Hello! We are Jessy (caughtxinxthexrain) and Allie (AllieFace).

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Hold My Hand

Chapter One

A tall, slender red-head stumbled along a sidewalk, carrying another boy over his shoulders as carefully as he could. The boy on his shoulders had passed out while at the party they had been attending. It was a large party where nearly the entire school gathered to get drunk, just another stupid high school party.

But to the stumbling boy, it was the best night of his life.

( FLASHBACK )

"Axel, you're seriously going to have a fifth beer?"

"Of course I am!" the taller male responded while he opened his fifth bottle of beer. "Where's your spirit, Sora? You haven't even had one yet." Axel reached over for another beer. He opened it and handed it to Sora, who attempted to reject it. "Aw, come on, don't be a wuss!"

"But….Axellll," Sora whined.

"Just drink the beer."

Hastily, Sora took the bottle from his friend's hand and took a sip of it. As he did so, he scrunched up his face that turned bright red right away from the alcohol.

'Damnit, why does he have to be so cute?' Axel groaned inwardly.

No less than fifteen minutes later, Sora was leaning on Axel, completely drunk off of the one beer he had, while his friend was finishing his sixth beer that night.

Axel's face tinted a soft red from Sora who was moaning as he leaned in closer on him. Sora moaned deeply one more time and looked up at Axel. There was a look in his eyes that Axel had never seen before.

Was that look…lust?

Just as Axel was processing the possibility of it to be true, the most unpredicted, and amazing, thing happened.

Soft, tender lips latched onto Axel's, hungrily pushing harder. Eyes wide, Axel sat frozen in shock.

Two years of being in love with Sora, and now Sora was kissing him.

A lustful moan escaped deep from the brunette's throat as he nipped at Axel's lips. "Axel," he purred out his name.

'Oh, god,' Axel throbbed through out his body. 'I hope this is Sora talking and not the beer.'

Sora purred the red-head's name again before licking his tongue across the part on Axel's lips.

He was just begging for an entrance. And there was no way Axel was going to push him away

( END OF FLASHBACK)

As gently as he could, Axel laid the brunette he held in his arms onto his bed. They had made it home safely, drunk, but safely.

The red-head laid down next to the boy on the bed and gently stroked his fingers through his soft locks of hair.

"I love you, Sora," he whispered. "I love you so much."

Before falling asleep, Axel put his arm around Sora's small waist and pulled him towards him. He embraced the warmth of the smaller male's body and fell into a deep, deep sleep.

His last thought before drifting off was that he could lay here forever with the boy he held tightly in his armss.

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Sora sat alone in homeroom with a pounding headache. Even though he had only one beer he managed to get drunk off of it, and now paid the price with a hangover.

A pretty damn head-throbbing hangover.

The door slammed open to reveal Axel, who held a brown-lunch bag in one hand and his books in the other. "You forgot to eat breakfast, Sora," he said as he walked over to his friend.

"Thanks," he put the food on the desk. "Did you bring any Advil by any chance?"

"No," Axel snaked his arms around his friend and pulled him very close to him. "Only my love for you."

"What are you talking about? And why—GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY ASS!" Sora jumped back, accidentally kicking Axel down to the floor as well.

"But, I…I thought you loved me," Axel looked up into blue eyes.

"Not like that! Where did you get that from?"

"Don't you remember?"

"Remember what?" Sora was practically shouting.

"Last night," Axel's voice cracked. "You had a lustful look on your face, and you purred out my name, and you ki—"

Suddenly, the door to the classroom slammed open for the second time that morning. Now, it was Riku who stood at the door. "Good morning, Axel," he said as he looked at the red-head who was still sitting on the floor. "Sora," he smiled warmly at the boy. "Good morning."

Sora smiled back, a smile that Axel had not recognized.

"Good morning, Riku," Sora's smile widened.

"So that's who you love," Axel mumbled.

"What'd you say?" Sora titled his head and looked down at Axel.

"Forget it. It's as horrible as your memory."

Axel stood up and walked to the door, pushing his way past Riku and ran down the hall.

"What was that about?" Riku took a step in.

"I don't know. He's been acting weird all morning."

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Axel was sitting under a tree in the schoolyard, impatiently waiting for the dismissal bell. He had sat there all-day, cold and heartbroken.

Even though it was March, it was still a bit chilly out, and he had no jacket. He would probably pay for it with a cold or the flu, but he did not really care at this particular moment.

Finally, the last bell rang, and students began to pour of the building. He had not seen Sora come out, but kept waiting and waiting.

After waiting almost twenty minutes, all the other students had left the building, ands the brunette made his way out of the school.

But he was not alone.

With him was Riku, who was carrying Sora's books for him. Not knowing what to do, Axel just sat there, watching them intently.

"Sora," Riku stopped walking and took Sora's hands in his. "I…I need to talk to you."

"What is it, Riku?" the younger male blushed slightly.

"I think…no, I know…that…well…" he stuttered.

"You-you know what?" Sora stuttered as well. They really knew how to work together.

"I…I love you…Sora," Riku bent his head and blushed.

"OH! MY! GOD!" Sora's jaw must have dropped three feet.

"Sorry if that scared you!" Riku let go of Sora's hands.

"No!" Sora grabbed Riku's hands and squeezed them tightly. "I love you too!" Sora smiled at him.

"Then would it be okay if I kiss you?" Riku asked, his cheeks covered in a blush.

"I would love it," Sora smiled.

Axel sat there in shock, as Sora and Riku shared a passionate kiss. A tear fell as Sora's arms wrapped around Riku's neck.

And his heart broke when Riku's hands found their way to Sora's bottom and got a moan from Sora in return.

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Axel slammed his door open to his bedroom, and slammed it closed behind him. He looked around the room at all the pictures he had of him and his 'best friend'.

The red-head opened the drawer in his desk and took out scissors. He walked over to his bed and stabbed the scissors into the wall, dragging them over the pictures he had taped to the wall of him and Sora. The pictures were now all torn, along with huge gashes in his wall.

He then stabbed his scissors into his mattress and cut up the sheets, cover, pillows, everything on it, including the stuffed animal that Sora gave to Axel as a good luck charm last spring.

Tossing the scissors aside, Axel walked over to his desk and flipped it over, kicking at it until it broke into several pieces.

The male reached over for his scissors and used them once again to tear up his carpet, leaving holes in it and shredding up random parts of it. He then moved over to his curtains, which were brutally mutilated.

Looking around at his room, Axel came upon his wooden desk chair. He picked it up and threw it against the wall. The chair broke into a few separate pieces and the wall had another hole in it.

He walked to the other side of his room and clawed at the wallpaper until it ripped, pulling it off and throwing it behind him.

Then he moved over to where his television and Playstation 2 lay. Grabbing for the Playstation, he threw it to the other side of the room onto the floor, where it shattered. He punched the television next, cracking it as his fist came in contact. The now cracked screen cut up his knuckles, a trail of blood trickling down his hand.

Axel took a few steps to his dresser, where he shoved all the photo frames onto the floor, watching as they shattered and cracked. Opening his drawers, Axel threw them across the room, clothes flying everywhere.

Now his room was just as much of a wreck as he was.

Satisfied, he walked into his bathroom and opened the cabinet under the sink where he hid his money. Grabbing it and shoving it into his wallet, he made his way down the stairs and to the door, slamming it behind him as he walked in the direction to the store.

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At the store, Axel walked up to the counter.

"Hey, Axel," the guy at the counter said.

"Hey, Cid."

"What can I do for you?"

"Cigarettes," Axel leaned onto the counter. "I need cigarettes."

"You're too young. Sorry, kid."

"You don't understand," Axel took his elbows off the counter. "I need them."

"Fight the urge, it's not worth it, kid."

"Fine, then," Axel said. He jumped over the counter and grabbed a carton of cigarettes. "This should cover it," Axel gave Cid a hundred dollar bill. He jumped over the counter again and grabbed a bag for his cigarettes before exiting the store.

"Crazy kid," Cid put the money in the cash register.

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The phone rang at Axel's house, but no one was home to answer. After ringing for two minutes, the answering machine picked it up and a message was left.

"Hello, this is the principal from your son Axel's high school," the principal started on the message. "This message is regarding Axel's poor attendance. We have been rather lenient since he is one of our most promising students, academic and sports wise. But today he sat on school property all day and did not check into any of his classes. I am sorry to report that he will have a two-week suspension for his decisions. Please call me back with anything regarding your son."

Nearly two minutes later, Axel returned to his house, a cigarette in his mouth and an empty pack in his hand. Lazily, he tossed it to the floor and slammed the door behind him.

He sat down at the stairs, finishing his cigarette and enjoying the silence inside his empty house.

It was then that the door bell rang several times. Axel stood up, lighting another cigarette and answered the door.

"Axel-kun!" a red-head jumped in and hugged the boy tightly. "It's been way too long!"

"It's only been four days, Rino," Axel said in a half-hearted voice.

"But don't you miss your brother who's away at college?" Rino now blinked cutely at his younger brother.

"You mean the community college you had to pay to accept you?"

"Hey!"

"And then beg and cry and whine?"

"Don't be mean to your big brot—is that a cigarette?"

"Took you long enough, Mr. College Boy."

"Axel!" Rino grabbed the cigarette out of his brother's mouth. "When did you start smoking?"

"Just now." Axel grabbed another cigarette from his pack and lit it. "It's not like it's going to kill me."

"It will in twenty years!" Rino took the new cigarette out of Axel's mouth.

"That's in twenty years."

"Well, you have to stop, Axel."

"Well, I'm not. So get used to it."

"Axel!"

"I don't care, I don't want to see you, so fuck off and go back to your damn college," Axel started to make his way up the stairs.

"But, Axel!" Rino ran after him, reaching out his hands to him.

"Don't touch me!" Axel shoved his brother away.

"Axel, please—"

"Shut up!" Axel lifted his fist and punched his brother across the face. Rino fell backwards down the stairs and landed on the floor. "I told you to not touch me," Axel glared down at his brother on the floor and walked to his room.

"Axel," Rino whispered, cupping his hand where his brother hit him. "What happened, Axel-kun? What happened to make you hurt this bad?"

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Axel stood in his room, leaning back against his closed door. He looked around his trashed room before walking over to his cut up mattress.

He reached over to the nightstand and opened the drawer to get out his sleeping pills he used often in hopes of a decent night of sleep.

Opening the bottle, he pulled the lid up to his lips and swallowed the half-full bottle of sleeping pills in one gulp. He then reached over to the scissors lying on the bed next to him.

Axel took off his shirt and threw it to the side, along with his pants. He sat on his bed in only his boxers. The scissors were cold as he pushed it down on his skin.

Slowly, Axel dragged the scissor down from his elbow to his wrist, pushing it in deeply. Blood poured out of his wrist, and a big gash was now where he cut himself.

The male proceeded to do this several times, up and down as well as from side to side. His arm was covered in blood, as well as his bed sheet under him. After cutting up one arm, he moved on to the next. Barely being able to move, Axel continued to cut himself, now reaching for the inside of his thighs. He cut them up until all you saw were gashes and gashes with blood pouring out.

Before putting his scissor down, he held it up to his left shoulder. He began to carve letters into his arm, all the way down to where he began his cuts on the inside of his elbow.

The carved letters read 'NOBODY' in large, bloody letters.

As he finished, he dropped the scissors, his arm weak from cutting them up. The sleeping pills were really kicking in, and the loss of blood was making him weaker. His eyes rolled backwards and he fell forward onto the floor with a loud THUD.

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Rino, who was still sitting on the floor, heard the loud thud from Axel's room. In a panic, he jumped up and rushed up the stairs, throwing open Axel's door.

There he saw something he never wanted to see, his brother laying on the floor, with blood all over his arms, legs, sheets and floor.

"Axel!" Rino cried, collapsing onto the floor as tears drowned in his eyes. "Oh, god, Axel!"

Rino reached for his cell phone and dialed 911. As soon as he was sure that the ambulance was on the way, he hung up and made his way over to his brother.

He noticed the word 'nobody' carved on Axel's arm and placed his hand over it, crying harder.

"Oh God, Axel," he sobbed. "Please hold on, you're a somebody, Axel, you are!" he stroked his brother's hair. "You were never a nobody, Axel."

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So that's the end of chapter one!

For further chapters, we will be switching off who is writing what chapter D:

Jessy will be starting, and then Allie.

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