It's hard to go back to being the you, you once were before something big happens to you. It's almost impossible to walk down the hallways of your high school without feeling like you hold the biggest secret in the world & it's just a matter of time before everyone knows.

Sakura…Sakura Schiffer. That is my name, not my maiden name. No my maiden name is Sakura Shang, but only my closes friends know that. Yes, I know what you're thinking: "did she just say she's in high school, but also say she's married?!"& the answer to that is complicated.

I am Sakura (Shang) Schiffer. I have violent blue bobbed-cut hair & sapphire blue eyes. I have pale skin & I am an average 5"5 & in the 10th grade. The special thing about my closes friends & I is that we are Shinigami. Yes, you heard me right, Shinigami, gods of death or Soul-Reapers, which ever you are comfortable with. I am the oldest out of my little circle of friends, I am 916 years old. Next in line is my twin sister Anaria (Shang) Uchiha, ageing at 916 as well, but I'm older by a minute. The thing about my twin is that she looks nothing like me. She has snow white hair with magenta eyes.

Third would be my closes guy friend Kazuhira Kohtoma (Kaz to friends), only has blonde hair & sky blue eyes. He towers over all his friends that are girls, standing at 6"1, & (obviously) has a secrete crush on his Taichou, & Sensei in the human world, Rukia Kuchiki.

Next would be my best girlfriend Hinata Uzumaki, who just turned 615. She has long blonde hair (slightly lighter than Kaz's) that she always wears in pigtails & bright emerald green eyes. She stands as the tallest of her friends that are girls, 5"6 ½.

But here is the confusing part of our little group, the three boys& one girl that enrolled in the soul academy less than two months ago.

First would be the lone girl of the four, Inaho Schiffer (weird huh?).Inaho is a red headed girl with baby blue eyes & a small heart shaped birthmark on her left cheek. She has deeply tanned skin (surprisingly I look like paper compared to her!) & only stands at 5"3

Next would be the smartest of the three boys, Sôsuke Aizen. A chocolate brown, shaggy haired boy with matching deep, warm brown eyes that are shielded by thick, black rimmed glasses. He always has a warm, gentle smile on his lips & warm tan skin, standing at a towering 6"1.

Next would be the most loud & disrespectful of the trio, Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez. This obnoxious, wannabe punk is quiet a good looking boy; sky blue tousled hair with matching blue eyes. A cocky, white smile is always coloring his lips & like Sosuke, he has warm tan skin as well, & stands at 6"1. I, myself, am still amazed that not a single soul has tried to claim him to be gay because of the green eyeliner underneath his eyes.

Finally comes the annoying of the three, Nnoritora Gilga. A long, black haired boy with small violent eyes, & a very creepy smile always glued to his face. (Not)Surprisingly, this boy is the most perverted out the trio. He is about 6'5 & always wears a jacket that reminds me of a spoon.

But I'm losing myself here; the confusing things about these four are that nobody-not even themselves-knows their age or birthdays. So, my friends & I all chose to create a birthday for each one of them, the day we first met them. I first met Sôsuke on May 29, Grimmjow on July 31, Nnoritora on April 24, & Inaho on

"Sakura-Onee…Sakura-Onee!"

"H-Hia!? Kaz-kun did it!" my eyes darted to the voice of my twin Anaria, standing right in front of me, waving her hand in my face. "Onee-Chan, you didn't hear a word I said did you?"

Hanging my head, I gently shook it to my twin, admitting my fault. "That has been happening a lot, you know…What's on your mind lately Onee-Chan?" My cheeks darkened as I hid my face behind my short hair, I couldn't tell her about my most private thoughts. Unconsciously my hand grasped the object that adorned my neck 24/7. The one object that stayed with me no matter what, from my lost human life in the 11th century, to here & now as a vice-captain Soul-Reaper of the 4th division.

"Oh, I understand…" A deep sigh left her mouth as she turned to slump away. Anaria knew I was thinking about my late husband, who almost died a year ago because of my stubbornness. When I thought of my late husband, Anaria thought of hers, whom she only knew of because of me. Anaria forbiddingly married a servant like me. I had married her servant, Sasuke Schiffer, & she married mine, Lelouch Uchiha. "Sakura-Chan!" Hinata's voice rang out through the hallway, causing almost all of the halls occupants to turn & stare at her as she came running up from behind me. "Hey Hinata-Chan…" before she had the chance to pounce on me I side stepped, causing her to crash to the floor. "Stupid blonde…see what happens when you fling yourself at anyone & everyone!" Grimmjow's scolding voice caused Hinata to jump right back up on her feet & suddenly fling herself at Grimmjow, causing him to fall to the cold marble floor with Hinata landing right on top of him. "You mean like this?"

"Grimm-Kitty…what happened to your cat-like reflexes?" Kaz's mocking words caused Grimmjow to pick Hinata up into his arms & fling her at Kaz with blinding speed, leaving Hinata no time to scream. Without a moment's hesitation Kaz plucked Hinata out of the air & gently set her down on her feet. "How's that for cat-like?" Grimmjow's face was twisted in a snarl as he quickly spun on his heels & headed to the cafeteria. "Okay, who pissed off Grimmjow-Kun this time?" From behind us came Narunosuke & Shiro's voice's, speaking the same question at the same time.

I might as well give you some details of what happened almost a year ago…

The great "Arrancars vs. Soul-Reapers" war had broken out all over again because instead of Orihime Inoue (now known as Kurosaki!) being kidnapped again, I was magically transported to Hueco Mundo &found that my late husband, Sasuke Schiffer (Known as Ulquiorra now) was an Arrancar, my natural enemy. I am the second fastest & strongest healer in my division, so I was really needed for the Soul-Society, so instead of calling me a traitor like they did to Orihime, they thought I was kidnapped & sent a small, strong party to rescue me.

The party consisted of Kaz Kohtoma, Hinata Uzumaki, Anaria Uchiha, Ichigo Kurosaki, Orihime Kurosaki, Renji Abarai, Chad, Uryu Ishida, Toshiro Hitsugaya, Rukia Kuchiki, & Nelliel Tu Odelschwanck shortly after they had arrived. They all fought with the Arrancars that came to challenge them while I had flashed stepped all over Hueco Mundo, searching for my Sasuke, whom had went to challenge my friends. I can still remember the sound of Kaz's sword slicing through him, the sickening sound of Kakashi sliding out of his body.

"You damn Shinigami…why do I always turn to dust by your hands? It seems not to matter if it's a substitute or not…either way…I die like this…"

His gold orbsleft Kaz's; instead piercing into Sakura's sapphires…his hand slowly rising up to her, as if reaching for his slipping life."Why do I not die like every other being?"

Sakura raised her hand towards his, her black nails almost touching his slender fingers. "Be-because, your my Sasuke Schiffer! No matter how much you claim that he is dead…you are him, & he is nothing like other beings!" her sapphires turn liquid, causing his slender body to blur, not realizing he was quickly disintegrating before her. "No…," her words were nothing but a chocked whisper when she felt nothing but dust in her closed hand. "NO! LELOUCH, REIN OVER LIGHT!" She tripped twice running towards the sphere of darkness that pulsed a purple tint, which now encircled Ulquiorra's half disintegrated body within it. "Sakura-Chan, no!" Kaz ran towards his best friend, trying to stop her from reaching the sphere that held her elided kidnapper, but he bounced off of its black walls that had swallowed her. "Damn it all!" His fist came down hard on the walls, fearing his friend would not come out again.

Sakura came to a hard stop when her body came crashing into an out of place white wall. "S-Sasuke-Kun?" his single arm wrapped around her shaking waist, keeping her against his torso, which slowly began to rebuild itself. "Sakura-Chan…how can this be?"

"I became the vice-captain of the healing division for a reason Sasuke-Kun…I thought you said you do your homework." Her voice held a light teasing as she felt his other arm quickly regenerate, his fingers entwining into hers. Her eyes lifted up towards his, faintly seeing the cold gold orbs, now turning a warm emerald. She gasped as she watched the black tear streaks that stroked his cheeks turn emerald, then slowly fade away, leaving his cheeks just a pale white. Her hands reached up to caress his face, her thumbs running lines up & down his cheeks, but froze when she saw the two bone white horns at the top of his head crumble away. "What is bothering you Aisai?" His eyes searched hers when he felt her hands flutter up to his raven black hair, tousling it in search for any bone left. Her hands froze again when a new light entered the darkness, the charm from her chocker pulsing emerald again. "S-Sasuke-Kun…are you okay? You're still regenerating, right?" her hand went down to her chocker, grasping "his" heart. "S-Sakura-Chan…!" Her eyes flashed to his, his emeralds wide & burning. "T-there is this pain, its coming from the hole…" Her eyes flashed down to his collar bone, where his Arrancar hole rested. Her eyes became wider than his as she watched her hands uncontrollably unclasped the pulsing charm adorning her throat& slowly placed it in the hole in his collar. Before she knew it the darkness from Lelouch flowed through her slender fingers, encircling the charm & hollow space in his throat. "I-I know what must happen now, Sasuke-Kun…" Her sapphires bore into his emeralds, her mind was made up. "I'm…going to heal you Daaringu…but you won't be the same as before…you won't be Ulquiorra. Y-you'll be Sasuke again…my Sasuke-Kun…"

It's hard to believe that was almost two years ago…it feels like a life time.

"Sakura-Chan…Sakura-Chan!"

"What? Oh, um…sorry Sôsuke-Kun…I kind of zoned out there." I dropped my head as my cheeks darkened, trying to hide behind my violent short curtain. "What is on your mind Hime-Chan? I've noticed that you've been zoning out a lot lately…does it have anything to do with your Hazu?"

Sôsuke Aizen is a very observational character. If any one seems bothered or distracted, he will be the first one to notice. He seems to be the only boy you can open up to & he'll truly listen, & if your big chested like Hinata, Orihime, or I, he'll actually look at your eyes! "Hia…I've been having him pop into my mind a lot lately without even noticing."

"Well, he must have been a wonderful man if he keeps popping into your mind 24/7." Sôsuke swiftly rose & plucked mine & his books off of the table just as the bell rang for first period. "Well here's another good thing to think about, since you & I have a lot of the same classes this year, you won't have to carry your books most of the day."

"That's nice of you Sôsuke-Kun, but I can-" My sentence was cut short when I suddenly crashed into a tall, slender, warm wall. From the hardness I could tell the figure was male, but before I could look into his face, he had already brushed past me. I quickly turned around to call out an apology to him but my words caught in my throat. All I could see was his raven black hair that went to his shoulders& paper white skin peeking out at me from above his collar. "No….i must be imagining things…"

"What was that you said, Hime-Chan?" Sôsuke's warm brown eyes melted through his glasses, his smile dripping with concern. "N-nothing really…that guy just looked familiar is all. Let's hurry up & get to class before we are late."

"Sakura-Chan!" my eyes glanced up to find my twin sitting at a small circular table with Narunosuke Shang (Weird again)& Shiro, with 3 extra empty seats. Sôsuke glided over with a lot of grace for a supposed 17 year old awkward boy & claimed the seat next to Anaria.

After I had chosen the empty seat next to Shiro, class had begun for only a few minutes when there came a light tapping from the door, followed by the schools headmaster entering, dragging along a tall slender boy with a black & emerald stripped jacket on, the hood drawn over his head.

"Sorry for the disruption, but our newest arrival this year seemed to have gotten lost in our hallways."

"Oh no problem, just go take a seat over there in between Schiffer&Aizen-San, Mr.…um…do you mind telling me your name?"

Gently removing the hood from his head I could see his paper white, slender hands with black painted nails. "Schiffer…Ulquiorra Schiffer…"

"Oh, do you happen to be related to Sakura Schiffer-San?" My heart had been racing too fast for me to notice Sensei's last words; all I could concentrate on was his piercing emerald gaze. "No."

"Oh, well what about Inaho Schiffer-San? Are you related to her?" A flash of realization danced in his eyes at the mention of Inaho. "Hia, Sensei-San, I am indeed related to Inaho-Chan."

"Oh, that is wonderful. Now Schiffer-San, if you don't mind, would you please go sit next to Sakura-San, please?"

I'm not breathing! I need air, right now! Inhale Sakura, breath in & out evenly! My cheeks darkened when I heard Shiro whistle towards Ulquiorra while curling one of her black locks with kinky pink died in around her fore finger, making a flirty grin at him as he sat down in between Sôsuke & I, his knee brushing against mine, sending a shock down my spine. My sapphires met his emeralds fora quick second before mine quickly looked towards my lap again."So, Ulquiorra-Kun…are you dating anyone?"

"Shiro-Chan!" My cheeks were even darker as I tried to keep my shrill voice below a whisper. "What? It's not like I'm asking him anything personal…so, are you?" Her voice had return back to its flirty tone as her magenta eyes peeked out from under her coal black bangs, a rare thing if you're around Shiro a lot, & her snake bites wiggled with the slight movement of her lips.

"Yes, I am…satisfied? Can I now pay attention to Sensei, instead of having to take part of your useless gossip?"Shiro's eyes were drawn behind her bangs again as a flash of disappointment crossed her face for a brief second, then quickly disappeared when she reached over & punched Narunosuke for no reason at all.

"Sasuke…"

"What was that Sakura-Chan? Did you say something?" Narunosuke's deep voice broke through my conscious, hurtling me back into reality.

"Are you daydreamin' about…'you know who' again?" My eyes widen in horror as I looked around the small little table, my eyes resting last on Sasuke. "Crap, was I thinking out loud again?"

"Yep, you said Sasuke's name again in an all kinda dreamy way, like you always do!" Anaria was beaming along with her words when realization crossed her finally. "Onee-Chan! Is it-" before she finished her shrill whisper I jumped over both boys in between us & clamped my hand over her lips. "Now, now Imouto-Chan…let's not spoil Sôsuke-Kun's surprise!" confusion crossed everyone's eyes for a brief second before all my friends finally caught on. "Aw, but Hime-Chan, please? I'm so excited that I'll do anything, please?"Sôsuke played along so I wouldn't look like a total fool in front of Ulquiorra. "Nu, uh, Sôsuke-Kun, you'll have to wait for a few more weeks until your finally 18." I waggled my finger as the bell rang for next period, just a few more until lunch break, then I can go & drown in my misery like always.

"I'll see you guys later!"

"You're not going to eat lunch with us Sakura-Chan?" Kaz's voice filled with disappointment when I shook my head at him & waved.

The halls were empty as I drew near the library, everyone must have rushed to the cafeteria as soon as the bell rang. Contently I placed my ear buds into my ears & cranked my iPod up to high. With the rock music blaring I finally allowed myself willingly to think of my Hazu.

The year was 1111; I was a human in the world of the living at the time, a Hime. I was 15 at the time & rebellious & naïve of everything, thinking I knew everything in the world. I was just betrothed to some American prince whom I had never met; my parents had told me that our marriage would bring peace to our two families, please, save me the stereotypical crap. I had run away with Anaria & our servants that same night, eloping would be the proper way to describe it, I guess. I can still smell the cherry blossoms that were fully bloomed that night, the shades of pink that mixed with the liquid of night. I can just make out his warm emerald orbs that held mine, just like how his large hand swallowed mine, his skin feeling hot yet cold at the same time. I can still feel the touch of his lips on mine for the first time-

Before I knew it my body collided with a familiar tall, slender wall again. Reflex kicked in before I started to fall backwards, my arms swinging behind me to break my fall, but fell back to my sides when a slender but strong pair of arms wrapped around my small waist, crushing me against the wall. My eyes shot open to first glimpse the peach color of the school's uniform pressed against my cheek. My hand rested against the symbol that was stitched into the sweater, the chest that rested underneath the sweater was distinctly male, gently rising in & out. My sapphire eyes slowly followed the buttons that held the sweater closed up until they reached the neckline of the clothing, revealing the white dress shirt that lied underneath. My eyes froze for a while on the opening of the collar of the shirt, the skin that was revealed hinted of a scare in the shape of a circle right were the collar bone rested.

"S-Sasuke-Kun…?" My voice was barely above a whisper as my eyes glided up the paper white skin, hungrily memorizing every little line & scare that defaced his skin, making him even more beautiful, when I finally met his intense, emerald stare.

Before I had time to understand what was happening, he pulled me into the empty library, closing the doors behind us & taking me to the furthest corner of the large room. The air left my lungs when I felt a bookshelf slam into my back, his hands firm on my hips, his nose touching mine. "Aisai…it's been too long again."

Unconsciously, my hands traced his face, my thumbs tracing lines under his eyes where the emerald strokes used to run down. My finger traced his lips, first the single black painted upper lip (like my bottom lip)then beginning to run the padding of my fore finger over his full, pale bottom lip.

Suddenly, without warning, my vision blurred as my sapphires turned to liquid, causing him to mix in with the background. "Where…where have you been all this time, Daaringu? I-I've…been unable to live…without you." Yeah…this is such a mushy moment…but what do you expect when the man that you've loved all of your lives dies & then suddenly appears alive several hundreds of years later, & then almost dies again, just to suddenly reappear two years later? "I'm sorry Hime-Chan…I don't know what happened…I remember the blade, & your scream, & Lelouch-Kun suddenly appearing in my mind, next to Murciēlago…everything else up to this point is a blur." His emeralds turned liquid as his quickly turned his head away, his arms constricted around my waist, his hand dipping just a little lower."So…are you now my Sasuke-Kun…or are you Ulquiorra still?" my lips curved into a triumphant smile when his eyes met mine again, warmth seeping out of them onto my skin.

"Let me ask you this, Sakura-Chan…" his slender, black painted fingers gently rose & whipped a stray violent blue strand out of my eyes. "Have you kissed anyone in this life?"

His face came closer as he awaited my answer, his lips almost brushing mine.

My mind had difficulty thinking with the weight of his body against mine, but I tried, knowing he was waiting for an answer.
"Does force count?" I remembered when I was in Hueco Mundo & Grimmjow had forced himself on me, crushing his lips on mine. The sad thing is if he wasn't such a jerk, I might have liked it!

"No, Aisai. It does not." His lips brushed the side of my lips, my heart quickening.

"Then besides you when you were an Arrancar…no, I have not."

A little growl of appreciation escaped his throat as he pressed closer, crushing me between his slender chest & the hard bookshelf, a place I loved more by the second."So then, it's right to say that I am your first & only kiss?"

A smile colored his voice as my breath caught in my throat, one second I was crushed between him & the self, next thing I know I'm on my back, underneath him & on top of a small little table.

Him emeralds were filled with mischief & a hint a promises. "Then is it right to say that I am your first & only love?" My cheeks colored as my eyes darted away from his. Where was he getting at with all these questions? When did my love for him become a pop quiz? Before I could voice my question thought, his fingers came under my chin, bringing my eyes back to his, all serious & dull again, but something was hidden underneath them.

"Skidco, Aisai…forever & always!"Before I could answer with my own profession of love his lips descended on mine, just like his other few kisses, this one felt awkward & unsure at first, but finally right, like we were made just to kiss each other. Yes, Ulquiorra Schiffer had died back at Hueco Mundo…the man that stood here with his lips against mine & his arms around me may look like him…but he is not. This man is much older than Ulquiorra. This man is Sasuke Schiffer, my twin's servant, my late husband, the man that has emotions, the man whom took a sword in the heart for me.

I am Sakura (Shang) Schiffer. I'm in the 10th grade. I am a Shinigami.I am 916 years old& am happily married to my ex. Arrancar husband, Sasuke (Ulquiorra) Schiffer…

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By: Sakura Schiffer…

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