If I'd Known

by Laseri

More Aragorn angst, this time from when he learns that Arwen is dying. Did he make the right choice in leaving her in Rivendell? It's too late to turn back.

I wouldn't have gone

I wouldn't have left it to you

I wouldn't have torn you

Kept you waiting

Through all those months

If I'd known.

I would have kept you

I would have guarded you from myself

I would have stayed here

Where I belong

With more than a memory of love

If I'd known.

I didn't do all that I could

I didn't know what or how

I didn't think disasters could be

So close to home

And now you're nearly gone.

If I'd known

You'd still be with me

If I'd known

Maybe you could stay

If I'd known

I'd be able to cry

If I'd known

I'd have no reasons to.

So though every breath

Takes me farther away

And though with my every heartbeat

One of yours falters and dies

Though by rights I shouldn't be here

I defeat every darkness for you.

Arwen Undomiel—

I didn't know.