Steven finally tells the gems how he feels
"Guys..." Steven looks at the other Crystal Gems.
"Is something wrong Steven" Pearl asks nervously
"What's up little man..?" Amethyst shoves a burrito down her mouth.
"It's been on my mind for a very long time, I'm too scared to know the answer." Steven looks down his feet while frowning.
"What is it Steven, you know you can tell us anything" Garnet calmly states.
"It's about my mom, Rose Quartz" Steven starts sweating.
"W-What about your mom" Pearl starts forming tears.
*The room went silent...it seemed like forever.*
"W-well just sometimes I feel like I ruined everything for you guys. I'm much weaker than her, I'm starting to learn how to use my powers. I know I'll never live up to her". Steven starts forming many tears in his eyes.
"Steven...We know you're not you mom, you are you." Garnet says while messing Steven's hair up"
"Yeah little man, it wouldn't be the same here without you, I wouldn't have any one to tease" Amethyst giggles.
*Pearl stays silent...*
"I know you guys are just saying this stuff to be nice, I know you guys miss my mother very much. I over hear you guys talking when you think I'm asleep." Steven says sadly.
"We do miss her very much, but she left us with you and we love you Steven" Garnet takes off her Visor.
"bro, you really need to stop thinking about these things" Amethyst finally gets a little worried.
"Pearl do you have anything to say about this" Steven asks walking towards pearl.
"No steven" Pearl shakes her head,
"Pearl, I want to hear what you have to say about this"! Steven says touching her shoulder.
"I don't have anything to say about this Steven!" Pearl jerks her shoulder moving Stevens hand off of it.
"Yes you do, I know you do!" Steven yells
"I said no'! Pearl bangs her fist on the table.
"I know you wish I wasn't here, you want my mom here instead of me"! Steven starts crying
"That's not true Steven" Pearl tries to calm herself down.
"That's not what I heard you say earlier"! Steven looks up at pearl
"What are you talking about"!? Pearl blushes
"You know what I'm talking about, you full on said that you wish she was here instead of me" Tears rush down Steven's face.
"I miss her okay"! Pearl screams
'SHUT UP PEARL" Amethyst screams in Pearl face.
"He wanted to know" Pearl says while pushing Amethyst away.
"Why am I even here, I tried to live up to my mom but I have failed." Steven frowns.
"Don't think that way steven, I love you." Garnet says while tears form in her third eye.
"I also failed you guys, I bubbled your friend, Bismuth." Steven gets a flash back of Bismuth with his sword through her.
"She attacked you and wanted to shatter gems" Amethyst said while trying to comfort Steven.
"I didn't want to fight her, she meant so much to you guys" Steven wipes away a few tears.
"But you mean more" Garnet said while putting her hand on his shoulder.
*Pearl goes to her room while sobbing...*
"What about Jasper, I couldn't help her. It's all my fault she got corrupted." Steven gets a flash back of Jasper being Corrupted.
"She refused to get help from you, I was there." Amethyst remembers.
"What about Eyeball, he wanted my gem and tried to stab me. I had no choice but to send him off in space." Steven gets another flashback of eyeball floating away.
"You were protecting yourself" Garnet says while looks into Stevens eyes.
"I couldn't save them" Steven cries.
"You tried to save them Steven, they didn't listen to you." Garnet kneels down to Stevens height.
"I should've helped them anyway, I know mom would've helped them." Steven says while grabbing a hold of his gem.
"Not everyone can be saved, or helped." Garnet hugs Steven.
"Pearl doesn't want me here, I cause her pain" Steven starts crying
"Pearl is just being Pearl, don't listen to her. Well i don't anyway and I'm doing just fine". Amethyst giggles.
"Not the time" Garnet gives Amethyst the shut up look"
"I feel so bad" Steven says while walking over to the couch.
"Steven your mother wanted this, she chose to give up her physical form to have you. " Garnet walks over towards Steven.
"Why did she" Steven questions
"She wanted to have a Son, she wanted to create something new." Garnet tells Steven
"I know if you had to chose between her and I, you would pick her." Steven starts forming tears again.
*Pearls walks out of her room hearing what Steven said*
"I couldn't say that it isn't true" Pearl says while thinking about all the good times she and Rose had.
"PEARL!" Garnet yells.
"I knew it" Steven sighs
"Steven I love you but your mom and I had a special bond" Pearl blushes
"Answer this question to my face, do you wish my mom was here instead of me?! Steven says while forming fists
"I do wish your mom was here instead of you" Pearl gulps not thinking how it would hurt Steven.
*Steven runs out of the house running down the beach while crying*