Author's Note: I haven't ever written song fic before but I love this song
and it seems to fit perfectly. Any Buffy fans will recognize it from the
Prom episode. The version I followed is Chantal Kreviazuk's Wild Horses.
It's available on Kazaa. I highly recommend it. Please R&R
He really couldn't believe he had done that. Thrown away the best thing that had every happened to him. Steven had done the worst possible thing to Jackie and the odds of her forgiving him were impossible. The pain coursed through his body like an electric bolt. Especially after everything he had watched Kelso do to her. He could have done anything else and she would have forgiven him. But not this. He could understand why she acted the way. She had been hurt so much before.
Childhood living is easy to do The things you wanted I bought them for you Graceless lady you know who I am You know I can't let you slide through my hands
If he only hadn't jumped to the conclusion he had. Steven would love Jackie for the rest of his life. She was the first person who hadn't left him and he would never leave her. For Steven, anything him and Jackie had done before was to prepare them for each other.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Jackie missed him so much. Now she really had no where to go. Steven had always been her protection from the storm. The one who Jackie could go to ever time she got hurt. When Kelso broke her heart or her Dad went to jail. How could he do this to her? Jackie would never have left him. Ever. She understood his greatest fear was being left but she wouldn't have. The tears started again.
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain And now you've decided to show me the same
I love you, he thought in his head. I would never be like your parents or Kelso and leave you. Steven knew the pain he felt was deserved. It was the same pain Jackie had felt each time Kelso had cheated on her. Been with someone else because there was something she, Jackie, couldn't give. For Steven Jackie had given all he had ever needed.
No sweeping exits or off stage lines Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind
Jackie wanted to hate Steven. Hyde, she thought to herself. He has to be Hyde now. I can't think of him as Steven because Steven wouldn't have done this to me. I would never feel this way about Steven because he would never do this. Hyde. Hyde would do this. Steven she would always love but Hyde she couldn't forgive.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
She had been his. Like a dream he didn't know he wanted. Steven had been unknowingly comparing Jackie to every woman he meet after their kiss on Veteran's Day. And they had all been failed in comparison.
I know I've dreamed you, it's a sin, it's a lie And I have my freedom but I don't have much time Faith has been broken tears must be cried So let's do some living after we die
Jackie stared at the ceiling. With Steven she had finally felt alive. He had loved her even if he never said so. She knew. He knew she knew.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Steven felt the tear roll down his check. She was never going to forgive him and he deserved it. Even if she hated him, he would never stop loving her. Nothing could make that happen. Jackie, I love you he said in his head again.
Wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild, wild horses we'll ride them someday
Please be Steven again, Jackie asked the ceiling. Please forgive me, Steven asked the ceiling. There were no answers for either.
He really couldn't believe he had done that. Thrown away the best thing that had every happened to him. Steven had done the worst possible thing to Jackie and the odds of her forgiving him were impossible. The pain coursed through his body like an electric bolt. Especially after everything he had watched Kelso do to her. He could have done anything else and she would have forgiven him. But not this. He could understand why she acted the way. She had been hurt so much before.
Childhood living is easy to do The things you wanted I bought them for you Graceless lady you know who I am You know I can't let you slide through my hands
If he only hadn't jumped to the conclusion he had. Steven would love Jackie for the rest of his life. She was the first person who hadn't left him and he would never leave her. For Steven, anything him and Jackie had done before was to prepare them for each other.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Jackie missed him so much. Now she really had no where to go. Steven had always been her protection from the storm. The one who Jackie could go to ever time she got hurt. When Kelso broke her heart or her Dad went to jail. How could he do this to her? Jackie would never have left him. Ever. She understood his greatest fear was being left but she wouldn't have. The tears started again.
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain And now you've decided to show me the same
I love you, he thought in his head. I would never be like your parents or Kelso and leave you. Steven knew the pain he felt was deserved. It was the same pain Jackie had felt each time Kelso had cheated on her. Been with someone else because there was something she, Jackie, couldn't give. For Steven Jackie had given all he had ever needed.
No sweeping exits or off stage lines Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind
Jackie wanted to hate Steven. Hyde, she thought to herself. He has to be Hyde now. I can't think of him as Steven because Steven wouldn't have done this to me. I would never feel this way about Steven because he would never do this. Hyde. Hyde would do this. Steven she would always love but Hyde she couldn't forgive.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
She had been his. Like a dream he didn't know he wanted. Steven had been unknowingly comparing Jackie to every woman he meet after their kiss on Veteran's Day. And they had all been failed in comparison.
I know I've dreamed you, it's a sin, it's a lie And I have my freedom but I don't have much time Faith has been broken tears must be cried So let's do some living after we die
Jackie stared at the ceiling. With Steven she had finally felt alive. He had loved her even if he never said so. She knew. He knew she knew.
Wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild horses couldn't drag me away
Steven felt the tear roll down his check. She was never going to forgive him and he deserved it. Even if she hated him, he would never stop loving her. Nothing could make that happen. Jackie, I love you he said in his head again.
Wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away Wild, wild horses we'll ride them someday
Please be Steven again, Jackie asked the ceiling. Please forgive me, Steven asked the ceiling. There were no answers for either.