough for him to hear as I said it into his ear.
I turn towards Jimmy, shake his hand. I give him one last convincing smile and then I rip my arm out of Austin's grasp and walk out the door. What was I feeling you might ask?
Betrayed.
I finally get to my car, hear Austin screaming and running like he's in a marathon.
"ALLY!"
I get into my car and slam the door shut. Austin starts banging on the window, as I start to put my top back down in my car. Once the top is down he jumps over the door and into the passenger seat.
"I have nothing to say to you Austin." I reach over to my passenger door and physically open the door for him motioning for him to get out.
"Ally. I need to talk to you. Baby please." He's pleading with me, God he's pathetic. Nothing he could say is going to get me to listen now, because as of right now I don't give a flying fuck and really don't care what he has to say.
"What did you just call me?"
"Baby, Please just listen to me." Again pleading, seriously this is fucking pathetic even for Austin. Washed up Austin Moon. We'll see how well he does with a new songwriter. She won't know him the way that I do, like right now Austin calling me 'Baby' because he knows that he's in the doghouse.
" You've said more than enough to me today Austin. OH, AND I'M NOT YOUR BABY SINCE YOU'RE NOT MAN ENOUGH TO JUST FUCKING ADMIT THAT YOU WANT TO BE WITH ME. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY CAR NOW."
"Yes, you are. You-"
I cut him off.
"Too little too late."
He sighs and gets out of my car, but before he does he reaches for my hand again. Is he out of his fucking mind?
Once he shuts my door and I see him walking over to his own car and I speed off creating skids in the parking lot. When he's out of my line of sight I let all of my feelings out.
Anger. Sadness. Betrayal. Love.
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT AUSTIN! I WISH THAT I DIDN'T LOVE YOU!
I scream out in frustration into the wind while on the highway. I don't even have a destination. Where should I go? I just want to be alone. Well, okay not completely alone. I need to vent to someone about how stupid I was for believing that Austin was genuine.
I pick up my cell phone to call Dez, yes Dez. I can't call Trish right now, for all I know she's betrayed me too and possibly already knew about this. I dial his number, the phone starts to ring, he picks up on the second ring,
"Hey Ally. What's up?" Dez says cheerily.
I just start crying into the phone and his tone immediately changes. "Ally?Ally? What's wrong? Please tell me. Can you hold on a second Austin's calling?"
"No Dez! Fuck Austin. I need you right now." I scream through the tears streaming down my face and feeling my voice heighten and then slowly start to disappear in an instant.
"Wow, what happened? You sound really upset so this must be serious."
"It is. Dez I need you to come find me. Don't tell Austin or Trish anything. Just I need you. Please come find me."
I know what you're thinking. Dez? Really? Yes, he's my friend too. Things were awkward with us in the earlier years of our friendship, but we've had the opportunity to spend time together alone and I actually enjoy it.
"Ally. Ally where are you? You're scaring me." Shit, I didn't mean to scare him.
"Right now I'm on the highway Dez. I have no idea where I'm going or what my destination is."
"Uh, then how am I supposed to find you?" He deadpans.
"You know me well enough to know where I would go." I say to him with some edge to my voice, but I mean can you blame me? I never thought in a million years my best friend, who yes I have a complicated relationship/friendship with just tossed me into the middle of the ocean without a life jacket.
"Oh alright. Well just be careful driving. I don't want you driving reckless or being careless." I can tell that he's being genuine in what he says, at least I know someone can be real with me.
:I'm not the one who is careless." I mutter under my breath.
"What did you say, your phone is cutting out Ally?" Crap, I need to cover what I just said, well at least for now.
"It's nothing Dez. I'm pulling into the parking lot. I'll see you soon?"
"I'm on my way Ally. I think I know where you're headed and don't worry I won't say anything to Austin or Trish. It'll just be between us."
Dez's POV
I look down at my phone again and see that I have multiple text messages from Austin.
From Austin:
Have you heard from Ally or Trish? I FUCKED UP MAN REALLY REALLY BAD!
From Austin:
I NEED YOUR HELP!
From Austin:
DEZ PLEASE ANSWER ME!
I read all of Austin's texts and should I have responded, yes but you know what...Ally sounded really upset and she's my friend too. We've grown a lot closer over the past few years. She's drop dead gorgeous, I swear she gets even prettier as each day passes. Stop it Dez! Focus! I say to myself. Now where was I? Oh right. Yes, Austin's my best friend and he probably always will be, but right now Ally needs me. She actually said that she needs me, I never thought that I'd see the day where I'm the one she preferred out of all three of us. She said that she couldn't call Trish, so I wonder what's up. Well, I didn't actually ask her that, but she told me to not tell Austin or Trish anything, so I just assumed that she felt that she couldn't. I walk to my car, get in and drive to the place where I think Ally might be. Actually, it could be a few places, but I doubt that she's in the practice room at Sonic Boom right now if she's trying to avoid Austin. So that also means Mini's is out of the question as well. She hasn't been to Champy's in a while, but if she wants to be alone then she'll go somewhere where it's likely to be hidden and out of the way. Oh, I know.
A/N: Reviews are appreciated! Let me know what you guys think, yes I left you with a cliffhanger. This is how I roll ;-) xoxo