Against all odds
This is my third songfic and I hope it is way better than the others. It is my first one in english, so excuse me for my mistakes. Just tell me!
Plot: Etain is thinking of Darman and wating for him against all odds. Plays shortly after the second book of "Republic Commando"
Disclaimer: I own nothing of this. Maybe the balcony of Etain, but I think the way it belongs to Coruscant it belongs to Lucas, too. I don't get money for this!
Pairing: Etain/Darman
Raiting: I don't care how old you are, but you need to have some experiences to understand it.
The song is from Phil Collins.
Etain stood at the balustrade of her balcony and watched the busy goings of Coruscant. Nothing seemed worth looking at, but Etain needed something she could pay attention on to forget other things.
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You're the only one who really knew me at all
She missed him. More than anything.
Three weeks before she had lost her baby, the only thing that reminded her of him. The only thing that remained of him. Of their love and passion. Of their understanding.
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
He even didn't say goodbye. It was like a dark emptiness without him. The war was at its climax and Etain wished nothing more than to participate and die.
She knew Darman would die, too. He was just one unimportant soldier, one clone of millions. He was exchangeable.
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But in her heart he was the only one. He was the soldier of her heart and never exchangeable. He was unique.
Take a good look at me now
There's just an empty space
Etain laid her hands on her stomach. Where his future should have been was emptiness. She had only her mind to remember. Just memories.
And you coming back to me
Is against all the odds
And that's what I got to take
She covered her face in her hands and cried. He would never come back. She wished so much to see him. If she turned on the news she could see one of them. One who looked like Darman but was so different. So different.
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
"Darman…!" she cried into the air and hoped he would hear it. If he was still alive. With his team he was safer, but as a RC he had to work alone sometimes.
Then nobody would care if he dies.
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
She remembered their last night. He said he would take care and come back.
But he was a soldier and a clone of the republic. He wasn't made to have a family. He was made to die.
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Maybe they met in another life. Maybe they were mend to meet again. Maybe everything would change and maybe Etain could stop hoping. One day…
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now
'Cause I'll still be standing there
Tell me if you cried... I did...