I don't own Naruto okay? This is my first attempt at a SasoDei fic from Deidara's perspective. It is just an oneshot drabble and I hope you like it. Well enough with the A/N, on with the fic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I look up to him. He is my mentor. He is my partner in the Akatsuki. He is Sasori no Donna. I do not know what it is about him that I admire. Is it his art? As an artist I know how it is, an artist and their ideas of art and beauty. He believes that art is eternal while I believe it is fleeting. In fact if you were to ask me the way I want to die, it would be with my art in a huge explosion. Weird? Well yeah, I guess it is but hey, so is the man I have fallen in love with, Sasori.

Call me all the names you want about this, I don't care. I feel I must tell you what I want to do for him. I want to be his puppet; I want to help him in battle so he can do the best he can. You see he uses puppets made from the bodies of his victims. He can use all their chakra and jutsus just as they would have in life. Now I bet you are even more puzzled about why I am saying this. Well it's like I told you before, I love Sasori and I want more than anything , more than to die with my art, is for him to love me and acknowledge me like I do him. I love him and I do not care what others say about it.

I actually do not know why I am attracted to Sasori no Donna like I am now. I want him with every fiber of my being. I do not mind what he would have to do for me to make him love me. I know how he makes his puppets. I know I will have to be killed for him to do it. I know this process all too well. I have helped him do it. Hell, I suggested he should try and take that damned Uchiha Itachi's body and make it one of his special human puppets. Curse that Uchiha. Well anyway, for his reasons, Sasori told me he couldn't and wouldn't. I do hope the thought crossed his mind to do that to me.

I have dreamed of him holding me in his arms, caring for me and loving me. His puppets are what he shows that love to. I desire him so much, I can't stand it. Every night I wake up craving him like a starving artist craves a mere bite to eat. I want him so bad. I know how it seems so unbecoming of me to admit this, but I want to be his puppet. I want him to love me so bad. I love him and I want him to return the gift of love I give him. He knows, at least I hope he does, that I would die for him. I would do whatever he asked, no matter how sick and disgusting it may be.

If you were to give me one wish, it would be to wake the next day as one of Sasori no Donna's puppets. He would care for me as if I was his child. I love him and I would do anything for him. Sasori make me your puppet. I want you to have me. I know your secret. You made yourself into a puppet so I cannot love you as a man. I do not care how but I want to love you no matter what and will love you for eternity. I know I say art is fleeting but I now understand by what you mean by beauty eternal. That is you. I love you. Yes I know I said that so many times before but it is what I feel. You know what? I am going to help him in making me the puppet he would desire. I will take my life if he so desires, even though it would not be my preferred way to go un, and let him have my body.

Sasori no Donna, my body and my life are no longer mine, they are yours. Take me and use me as you will. I will go to my grave knowing that while my life may not go as I have planned it, I will have made the love of my life happy. I would give it all up for my ultimate dream and that is to make Sasori no Donna happy. Lord above; please let me make him happy.

Sasori no Donna, make me your puppet. Make me your puppet today and use me for eternity.