This story began when I saw a drawing of Makoto sitting behind Ami on a hill while a wind blew around them. The differing expressions on their faces made me explore what they were thinking at that Moment In Time.
Disclaimers:
The characters in this story are not mine. ("Duh!") They are
copyright Takeuchi Naoko, Toei Animation and Kodansha Publishing.
I wrote this story because I had to. Please don't sue. You wouldn't
get anything anyway.
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Safety.
Security.
Serenity.
Heh. Okay, maybe not Serenity. She has hers...and I have mine.
Makoto hugged her life a little closer. The sweet heat of their bodies joining
in protection against the sudden, cold breeze. As her lover's scent surrounded
her, her thoughts drifted.
Oh, God... My life was so empty before I met her. My soul was empty. No
family. No friends.
No love.
Ami-chan, what would I have done without you? I was so close to the edge.
The abyss had been staring back at me for far too long. It would have been
a release to embrace it...
Then I met you. And with a blush and shy smile, you gave me something else to
embrace.
Makoto smiled as she remembered how the shy smile had turned much bolder over
time.
If I have to live forever, God, let me live it as I am now.
Whole.
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How do I tell her? Oh, God, how?
Almost as though hearing her thoughts and denying them, Makoto clutched tighter
against her back. A sudden, cool wind blew past them, bringing with it the salty
smell of the ocean. She inhaled the clean, fresh air in an attempt to clear her
thoughts.
Those empty eyes. The first time I saw them I could think of nothing but
filling them with life again.
My life.
No well-thought-out plan. No logic. Just instinct. A healer seeing someone
in pain and rushing to their aid. Why did I not see what the end result
would be?
Since then, she's become so beautiful. So alive. The soul-sick warrior made
whole again.
Fighting in vain against what she knew in her heart, Ami leaned back into her
lovers embrace.
How do I tell her what I've known all along?
I don't love her.