It was a sunny day in Rochdale as I drove the familiar road to my usual place of work, but it wasn't the same not without Eddie there. I know he had to go with Mel, she gave him the one thing he always wanted, but I was jealous, I wish I gave him it, but he didn't know, I hadn't told Eddie that I couldn't have kids, once we got together it didn't seem like the right time, not to mention, he wouldn't want me.
I parked in the same space I always did, walked to my office, passing other staff, can't recall who, but passed my morning pleasantries to them all, before arriving in my safe refuge, my office.
After the morning bell had rung, the corridors were quiet and I could throw myself into my work, making sure that I didn't think about the one person I wanted to be with, the one person who I truly loved, who wasn't related, he was the only lover I could see myself ever being with, and he was at home with my sister.
I could hear footsteps running towards my door, I just hoped there wasn't some emergency that I had to deal with, the mountain of paperwork on my desk was not getting any smaller, in fact every day it seemed that no matter how much she done, more was added.
"Aunt Rachel" she heard as the door burst open and her nephew came bounding through, looking bewildered.
"What's wrong love" I was worried, I stood and led him over the Sofa to sit and calm down for a moment.
"It's Mum, she's in labour, Eddie just phoned, can I go see her?"
"Labour can take a long time Phil, she might be there for a long time, but if you want to go, then I'll call you a taxi"
I knew what he was getting at, he wanted me to go to, but I couldn't I didn't want to see either of them, not yet anyway I wasn't ready to feel more pain in my heart, or more hatred to my sister. I hated feeling like that, and really she had done nothing to me, it was Phil and Eddie she had hurt, and they were both big enough to forgive her, I just found it hard.
"Rach, can you take me, please, I miss you, and it's not the baby or Eddie's fault, its just a big mess, and I want us to go back to the way we where" Philip said, I could tell he meant it, and it hurt me that I was part of this farce that was hurting him, it was time I grew up, and done the right thing. I had to stop being so selfish.
"Come on then, lets go" I said giving a quick glance to the mountain of paper on my desk and resolving to do it later.