A/N – Hey guys. This is my first fan-fic. It starts directly after the end of Nag Hammadi Is Where They Found the Gnostic Gospels. I've tried to keep it as true to the show as I can. However, lets just pretend Nicole and Jason don't exist. (There will be some JJ later.) And songs and movies that are mentioned in here may have been released after the show came out. Just to clear up any confusion that may have occurred ;)
Oh, this is also dedicated to the awesome Starcastic who encouraged me to write this. Don't forget to check out her lit fic "Surprise, Surprise."
Disclaimer – I don't own Gilmore Girls, as much as I'd like to. Nor do I have any rights to the song Until the Day I Die – Story Of the Year.
- Chapter One -
- Until the Day I Die -
Rory stood there for what felt like an eternity. It was only five seconds. But to her, time had stopped.
Around her townsfolk were enjoying the festivities, completely oblivious to her, and the WWII scale war of emotion that was going on in her head.
If her thoughts and emotions were turned into sound, it would sound like one thousand different radio's, playing one thousand different stations, all becoming louder and louder, trying to make themselves heard over the roar of the rest.
She blinked. It was the first movement she made since Jess drove past her. Since he left. Again.
He loves her. He actually said it out loud. I. Love. You.
It wasn't one of the thousands of scenario's she had imagined. This was the real thing.
She was happy, angry, sad, heartbroken, frustrated, and oh-so confused. It was as if every emotion she ever felt towards Jess was battling it out inside of her. She started to feel a little dizzy, and sat down on the curb, putting her head in her hands, and started to cry.
Just then Kirk walked past, walkie-talkie in hand. He saw Rory sitting on the curb.
"Hey! You! No loitering on the curb! We need to keep these footpaths clear," he said.
Rory didn't acknowledge his presence. She was too wrapped up in her own inner turmoil to even consider that there was still a festival going on behind her.
Kirk spoke into his walkie-talkie, "This is Bird Dog One to Bird Dog Two, requesting back up. There is a loiterer on the footpath. Over."
Just then Lorelai made her way through the crowd. "Rory! Honey! I got us Hot Dogs, and Candy Floss, and lots and lots of coffee!"
She stopped when she saw Rory with her head in her hands. "Sweetie, are you alright? Did Kirk yell at you? Because mommy will kill him if you want?"
Rory lifted her head up. "He loves me," she said, wiping her eyes.
Lorelai, obviously puzzled asked "Who? Kirk? That's just creepy!"
"No! Not Kirk. Jess. Jess loves me."
"Jess, as in Jess-Jess? The Jess? James Dean Wanna-Be Jess?"
"Yes. The Jess." Rory confirmed, letting out a sob.
Lorelai put down all the food as she sat on the curb next to her daughter, gathering her into her arms.
"Aww, baby, do you wanna talk about this?"
"Not really," Rory sniffed, "Not just yet at least. Can we go home now?"
"Sure sweets, lets go."
Lorelai stood up, lifting Rory with her, and picked the food up. Putting one arm around her shoulders, the duo headed towards home, for a night of good, old fashioned wallowing.
xxx
Jess pulled over just before the 'Farewell from Stars Hollow' sign. He left his engine on, listening to the song that was playing on the radio.
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (When I knew who I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does.
Well make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause' I know I still do.
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt.
We'll never fall apart
So tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do, just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!
Yeah I'd spill my heart, for you!
My hands are at your throat,
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do,
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes.
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!
He reflected over the events of the last ten minutes, thinking how appropriate this song was for him right now.
Did he really tell Rory Gilmore that he loves her? The girl he hasn't been able to stop thinking about since he first met her? The girl he could never forget?
He did. He told her that he loves her. The words he never managed to say while they were together.
What madness drove him to say that? Why did he tell her now? She probably has a new boyfriend.
"Idiot!" He said out loud, to no one in particular. "You're a freaking IDIOT!"
'I should have stayed. I should have listened to what she had to say.' he thought. 'I should have stayed to at least find out whether she loves me.'
He leant forward, resting his head on the steering wheel. Inhaling deeply, he thought to himself 'Well Mariano, you gotta know one way or the other.'
He put his indicator on, and pulled out onto the road again, only to make a U-Turn, back to Stars Hollow. Back to the town he hates. Back the to girl he loves.
xxx
Lorelai sat on the couch, deep in thought. Rory had gone to bed an hour ago after admitting that there was a very high possibility that yes, she probably did love Jess right back.
Lorelai hated the fact that that boy, the boy who had broken her daughters heart already, had so much control over her emotions.
She really did think Rory was over him. That she was moving on.
However, that was obviously not the case. The start of a plan was forming in her head. She knew Rory at least needed to have some closure. And she knew how to get it for her.
She picked up the phone and dialled a number she had known off by heart for years.
"Luke's, we're closed."
"Luke, its Lorelai, we need to have a talk about that nephew of yours."
A/N – So, did you guys like it? Review and let me know. Constructive criticism will be very much appreciated )