1Hey guys, im really sorry for not updating Brother Dearest, but I have writers block with that one, sorry, but I will be trying as hard as I can. Anyway, hope that you like this new story, which, will hopefully clear my mind enough to continue Brother Dearest. Toodles.
Forever?
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'Why, why doesn't he want me to bear his pups, a year doesn't matter? Maybe im not good enough, or maybe he really doesn't love me,' thought a distraught Toboe. He wanted pups so bad, but Tsume flat-out refused him, that was yesterday. He looked over his shoulder to his right, sadly looking over at the happy couple, where Hige was licking his mate, Blue's pregnant stomach. He softly nuzzled his mates muzzle, trying to wake him up, wanting him to reassure him, but when it didn't work right away, he began to lick his mates muzzle submissively until Tsume was awake. He immediately buried his head into his mates shoulder and started to sniffle. " What's wrong Toboe, did someone hurt you, are you alright?" I whimpered in response and looked over at the couple again, eyes filling with tears.
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'Damn it, I wish he would stop with this, I get it, really I do, he wants to bear a litter of pups, but he's a year too young, and his body wont be ready for it until then, why can't he just understand that,' Tsume was telling himself. "P-please T-tsume,"my pup whimpered to me, crying now, begging me for what he knew I wouldn't, couldn't give him. ' Why, why won't he just get it, my god, this is making me so mad, he's crying, which he knows that I hate, and he's being over-dramatic, which I hate,' I flattened my ears to my head, not wanting to hear him cry any louder than need be. I grit my teeth, 'he's gunna make himself sick,' "STOP IT," I roared. My pup's eyes were wide, and he crawled out of my embrace. I couldn't stop myself, I was so mad, so annoyed, " MY GOD, THIS IS WHY NOBODY WILL HAVE PUPS WITH YOU, YOUR SO GOD DAMNED STUPID, " As soon as the words left my lips I regretted them.
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Toboe's eyes widened, and he felt numb, ' See, even Tsume said it, nobody loves me, so why would anyone want to have pups with me,' he flicked his ears back and ignored Tsume's pleas of, " I love you, I didn't mean it,"and, " your not stupid, your smart." He got up and transformed into his human illusion first walking, and then running toward a stream about an eighth of a mile away, hopping on a bending tree, and bringing his knees up to his chest. He hurt so bad, the one he loved with all his heart thought he was stupid. 'It hurts...so bad...the pain...make it...stop...,'and with those final thoughts, he started to think of a plan, a plan to make this pain go away.
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I feel so bad for what I said to Toboe, he didn't deserve it, all he wanted was to have a litter like Blue and Hige are having. ' I want to run there to hug and kiss him and tell him that he's smart and beautiful and that I love him, but that wouldn't be the right thing to do right now, he needs time to simmer, he'll be ok, right?' I was trying to reassure myself that everything would be ok, and that Toboe wouldn't do anything too bad, that he knew that I loved him with all my heart and would do anything for him. 'Except for give him the one thing he's ever asked of you,'my mind betrayed me, but even so, I knew it wasn't fair to him.
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Toboe thought over his plan one more time, and after making one minor adjustment, looked out toward where the man he loved would be and whispered, "I love you Tsume," and with that, he jumped.
Ooh, cliffy, im so bad aren't I? Well, anyway, review please, I WILL CONTINUE. Love you guys.