I watch you glide along the halls and feel my stomach tightening.
I want to speak, to say your name but find the thought too frightening.
Will you respond and come to me or will you walk away?
Without so much as half a glance or single word to say.
Your silence though would be preferred to what I dread I'd hear.
To have you sneer and hiss at me,
say you don't want me near.
I'd rather watch you from afar and dream of different times.
The ecstasy I'd always feel just knowing you were mine.
To hear your voice-once-say my name and know that I exist.
To stand one moment at your side,
these thoughts I can't resist.
To know the things that drive you on,
the passions you keep hidden.
Behind those dark, untrusting eyes are thoughts that seem forbidden.
To walk with you, to touch your hand,
your whisper in my ear.
Your scent, your heat, mingled with mine,
these things I want...and fear.
There's nothing that I wouldn't give to have you in my life.
To kiss your lips and stroke your hair and help to ease your strife.
Were you to sit and talk to me my pounding heart would melt.
Too scared to let you know the truth of how I really felt.
So here I lie in bed each night my thoughts drifting below.
To cold, dark dungeons underground where my beloved goes.
I hope someday you seek to find a love to set you free.
For this, forever, I will wait and pray you come to me.
Dear Severus, if you only knew the love for you I feel.
You might allow me to show you that faith and trust are real.
And once you realize that you too can love, complete and whole.
We'll be one for all eternity in body, mind and soul.