1 I put my fingers around the picture of Shuichi and I. My eyes fluttered open, then they would close. There was lack of sleep that I haven't had great of for two weeks since Shuichi had left me. I checked the clock. 3:43 PM.

My feet stumbled out of the bedroom and into the kitchen, stopping to see out the window if any pink haired boy came walking past. No one. I sighed, walking into the kitchen. I could never express my feelings toward him, so he left. He tried. But gave up.

Maybe it was meant to be like this, you find someone, but it doesn't always work out like you wanted it to.

Ha.

Life is never fair, you can't get everything you want. Did I really expect for Shuichi to stay with me on how I treated him?

People are filthy, always wanting everything they want. But it can never work out.

Never.

I walked onto the balcony, looking up at the sun, then down at the people.

It's hard when you can't change the past, when you wish you can change something that horribly happened. What would I wish for?

To never have met Shuichi Shindou.

Its because of you Shuichi, that I live in this horrible misery. But only one thing that changes my mind, turning it off. Then on. I love him. More than anything, and I want him back.

I never talked to him. But you belong to me, Shuichi. Im weak. I'm afraid to be with you. But I love you so much Shuichi, I wish you can know that. I would give up everything for you, if you can just come back to me.

Do you remember when we first met? You couldn't let go of me. It's like I have been waiting for you my whole life. You're the only one I want..

Your eyes are so full of happiness, you look at your life as if it was the greatest thing anyone can ever own.

I take slow walks to the bedroom again, getting dressed. I slipped on my trench coat walking out of the house. Sound swirls around me. Cars. people. Everything.

You don't know how much I miss you Shuichi. Your everything to me, you're my life.

I walked along the street, peering at cars that pass, bringing wind to my face, ruffling my golden hair.

I took a corner, walking down a alley, and up the hill to the park. I stopped looking at the kids playing on the swings. They are so happy and clouded from what the world really is. But that won't last for long.

I sat down on the bench, near two little kids play with a small red ball. There was a small boy with red hair, who reminded me of Shuichi, how he bounced around and made a lot of noise. Then there was a brown haired boy bossing the other kid around. A smile crept across my face.

The red haired boy jumped for the ball but it went over his head, and over into the bush next to me. The boy looked at the brown and ran to get the ball. Seeming if they were talking from eye contact.

He dug around in the bush for awhile, and couldn't find it. Tears formed in his eyes as he sniffed. I rolled my eyes and got up, getting the ball out of the bush and handing it to the little boy.

"Here" I said handing him the ball.

His face lit up just like Shuichi's always did. "Thank you so much!" He said jumping taking the ball.

The child's face was covered with dirt, his hair was a mess and it seemed as if he hasn't eaten in about three days.

"Hurry up stoopid!" The other boy said crossing his arms and stomping his feet.

"Coming!" The hyper boy turned around from me and running to go play ball again.

About an hour past by, as the sun began to set. Each child went home until only the red head boy sat down in the grass looking at the sun.

"Hey kid." I spoke walking over to him. "Where's your parents?"

His little head moved up to my eyes and tears formed in his eyes. "I dunno..."

I looked around, but everyone left.

"How long have you been here?"

"Yesterday..."

"Yesterday? Come with me, we'll find you parents." I held out my hand gently.

The little boy took it and got up jumping up and down. "Im hungry! And I smell funny! I want a bath!" He said very hyper.

"Okay, okay. I'll stop by my house first and we will get you fixed up" I said rolling my eyes.

We walked out of the park, taking corners back to my house. I opened the door, bringing the little kid inside. "Just don't touch anything" I let go of his hand as he went wild jumping through the house and laughing.

He reminded me so much of Shuichi, it's like they were born together. But I guess Shuichi just acts like a child instead of a adult.

I walked into the bathroom, pulling back the shower curtain and turning the hot water on making it a good tempature for the kid.

"Kid! Get in here and take your bath!" I yelled into the other room turning off the bath water.

He shot into the bathroom striping down and jumping into the bath water, splashing water everywhere.

"Watch it." I growled taking off my now soaked jacket as I pulled up my sleeves.

I gave him his bath, and fed him. I took him to his house that he said his house was and knocked on the door. A woman appeared at the door with her eyes red and puffy, like she had been crying.

"Is this your child?" I said pulling the child in front of me.

"Mitsuki!" The woman cried wrapping her arms around the child tears rolling down her eyes. She picked him up, looking at me. "Thank you so much! I don't know how I would ever repay you!"

"It's okay. I don't need anything" I mumbled.

She bowed and shooed Mitsuki inside. "Thank you once again. I will never forget you." She said as I turned around and started to walk away, staring at my feet.

I stopped looking side to side for cars then walking across the street. The cars buzzed by honking at people who were in their way. It was dark now, and the street lights flickered on.

Someone was running by, and bumped my shoulder hard, as the person fell to the ground.

Shuichi was lying on the ground clutching his side in pain.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't see where I was going and..." Shuichi said scrambling up and looking at me. "Oh...Yuki..."