Forever Be Your Secret Admirer

by bonniebonbon

"Father would torture me if he knew the thoughts I thought." Draco is different than his family. He thinks different things, he believes different things, he loves different things. So when he falls in love with a certain mudblood, will he give up everything he's known for her? Or will he forever be her secret admirer? DM/HG, O/S, Written for The Greenhouses Competition. Please R&R

It's killing me. Me, bullying you, calling you a mudblood.

I don't mean it, you know. I am only doing it because my father said so. I am only doing it because I am a coward.

Father says that I must make you and your friends miserable. Father says that mudbloods, half-bloods and blood traitors are scum. Father says, I do.

He never asked me to fall in love with you. Nor did I expect to.

But…your courage, your determination, your brilliance…

Well, it changed me.

The way I think. The things I believe.

Father would punish me if he found out I envy the Weasel. That I wish I were him, the one who could make you laugh, the one who received your kisses and hugs.

Father would disown me if he knew I stare at the back of your head and daydream about what it would be like to hold your hand.

Father would torture me if he knew the thoughts I thought.

So, until I can face that-

I will forever be your secret admirer.