It had been two years and everything had changed not for the good. Buffy had died again, and this time she haden't come back. No matter how they tried to bring her back she stayed dead this time in the ground. Ben her currently widowed husband was left alone and weak. Ben drank every night hurt by the loss of his one and only. Buffy was the most important person in his world and she was gone. Buffy had been the head slayer the one who knew her way around this demon infested world. Now she had left Dawn alone in Sunnydale the only slayer there to save the world. Dawn didn't want the weight of the world on her shoulders.
Everyone felt lost with out Buffy to lead them. She was their leader their strength and now she had died for the last time. Willow had broken it off with Oz again and Oz left town lost in his own torment of Willow's blame. She told him that if she hadn't been spending time with him she would have noticed that Buffy was dying. Willow moved to England with Giles having no where else to go. Xander and Anya stayed together and grew stronger then before with the loss of their patriarch needing someone to keep them alive they used one another.
Dawn had recently found out that being the key made her eternal ever since her eighteenth birthday. She was destined to live forever as an eighteen year old. Dawn had fallen passionitely in love with Spike, and he was the man of her dreams. Dawn planned on spending eternity with him. But eternity didn't look like a possibility anymore. When Buffy died battleing the legion, Spike had been lost. He was fighting with her, neither one of them thinking it would be a big battle just a few old vamps easy to dust. They were wrong it was a battle that would end there lives. Buffy got caught in the trap and killed slowly until she had no breath in her anymore. No one knew what happened to Spike. He had dissapeared from the face of the earth. Dawn was left alone with out Spike.
Spike had promised her forever said he would never leave her, he lied. He was gone and Dawn was lost. She couldn't save the world with out him by her side. Every night she would waste away in sorrows for the loss of her forever. When she first found he was gone life seemed meaningless. Dawn remembered once saying to Buffy something close to those words exactly..."I love him, that has to be enough or life will lose meaning." Dawn didn't want to live not knowing where Spike was not knowing if he was alive or safe. Dawn wasted away every lonely day she spent at work. Every night was just a stage of "Going through the motions." Nothing seemed all right anymore, she was half dead.
Angel had fled back to his apartment in LA, seeings as WolfRam and Heart had burned down. Faith had left Angel, she didn't want to see a constant reminder of Buffy. Faith also blamed Angel for Buffy's death also blaming herself. Knowing if she hadn't left with Angel she would have been fighting with Buffy and she wouldn't have let her die.
Dawn woke in the early morning not wanting to rise not wanting to move. Every day was done because it had to be, if she had a choice she would lay there in her bed until she died. But the world wouldn't go on if she wasn't there to save it, though it didn't matter much to her, no one mattered much to her. Now she was truly the slayer, no life, no love, no passion, just a machine built to save the world from demons.
Dawn stood up and ran a comb through her hair trying to look presentable, if she did this it didn't rais questions. People thought she was all right if she acted like she was. So she pretended life was fine and that she had moved on. Pretended that Spike wasn't lingering in her thoughts every second she was awake, every second she was alive. She walked down the stares and looked around the house was empty as usual. The phone rang which caused her to wince.
She walked over and picked up the reciever in her hand. "Hello?" Dawn said putting on a fake voice of excitement.
"Why hello, Dawnie." She heard Giles voice on the other line.
"Giles, hey!" Dawn said a smile in her voice not on her face. "So whats up?" She asked fakely.
"Well, I have some urgent news." Giles paused. "You may want to be sitting." He gave her a moment to sit down though she remained on her feet. "Wev'e found him!" Giles said waiting for her reply.
"Found who?" Dawn asked shocked. It never crossed her mind the him he was speaking of could possibly matter to her.
"Spike." Giles answered.
"What!?!" Dawn yelled in shock tears rushing to her eyes.
"He's in a bad way Dawn, he's been hurt badly and he's gone completely insane lost his mind." Giles answered.
"But he's alive, youv'e found him, Spike is alive." Dawn said crying hystericaly now as the shock faded away and the reality flushed into her.
"Yes Dawn but not normal hes gone insane." Giles said a frown in his tone.
"I 'm taking a plain there as soon as I can." Dawn said trying to calm herself. "If he's alive Giles maybe life wont be so bad anymore." Dawn said hanging up the phone.
Dawn rushed to her feet and threw a coat over her she grabbed her purse which had everything she needed. Her cell phone her wallet with her credit card and cash and a handy stake.
Dawn rushed to the airport and got a flight out to England as soon as she possibly could. The plain ride was painful as she waited to find Spike in a panicked state. She couldn't think straight a worried smile firmly planted on her face. Spike was alive maybe he was crazy but that could be fixed. Dawn felt the like there was some feeling inside her again, something inside her felt real again.
She rushed from the plain and quickly got a taxi to Giles apartment. She couldn't bare seeing him after what she said the last time she saw him.
"I don't care Giles. Not anymore, about anyone, anything." Dawn sat down in a chair next to a sadened Giles.
"Dawn dont say that, life isn't over your so young." Giles frowned like usual.
"Giles, life is over for me now. I am going to be like Buffy when she came back from heavan. Except there is no recovery for me now, I am dead, through and through. My soul is dead but my body is still moving. And you can't save me from that no one can."
Dawn walked up to Giles place and knocked on the door reluctantly.
"Im comming!" She heard Giles familiar voice hollar. He opened the door looking at Dawn's changed face. So much pain inside such a young girl. Her beauty never faded though her sould did. She was still stunning still near perfect.
"Hi Giles." She smiled truly glad to see his face.
"Dawn!" Giles lit up and pulled Dawn into a hug. "Come in from the rain." Giles said pulling her inside Dawn hadn't even noticed it had been raining.
"Where is he Giles. I am glad to see you and all, but, I need to see him." Dawn said pleading.
"He's in the basement chained up." Giles said frowning. "He is dangerous no one has been able to get to him Dawn. He is crazy." Giles warned. "I don't know if Iwant you to see him like this."
"Not your choice old man." Dawn said running to the basement. She wanted to see him her Spike the love of her life. She thought now that there was hope he was alive and he was able to be saved.
Dawn walked down to the basement creeping slowly as she prepaired herself for what she was going to see next. She knew it wasn't going to be good but something in seeing him made her happy.
She saw him. Spike crouched in the corner into a ball. Something shot through her chest as she felt like she was whole again. It was sick really just seeing him made her feel like her life had a purpose again a meaning.
Dawn walked over to Spike and crouched beside him tears streaming down her pale face. "Spike." Dawn whispered.
"NO!" He shouted standing up and paising around. "Not supposed to be here can't see me, don't let the girl see me, not supposed to. Not see what I did, close your eyes now shut your eyes." Spike rambled.
"Spike it's me." Dawn said trying to walk over to him as he pased around.
"No it's not you again, no, no. They lied to me, theyll do it again. Tell me she's here tell me my Nibblet is here they lie." Spike said almost crying.
It killed Dawn to see this Spike had lost his mind and she wasn't getting through to him. "Spike it's Dawn."
"No no no, not again not again. Wont fool me again no. She can't see me, she would hate me should hate me." Spike said nervous.
Dawn knew something made him think she was there before she could make out something in what he was saying. Someone was messing with him. "I love you Spike come back to me."
"Why do you hate me. Why would you want to lie and say my girl came back for me, your Buffy arent you, yes thats true she always hated me and now your haunting me." Dawn felt hurt as he said Buffy's name. Bringing back memorys feeling the pain she felt when he loved Buffy not her.
"I am not Buffy. It's Dawn Spike...I love you." She tried to pull him to her grabbing his arms.
He looked into her eyes. "Nibblet?" Spike asked calm now.
"Yes." Dawn answered.
"You, in your eyes. I see your soul." Spike smiled. "Your not the lie, can't be you feel too real." Spike said speaking slightly more coherant as he ran his hands up and down her arms.
"Spike what happened to you?" Dawn asked almost crying. "Two years Spike, it's been two years." Dawn's face turned hot as she forced back the tears building in her eyes.
"No, it's been eternity." Spike frowned. "Too long with out my girl." Why was he comming back to normal was it her?
"I missed you." Dawn gave into the tears as one strode down her cheek. Spike wipped it away.
"I miss you still." Spike frowned licking the tear from his finger tip.
"But I'm here." Dawn said looking up at him.
"No, your faded. Some one took away your passion." Spike nodded.
"You." Dawn frowned.
"I should have never owned it." Spike touched her face again. "It wasn't fair of me to take it away."
"No." Dawn frowned making conversation with the lunatic vampire as if it were completely normal. "Why did you leave?"
"Didn't mean to, wanted to stay. It took me away." Spike said riping off his shirt. "The soul did this."
"You have a soul." Dawn said putting her hands at the bloody dig marks in Spikes bare chest.
"A curse." Spike nodded. "It made me weak and then when I was in that hell place." Spike frowned remembering. Hell place? A hell demension? Dawn was putting it all together. It sounded like Spike had gotten his soul back and some how was sent into a hell dimension.
"Spike, I am here now." Dawn reassured him running her hands through his hair. His roots had grown in now so he had that half blond half brown look.
"Never leave me." Spike begged.
"Never." Dawn promised. "No matter what." Dawn said as Spike rested his head on her shoulder.
Spike had promies he would stay with her once before, when he had come back from leaving for almost two years almost the same as now.
"Promise never to leave again." She begged with a hint of playfulness in her eyes.
"Of course, never."
As sick as it was she never would. Even if Spike were never going to recover, his was how she would have to live taking care of him. She loved him and being with him made her whole again she was getting back to her old self, she was becomming less of a shell. She owed him this, all the times he took care of her before made her feel safe, he was hurting now and he needed her.
"Dawn?" Spike asked resting his head on her shoulder.
"Yes."
"I'm sorry." Spike apologized slightly understanding what his absense did to her.
"It's all going to be okay now." Dawn assured him holding onto him still entranced by him insane or not.
"I love you my little bit, always will." Spike moaned. "Two years and your all that clouds my thoughts."
"I havn't been able to get you out of my head." Dawn answered. "Not that I tried all that hard." Dawn said breathing in the scent of him, half expecting it to have changed. But no he had the same Spike smell, that made her weaken at the knees.
"Spike, I have to go see Giles now, and tell him everything." Dawn said looking into his confused eyes.
"No, you said you would never leave me." Spike said frantic.
"Spike, I promise you I will be back, soon." Dawn said holding his face between her hands. "I'll come back and unchain you." She said descusted with the fact that they had him chained like an animal.
She walked up the stares and to where she had left Giles who was now accomponied by Willow.
"Dawnie!" Willow shouted throwing her arms around Dawn embracing her warmly.
Dawn retured the favor. "Hey Willow."
"I missed you." Willow confessed.
"I missed you too." Dawn answered it was a lie, she missed her now. When she was back home it was like no one existed like nothing mattered.
"So how is he?" Willow asked hopeful.
"Better I think." Dawn said pleased.
"You mean he talked to you." Giles said shocked.
"He told me he has his soul back. I think he was in a hell dimension." Dawn looked at Giles.
"Dawn, you don't understand, none of us could speak with him he was insane, he tried to kill us." Giles said looking concerned for her sanity.
"He talked to me, when he realized it was me I think he got better." Dawn smiled a little.
"Wow, maybe he can pull through." Willow smiled. "I think I am comming back to Sunnydale with you Dawnie." Willow said looking at her feet.
"All right." Dawn said monotone. "Giles I am taking him with me...don't protest, I am pissed you put him in chains in the first place." She said stern.
"I couldn't conrtol him Dawn." Giles frowned ashamed. Dawn's words always had such a heat to them before Spike left and it was back now, the passion was rising inside her slowly but it was comming back.
"I don't care. I can." Dawn said sure of herself. "I am taking him home." Dawn said looking back to Willow. "Can you call Angel, have him send his private jet down here, I can't take Spike into an airport." Willow nodded. "Pack your things were leaving tonight." Dawn said looking at Willow.
Dawn walked back down the steps and into the dark damp basement where her other half was. She saw him siting on a cot running his hands through his hair.
"She isn't comming back for you William, she thinks your insane, knows what youve done." Spike talking to himself as Dawn walked over to him.
"I didn't leave Spike, I'm here." She stood above him as he threw himself into her wrapping his arms around her legs putting his head into her stomouch.
"Your leaving aren't you?" Spike asked.
"Yes. But I am taking you with me." Dawn said running her hands through his hair.
"I feel like you make me whole again." Spike said looking up at her.
"I feel the same." Dawn said smiling.
"You do realize im insane." Spike said knowing this for himself, knowing it was getting better when she was near him.
"Spike, your gonna be all right." Dawn said smiling. "I know your alive and that's enough."
"Is it?" Spike asked.
"For eternity." Dawn said as she remembered their conversation when they found out she was going to live forever.
"...You love me and I love you, isn't that enough?"
"Of course my love, for eternity." Spike smirked crookidly as he leaned into place another kiss on Dawn's willing lips.
They waited until Angel arrived with his jet. Dawn walking Spike upstairs an into the jet as Willow followed. Angel was waiting inside as he stared down a little frustrated. They shut the door behind them and the jet took off.
"So Dawn this is a change." Angel smirked. "I see you again after two years and your with Spike." Sarcasm rang through his words.
"I guesse I just can't change." Dawn said smiling as Spike rested on her shoulder clinging to her.
"He's very clingy isn't he?" Angel said sarcastic.
"Sod off poofter." Spike said more himself as he was touching Dawn. She was sure now he was going to be fine and very soon.
"I thought he was all insane with the babbles." Angel said confused.
"He was, he's getting much better." Dawn smiled. He was back with her now, everything was going to be all right.
"I sure hope your not getting back together with a lunatic." Angel said rudely.
"We were never, broken up, he was just missing." Dawn reminded him.
"This isn't right." Angel shook his head.
"No, but it sure feels right." Spike said snuggling into Dawn as he wrapped his arms around her, slowly becomming himself again.
"Spike." She said his name hearing it roll off of her tongue made him smile.
"I can't believe how you guys can just go back to being all comfortable with each other after two years." Willow said astonished, happy.
"Yeah, it's enough to make me feel sick." Angel said rolling his eyes.
"It's enough to make me feel safe." Spike sighed. She was getting him back ,back to normal, and for once she felt alive again.
The plain ride was quiet as Spike fell asleep on Dawn shoulder, for once he felt relaxed. Everything felt right again if only for a second. Dawn knew that even when everything else had fallen apart around her, if Spike were back it would be all right, everything was going to be okay.
So yeah its a little intense with the death and loss and all!! I hope you like it and if not I can always well start over lol!
But im hoping this sequel is good im hoping you luv it!! So review if you want more thanks!