So...I'm starting a new story...-clears throat-
I haven't given up on TMFOBTH but I'm stuck on it so I figured I'd give you guys this for being AMAZING! Sorry for being lame.
BTW I don't own anything but the plot line. Teehee. Enjoy~
I can't say when It started really, this slow creeping feeling in my stomach, but with it came all the old doubt and worry. I rolled over in my bed and gazed out to the bright morning sky and let out a deep sigh.
"Are you up love?" came a soft voice from the door way. I rolled my head over to find my girlfriend Namine standing in the door way. She was wearing her sleep shirt and nothing else. Her long white blond hair hanging loose around her shoulders.
"Yeah," I said with a soft smile. She returned my smile and set on the edge of my bed. We'd been dating for 3 months now. She was a nice girl, sweet, pretty, smart, artistic...but...I shook my head. "What time is it?" I asked as I got up out of the bed and stretched.
"Its 9:30." She said. "You have an hour before you have to be at work." I yawned and headed for my closet.
"Alright, well I gotta shower. Do you have work today?" I asked her as I shuffled through my closet for a clean suit to wear for the day.
"No" came the reply. "I'm going to spend the day with my mom and dad though." she said from her place on the bed. I glanced back over my shoulder and gave her a skeptical look.
"Well that'll be fun" I mumbled.
"Eventually you'll have to get along with them you know." she said. I huffed as I pulled out a black pair of slacks and a white button down shirt.
"And I will, eventually." I said as I headed for the bathroom door. I hung my clothes on the back of the door and examined myself in the mirror. My blond hair was a mess of spikes all over my head, and I had bags under my cloudy blue eyes. Why can't I have normal worries? I turned to the shower and started the water. Namine appeared in the door way.
"Well give me a kiss, I'm gonna head home and let you get ready fro work." she said. I took the few steps to the door and gave her a kiss. "I'll see you later?" she asked, doubt now in her eyes as well as mine. I nodded and kissed her forehead.
"Love you." I whispered.
"Love you too." she whispered back before she left, closing the door behind her. I leaned against the counter and rubbed my forehead. I hated seeing that doubt in her eyes but I couldn't help how I felt sometimes. I went to the shower and checked the water.
I guess I could probably fill you in, huh? My name is Roxas Strife, I am 25 years old, I currently live in London and I am currently in a relationship with a women that I was not in love with.
I quickly undressed from my pajama pants and climbed into the scorching water. I let it pound on my tense back muscles, my eyes closed.
Once upon a time, about 5 years ago now, I had been in love. Head over heals in love, 'nothing can come between it' love. I had been in love with my best friend. Things were great, all through high school we were completely infatuated with each other, after of course, we finally faced up to the fact that we both liked each other. His name was Axel and had been my everything. As it would turn out I wasn't his.
I sighed and quickly washed my hair and body and got out of the shower. I quickly dressed and threw my hair into its customary spikes, dabbed some cologne on before heading out to the living room area of my apartment. I grabbed a banana and a cup of coffee before sitting down on the couch to check my brief case to make sure I had everything I would need.
I was fresh out of college and was now a graphic designer with a small branch of a computer gaming company here in London. I was flipping through some of the character designs I had finished last night when my cell phone rang, breaking the silence of the apartment. I sighed and dug it out of my bag, a number I didn't know flashed across the screen. I tensed as I recognized the out of area code. I hit accept.
"H...hello?" I said into the phone, my voice a little on the high side.
"Roxas?" Came the distant voice of my mother. I bit the inside of my cheek.
"How did you get this number?" I asked between clenched teeth.
"Roxas..." her voice cracked a little. I closed my eyes as I felt my heart hit my stomach.
"Whats the matter? Why have you called?" I asked in a soft voice.
"Roxas...I need you to come home." she said, her voice getting a little stronger. I sighed and closed my eyes rubbing my forehead.
"Mom..," I started to say but was cut off.
"Your father is dead." she said, her voice wavering at the end. I felt the blood rush out of my face and the world shifted.
"What?" I asked my voice cracking as well. I heard a shuffling noise, "Mom?" I asked.
"Roxas." Cam a deep male voice.
"Cloud?" I asked. "Dad...?" I left the question hanging in the air. Silence filled the empty space around me. I heard my brother take a deep breath.
"He passed yesterday. He's been sick for months now, but we couldn't figured out how to get a hold of you." I closed my eyes and set back into the couch.
"I'll be on the next plane home." I whispered.
"And Roxas?" he said.
"Yeah?" I asked in a whisper.
"Axel is the one who found you for us. Expect to hear from him at some point." and then the line went dead. My phone fell to the floor and I just stared at it. How the hell could my day go from bad to worse in the instant of a split second?
Guess now would be a good time to fill you in on what happened between Axel and I. I was raised in America, and though our culture is thought to be one of individualism, it isn't. Axel and I had a ruff time being together for a while but we had close friends and family that were supportive of us. The problem lay with Axel's family.
They were one of the head families of the Mafia. When his father became ill, Axle was told he would be taking on the head of house hold. His older brother Reno had run off years ago and Axle was the only one who could take his fathers place... This was the beginning of the worst time of my life.
I got up off the couch and picked up my phone and went to my computer and started looking for flight times. Then started making the appropriate phone calls. I called work and explained what was happening, they agreed to give me the time off and promised my job would be waiting me when I returned. While on the phone with them I found a flight to America that left at 6 this evening. Next I called Namine, she answered on the first ring.
"Hey love. I was just about to call my mom." she said. I closed my eyes and leaned against the wall.
"Namine I have to go home for a while." I said as I gazed at the ceiling. I was met with silence, just the sound of her breathing.
"Does this have to do with...?" she trailed off. I shook my head and realized she couldn't see it.
"No, my...my Dad died." I said, my hand covering my face as I tried to hold back tears.
"Oh god! Oh Roxas I am so sorry." she said, her voice full of worry.
"I've already got the time off work, my plane leaves tonight." I said.
"Alright love. Promise to call me. If you need me you know I'm here to listen." I felt a few tears break through at that.
"Thanks Nam. You really are the best." I whispered.
"I know." she said, and I could just see the soft smile that would grace her features. "Have a safe trip love."
"I will." I said.
"I love you."
"I love you too" I said before hanging the phone up. I slid to the floor, my phone clutched tightly in my hand. She really was too damn good for me. She knew everything that had happened to me and she knew I was still hopelessly in love with someone else, a man no less! And she still was trying so hard... I got up and placed the phone on the small breakfast bar in the kitchen before going back into my room. I pulled out my old luggage and started packing.
I can't believe I was going back after five long years. I was only 20 years old when I left. I still remember the day that changed the course of my whole life like it was just last week.
It had been raining off and on the whole day, Axel and I were cuddled up in his bed, watching the rain fall outside his window. I sighed contently at the feeling of his long fingers running threw my blond hair. I snuggled closer and he chuckled, the sound echoing in his chest.
"You really are just too damn cute Rox." he said. I gave him my best frown.
"How can I be too cute?" I asked. "Too cute for what?" He laughed and started tickling me mercilessly until I cried mercy. We settled back down into the bed and I had just started drifting off to sleep.
"Roxas, we need to talk." Axel said as he set, bringing me with him. I pulled away from him to see his face but found no comfort in the stony expression that had taken over.
"Okay, whats up?" I asked, my stomach was twisting in knots.
"Roxas I'm engaged." he said. The words hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt my breath woosh out of me and my heart beat pick up.
"What?" I asked, tears already stinging my eyes. He looked over to me and his eyes were closed to me, like they had never been before.
"Before my father passed away he arranged a marriage between me and the daughter of a rival family. Her name is Larxene." he said, and with each word I felt a blow to my heart.
"But Axel..." I said. He shook his head.
"It doesn't mean that we can't still be together." He said. "I do love you Roxas, and I will still be with you..." I cut him off.
"So I'll just be your dirty little secret?" I asked, anger rising up in my chest. I got out of the bed and quickly got dressed, tears now freely falling down my face.
"Roxas, please, just hear me out." Axel said as he stood up from the bed.
"No Axel, I will not play secret lover to anyone!" I said whirling around to face him, my face hot with my anger. "How dare you suggest that I take second place to some bitch!" I yelled. Axel's face was blank.
"Roxas, no one can give you the things I can. I am the head of the Mafia now, with this marriage it will put me at the head of both major families." he said like he was only speaking reasonably. I just stared at him for a moment.
"I'd rather be the only person in someone's life then have all the riches and power in the world." I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks. "I can't believe you Axel." And with that I turned and left. I went straight home and started packing, I didn't say anything to anyone. Just threw things into suitcases and headed for the closes airport and bought the first plane ticket out of there.
I had kept in contact with my cousin Sora for the first few years and he would update me on Axel. He and Larxene were married about a year after I had left. When I heard about it, it broke me. I think up till that point I had some delusion that he would give it all up and come find me, but it never happened. I met Namine during the days following the news, I told her my whole life story over a bottle of wine the same night we met and were instant friends.
It felt like I went through life on autopilot, nothing I did was me any more. Since the day I left America I don't think I've ever smiled, at least not for real. How sad is all this? It's been 5 years and I'm still moping around about all this shit.
I threw the last of my cloths into my suit case and slammed it shut. I quickly changed into jeans and a t-shirt before dragging both bags into the living room. I picked up my laptop case that would be my carry on and started loading it up.
Now I was going home, because my father was dead. I was going to have to face everyone that I had abandoned...I would have to explain...though I'm sure they knew by now.
I was packing my laptop and its many cords when my phone started ringing. I snatched it off the counter and with out looking at the caller ID, hit accept.
"Hello?" I snapped into the phone.
"Hello Roxas." came a smooth deep voice from the other end of the line. I froze with my hand on the zipper of the carry on case. "Its been a while." he said. I sank onto my couch.
"Yeah," I managed to get out through frozen lips.
"Has your mother gotten a hold of you already?" he asked. I nodded but quickly squeezed out another 'yeah' "Good, so you'll be coming home for the funeral?"
"Yeah." I said.
"I would very much like to see you, when you get home." he said, his voice normal, not one hint of anything. How was I suppose to take that?
"I don't know how long I'll be staying." I said, my voice still sounding stiff.
"That's alright, you will make time." he said in a cocky ass voice. I felt my back go stiff at that.
"Excuse me? I don't think you will tell me what I will make time to do." I snapped into the phone. "I don't want to see you, therefore, no I will not be making time to see you. Goodbye." I said before hanging up the phone and turning it on silent and shoving it into my carry on. What the fuck was that? I seethed as I stormed around my house making sure I had everything I would need. I looked to the wall clock and saw that I had two hours to get the the airport. I quickly gathered my things and pulled on my shoes before heading out.
I glanced at my phone as I climbed into the back of a cap, I had one missed call from the number that Axel had called from but I ignored it. It was 4 pm here, then it was about 11am there. I sighed and leaned back into the seat of the cab. Jet lag was gonna be a bitch. Though granted it was the least of my worries.
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