Song = Pink; Who Knew
Title = Who Knew; unimaginative
Series = Bleach; duh
Pairing = GinKira; never would have guessed, amirite?
Genre = Angst; totally unexpected
Enjoy = y/y; your choice
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
Gone. Gone, gone, gone. Nothing seemed right when he really thought about it. Then again, thinking wasn't necessary when it faced him every day, in plain sight. The empty office, the silent mornings and lonely evenings, not to mention the suspicious glares from nearly every other shinigami; everything reeked of abandonment.
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
If anyone had asked Kira when he first started, if his captain would ever betray him, he would have respectfully declined such a notion-- captains of the Gotei 13 weren't to be talked of in such a poor manner. If someone asked him that same question last week, he likely would have had a temporary backbone transplant and punched whoever spoke such blasphemy. Ichimaru was more than his captain and he was above such traitorous and unfaithful actions. Well, at least according to Kira.
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
But the betrayal ran just that much deeper for Kira. Deep enough to keep him clenching at his blankets during the night, and just severe enough to draw his glance upward from his paperwork to the empty desk across the room in foolish, illogical hope. His fingers and eyes grasping at a mere memory that taunted and haunted him. His skin chilled with the lack of touch and his ears dulled from the endless silence that was once filled with overly-elaborated compliments and suggestive murmurs.
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
'Captain Ichimaru shouldn't be trusted' everyone said. 'He'll hurt you' his friends would warn. Kira always understood their intentions-- only for his best interests. None of them had known how Ichimaru would wound his lieutenant, but somehow it made the cautions bitterly ironic. Even if there hadn't been a deeper meaning, it cut just the same. Had he taken his situation for granted? Taken Ichimaru for granted? Had he been that selfish? Well, shame on him.
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
Selfish or selfless or just plain destroyed, Kira missed Ichimaru, regardless. He missed the touches, the whispers, the affection, and even the feeling of belonging. He craved it. Pillows were no substitute for another body and leaving the door open just slightly the previous night, so it appeared someone else was already inside the office when he arrived in the morning, didn't negate the truth that there would be no one but himself sorting through endless stacks of paper.
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
'Be good, Izuru' he'd said. Be good. Don't follow. Wait for me to return. That was the most difficult part-- waiting. Somehow, though, he braved through every day with that same, reluctant smile he had always worn. Never daring to change his routine or his personality. He would wait for Ichimaru's return and keep everything in perfect condition, just how Ichimaru kept it.
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
Neat and tidy, just as it had been left.
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Silent and obediently, just as he had been left.
Who knew
Who knew