DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN EVANGELION!
They fought again.
It's always the same.
She gets mad, he apologizes, she screams, he apologizes, she blames him, he apologizes, she rebukes him for it, he stays silent.
She hurts him again. He lets her.
He wont say a word against her. He loves her.
He isn't afraid of pain, he's used to that.
He used to be afraid of death.
Until tonight.
They fought again.
It wasn't the same.
She got mad, he smiled,she screams, he says he doesn't care, she asks for clarity,he stays silent..
He goes to the roof. Says "I need to think.."
She lets him . She is afraid. She never wanted to hurt him. His new attitude seems so different.
His apathy scares her. She loves him.
She can only love him.
He drops a note.
It's easier to run.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
It's so much easier to go...
Then face all this pain here all alone.
She read the start of the note.
Her anger replaces with confusion.
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away no one could ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played...
Her heart starts to become heavy.
If I could change I would.
She never ever knew.
Take back the pain I would.
She never really thought about his pain. His suffering.
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would.
It was always about her.
If I could, stand up and take the blame I would.
He always was there for her.
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would.
Yet, she never truly saw
If I could change I would.
But why...?
Take back the pain I would
Who's...?
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would.
Wouldn't we all?
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
Why do you doing this?
I would take all the shame to the grave.
Shinji...?
It's easier to run.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
It's so much easier to go...
Then face all this pain here all alone.
Tears began to lightly flow.
It was futile to stop them,
but she tried.
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think I'm letting go and never looking back
I'm never moving forward so there'd . never be a past.
Oh god. Shinji!
If I could change I would.
No!
Take back the pain I would.
That's all you ever try to do for me.
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would.
I can't cry...I won't cry.
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
You do that for me already
If I could take all the shame to the grave, I would
Why Shinji? Why for me?
If I could change I would
I know! I know!
Take back the pain I would.
Wait...
Retrace every wrong move that I made would
This is him...his pain...not mine...
If I could stand up and take the blame I would.
I am his pain. His hurt. His agony...
I would take all my shame to the grave.
Oh God! No! Not Shinji! Please Shinji! NO!
Just washing it aside
She runs.
All of the helplessness inside
She knows.
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
She screams his name.
It's so much simpler than change.
She cries...
She runs to him. She can't let him do it!
It's easier to run.
She has to save him.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Make it all go away.
It's so much easier to go...
To tell him her hearts true feelings
Then face all this pain here all alone.
To show him the truth.
It's easier to run.
She makes it to the roof.
If I could change I would
She calls his name
Take back the pain I would
She swears her apology
Retrace every wrong move that I made...
She begs him to forgive her.
It's easier to go.
She says she loves him.
If I could change I would
Says she'll change
Take back the pain I would.
He turns around
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would.
He smiles.
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
He says I love you too.
I would take all my shame...
He let's himself fall back.
To the grave...
Thank you for reading. I am going to be making Two more of these. They are going to be Asuka-centric. Please review. I need to know if there is anything I need to change. Thanks! I had a HELL of a time with the underlining thingy. If it doesn't work I am VERY Sorry. I wanted to seperate the Lyrics from the story text.
-Haru Glory