A/N: I did this out on a whim. Didn't sleep all night and kind of just free wrote it. So if it is crappy beyond crap I am really sorry, if you actually enjoy it the OMGERRD cool. :D As always feel free to leave feedback :) This is part 1 there is another part to it so yeah. lol

Jane's POV

It had been a long day and Jane was ready to get out of the precinct. She had been planning something for a while. After work she would go to a secret place that no one knew about to get away from the world, to get away from all that she had felt.

Jane was always so tough and strong, but the times when she needed to feel weak, she would go to this place and escape, to be free. She put love into everything she did at this place and she felt so alive when she did. She had been distant from Maura though.

She was in love with Maura. Yes, Jane Clementine Rizzoli loved the honey blonde brainy, google-mouthed woman. It was so much now, that every time she saw Maura, she would wind up dazed and jaded, knowing that the woman so beautifully placed in front of her, like an undying Shakespearean play, could never possibly be hers. She could never love someone like Jane. And it made Jane...feel breathless and like a sailor practiced his knots over and over again with her heart and her stomach hit rock bottom. She was losing sleep and losing will.

How can you love someone so much, and be so afraid to be with them. How could you love someone, and not tell them. Go every day admiring everything you love about them. It's like a silent movie, you can feel every nerve at work but you can never speak it. When eyes meet, when eyes lock. It's like pulsing life in a dormant volcano. How can you love someone so much, and let it go for this long.

Maura's POV

Maura was happy and she was in love with him. They've been married for a month now. She realized that by being married to him, Jane didn't bother coming around much anymore. She barely came to the morgue, she just sent Frost. She noticed that Jane was being eaten away by something she couldn't explain. She wanted to be there for Jane, but she had a family now, a husband to be there for, to love, to cherish, and to hold through thick and thin and in sickness and in health. Blah, Blah, Blah...

How can you grow, if you're always so dependent on someone. How can you live your own life if you always need to be with someone. Meet someone, meet someone you can love, like a husband. How can you want someone in your life, but not be able to give them 100% like you did before. Is it best to let them go?

Sigh.

"Maura..." Jane said peaking her head through the doorway and looking down slightly intimidated. Maura could break her down, size her up, see right through her, feel the thoughts Jane was thinking just by looking at her. She felt like a land mine waiting for the right amount of pressure to make her blow. She didn't need Maura to break her apart and figure her out, she just needed her.

"Jane?" Maura gave a shocking look, it's been a month since she's heard that beautiful raspy voice call for her. Ever since her wedding day.

"I know this is asking a lot, but will you come with me?" Jane said with loving, pleading eyes. She was scared for the world to crumble in on her, rejection; Maura was the closest thing she ever had, and the only thing she had to do to lose her was let her be happy. Her heart sank. Palms sweaty, scars sore.

"Jane...I don't..." Maura could feel disappointment filling the space between them.

"Please...just this once..." Jane begged.

Maura missed Jane, but she was afraid of what that meant. She looked down, made a call, and then agreed.

"Okay, where are we going?" Maura said with everything in hand ready to go, but nervous.

Jane smiled but didn't answer, she had memorized every inch of Maura's delicate, graceful face, all she ever wanted to do was brush the hair from her face, trace the laugh lines with her finger tips-with the million of nerve endings. Jane was stuck again, in that moment, where it felt like the world lived on without them, because they stood still together, in stopped space, in stopped time.

Jane turned and walked out the door and Maura followed not knowing everything in their lives was about to change.