Reality Bites: why do i have to keep reminding myself that Soi and Nakago and the rest of the Fushigi Yuugi characters are not mine??! oh yeah.. so i don't get sued.. anyway, sorry this is short.. i was never really a big fan of those in-depth analyses of nakago and soi's points-of-view, but i decided to make my own to pass the time.. charge up the angst level!!
Marrionette
I look up, and see thousands of pendulous threads, and I trail each graceful arc and line that they make, until I finally see them attached to my limbs. I tug hard at the strings, but it makes no difference. My whole being is still caught, entangled, within the fine ropes. I have no way of escape. The ties that keep me bound are worse than heavy chains of steel. I did not choose to be imprisoned like this. It was never my own will. It was, has been, and will always be, your doing. This time, it is the threads that force me to into motion, and I can do nothing else but obey. To your every whim, every desire, I follow the intricate dance that these hateful strings tell me to do. My mind shrieks in protest, and my eyes sting with the pain. I cry out my agony, yet you do not hear my pleas. You continue making me dance, making me act out the part that you've given me in this cursed puppet play. Every inch of me longs for rebellion, aches for freedom. Many times, I have beseeched you to release me from these hurtful bonds; many times, I've tried to fight the power that drives me to bow down to your every command. So many times, I've tried and tried – and failed. Now, I only have the knots to remind me of my wretched and useless insurrection. The tangles have wound themselves around me so tightly that I can hardly breathe. I've trapped myself with my own strings...
with my own weakness. I love you, and yet you will never acknowledge; never care. No heart. No sympathy. Only control. But then again, who am I to ask those sentiments of you? After all, I am only your weapon, your toy...
your marionette...