After years of reading I finally had the courage to post my own story. I hope you will enjoy this!

EPOV
I thought I had it all, a good life, loving parents, money and a wonderful wife. That's what I thought a year ago, but now everything has changed. I met a woman who takes my breath away and now I'm thinking my whole life over.

I'm 30 years old now and I think I made some mistakes. I know it's not the right thing to think, but somehow I think my wife is not my true love. We met each other when we were 21 years old. We went to the same college and had some classes together. She studied journalism and I studies business. We also had mutual friends and ended up together at a party. Our friends ditched us quickly and we were stranded. After getting to know each other better I had felt such a connection. I fell quickly and hard and we spend all of our free time together. After a few dates I asked her to be my girlfriend and I felt like the luckiest man in the world. I thought she was the one and I asked her to marry me at our first year anniversary. We married when we were 23 and now I realize we moved to fast. We didn't even know each other's plans for the future; we were just enjoying life and each other.

Tanya and I were both successful in what we did. She travelled all over the world for her job and I was a busy man as well. I travel on a monthly basis to make deals and to visit my businesses. We barely have time for each other and maybe that's why our marriage works well for the both of us. I didn't think I would end up like this; I had it all in my head. A marriage isn't supposed to be like mine is now. Everyone around me is so happy with their life and partner and I just don't feel the same way. I've been thinking this over for a while now, but I haven't shared it with anyone. It just feels a little too personal and it makes me feel like a failure, something I'm too proud to admit to.

Of course there are times when Tanya and I are both at home and I'm dreading those moments. I imagine when spouses don't see each other that often, they make the most of their time together. We don't. We fight, yell and argue about almost everything. There is one topic we've been fighting over for years: children. I have always loved children and I pictured myself as a father. We hadn't discussed this topic before; we didn't talk about how we both saw our future together. We were living in the moment. Maybe now I'm glad that we don't have children, but maybe it is also something that would've made our marriage better.

I tried to discuss it with Tanya many times, but every time she would freak out. She admitted she doesn't like children at all and does everything to avoid them. She isn't ready to give up her career and most importantly her figure. I was speechless when I heard her say this. She has changed so much since her marriage. In the beginning there were days we didn't dress for days and just stayed at home. Now her career is everything to her and she doesn't care much about the rest. I'm starting to doubt if she even cares about me anymore. Somehow that thought doesn't make me sad at all. Maybe things are way worse than I thought they were.

My company is really successful and I've been working long hours. My mother always told me it was going to catch up with me. Working so hard and long wasn't healthy, but I always thought it didn't matter that much. Is it my fault that my marriage is failing?

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. I realized I've been looking at the same page for half an hour. My personal problems are affecting my work now too.

"Edward, I've been selecting candidates for the assistant position. Do you want to go over them?" my assistant asked. We've been swamped with work recently and now my assistant needs an assistant. I'm happy we've come this far, but interviewing people is one of my worst nightmares. People act and I can almost guess most of the answers. People are so predictable in that way.

"I believe you can make the right choice which candidate to invite. I've been thinking about it and I think you can handle these interviews. I mean, it will be your assistant and I think you're capable to make that decision on your own," I told her. Lucy has been my assistant for years now and she helped build this company to where it is now. I haven't made it easy for her, but she has proven herself to be an excellent assistant. She was my rock here and she has made my life here so much easier. When she told me she couldn't handle the work alone anymore, I was surprised it took so long for her to admit that. It was also time to give her more responsibilities and I have faith in her that she would pick the right person to help her.

"Of course," she answered with a smile on her face and left my office.

Returning to my paperwork in front of me, I quickly scanned the forms. I tried to focus on the papers, but my mind was making me go crazy. Maybe some time away from Seattle would help me? I looked at my schedule and decided a visit to the Chicago office would work. I just needed to reschedule my meetings next week and it would be perfect. Then the new assistant could start without me bossing her around. I was already feeling better with the Chicago trip in my mind …

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~Kirsty